My final day here.

Wish me luck on my new job, ok (I'm scared as hell!).

I'll see ya when I see ya!

;)

M.A.L.A.S !

How To Save A Life
The Fray

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Ok, I am, as of today... a resigned staff of this company.

Yeay!!

How great this feels like! It's definately a relief. I can't wipe this smile off my face. Imagine 4 years and 4 month of working with them. It was great at first... but up until this 3rd company I followed them into, it's so like.. whatever! Makin sombong, I tell ya. I kinda liked them back then. Tapi kalo skarang aku cakap aku suka diaorg, confirm korang sumer kata aku giler! Hahahahah.

Anyway, semalam masa aku nak hand-in aku nye resignation letter... aku hulur kat dia, tapi dia taknak amik. Tak suruh pun aku letak atas meja, instead dia cam bengang aku kasi dah petang (5 minit nak balik). Ingat aku nak bagi 24 hour notice. Konon dah bagus sangat la taknak sambut surat aku tuh. Please la dude! By the way, dia is a 'she'. THE CEO of the new company. THE PR & Communications Manager (yes, it IS true) of the other new company. THE Management.

This morning I was late. Terserempak la dengan The Big Boss kat bawah. Being a normal human being, I smiled at him. I guess you know what I'm gonna tell you next. He didn't smile back. He saw me, obviously! Yet he totally ignored me like I wasn't even there. Kalau ikut aku, tak kire dengan orang yg aku kenal ke...tak kenal ke... kalau dah terserempak cenggitu aku senyum je la. Kite kan manusia, ape salahnya buat baik to each other...mana tau satu hari nanti kita memerlukan pertolongan diaorg ke kan. But I guess he feels that he is THE most superior person on earth, that he does not need anybody's help and that everybody should respect him. (Remember that particular meeting in IMU yg dia kata sape2 nak resign dia bleh suruh The Father to sign & give recommendation? Eheheheh.. Kenangan tuh!) Or maybe it's because of the fact that he's already using Windows Vista... and the only one in the office that is so totally up-to-date with technology? Hmmmm....??

Whatever the case is, I guess you can go to hell with it.

Isk. That's harsh, isn't it? Ok let me rephrase it - Whatever the case is, I guess you can just die with it?

I'm pissed with the way they treat people, but I can't help feeling happy that I'll be outta here by next Friday. I know they can't wait for me to leave either, since I'm not doing anything good for them anyway... but hey, I'm just following what the contract says.

By April, insyaAllah, Dahlia and I will have a normal diaorg-free life. Why is Dahlia involved? Well, being a dear friend to me who had been through tougher times than I had.. dialah tempat aku mengadu pasal kerja. After this, when we hang out.. there won't be any discussion about them again!

Ooooohhh... can't wait for that, can we now?!

But don't fret people. I've told Mai that I'll invite her everytime we're having a get-together, so she can let us in on the juiciest gossip.

The other day during AF5 concert, I told Mummy aku bleh ngurat Syawal since he's 23.

"Dia muda setahun je dari Jhn"

Just now, I discovered that his birth year is 1984. Hey... that's cousin Dina's birth year! He's 2 years younger?

Damn! Lupa plak aku 25 tahun ni. Kehkehkeh...

Which reminds me to remind all of you to mark your calendar siap2. 11th April. As usual, I want an expensive gift ok (Yes, korang bleh start kumpul duit dari skarang). But at the end of the day, I know nobody but my family and closest friend would remember. And I can't celebrate coz I have an exam the next day. Last year pun sama gak kan? Hehehehe.. what luck!

Anyway, sejak kebelakangan ni aku rasa cam aku tak sanggup nak buat ape2 sorang2. Tengok wayang pun dengan kawan2. Weekend kalo tak terperap dlm rumah, aku kuar dengan kawan2. Balik keje nak makan kat luar pun aku ajak kawan2. Nak gi Mont Kiara pun kena heret Omar gak. Haritu Mummy balik tinggalkan aku sorang2. Masuk je rumah, sunyi semacam. Sedih giler!! Rasa cam nak menangis je. Ape kena gaknye dengan aku ni. Aku dah biasa buat semua benda sorang2, tetiba rasa cam takleh nak menghadapi hari2 yg mendatang keseorangan..

Ouch!

On a dizzy Thursday evening...

Kakak : Boleh bagi IC number?
Me : 4062
Kakak : Errmmm... IC number... 4 nombor akhir je.
Me : 4062

Kakak carik my green card silently for a short second, then...

Kakak : Takde la. Ape IC number tu lagi?
Me : 4062
Kakak : Betul ke number tu?
Me : Eh, bukan ek?! Alamak... ape number IC saye nih?
Doctor : Aaa.. u ni pendatang ke? Tatau nombor IC sendiri?
Me : Jap ek kak. * Isk, ape nombor IC aku nih? *

Sambil aku stumble nak kuarkan IC aku, aku pun sebut out-loud IC number aku dari awal.

Me : Ha! 5682. Hehehehe...
Kakak : Heheheh.. Aaa ok. Ade pun.

Maka aku pun masuk utk berjumpa Doc Shariff (the best doctor ever!). Dia kasi aku MC memandangkan aku dah bengong2 sampai IC number sendiri pun tak ingat.

Me : Kak, sori la. Tadi tu nombor telefon saya. Dah pening la. Confuse!
Kakak : La... nombor telefon ke?! Hahahahahha...

Dan kakak tu tu sambung sengih2 sambil tergelak kecil sampai la selesai dia bagi aku ubat.

Hishhhh!!! Malu giler!!!!

School kids today are WAY alienated. I mean, how can you get 17A1 when you're only 15?! When I was 15 , all I care was about buying magazines to collect Backstreet Boys posters. I couldn't even get 8As for my PMR. Har har.

Bukan tu aje, tapi budak sekolah zaman skarang suka sangat bully each other which leads to fighting which leads to killing. Baru belasan tahun they can get so violent! And not to mention the amount of these teenagers yg telah di rape and some of'em yg go sleeping around. Scary, dude.

And speaking of teenagers, smalam aku lepak kat Mekdi Sentral. Sebelah meja kiteorg, which happened to be VERY near... ade la satu couple ni. Umur dalam lingkungan 19-20 la..budak college rasanya. Pompuan tu pakai baju kurung mcm dah keje. Yang lelaki tu rambut cacak2 siap karat lagik. Pastu pakai rantai basikal yg tergantung kat belt tu. Baju kecik2 ala punk. Gaya macam penganggur tapi tatau la kan..hehehhe.

"Awak buang semua nama dia dalam handphone awak ni!"

"Baby taknak la!!"

Di atas adalah contoh perbualan mereka. Aku nak termuntah everytime pompuan tu membahasakan dirinye Baby. Like I always say, Baby ke Babi?! Dahtu dok merengek2 kat boipren dia. Eeeeewww!!!

And they talk stuff like which chick is hotter, boypren sape lagi hensem dari boypren sape... this couple is having a fight about this and that... pada aku, itu semua macam stuff yg very de whatever.

Tapi it reminded me of being seated next to sepasang kawan perempuan (married, middle-aged women) yg sedang membincangkan urusan suami-isteri. I mean, seriously suami-isteri stuff with no cildren in the picture. Making children was more like it. It was embarrassing enuf listening to them discussing Kamasutra (aku tak sure spelling nye, dan aku takleh search kat Google sbb takut ape dia akan return kat aku!) while I was sitting in front of a male friend.

Berbeza betul perbualan diaorg. Hehehehhe... Perbualan aku cemana ek? Biasanya sembang pasal kerja, pasal problem dengan boss / colleague / housemates, pasal serious boyfriend / fiancee / husband / babies, pasal movies and going out doing social activities and the most important topic.. financial issues. Kan?

Ooooopsss... have to go. Nak menunaikan tanggungjawab terhadap perut. ;P

Dear Blog,

I haven't been updating you properly. Please forgive me. I just don't feel like writing. There's nothing to write anyway. Well, maybe there are a few things I should tell you.. but I'm not sure whether I want others to know.

Anyway, I'm in the process of making a new baju kurung just for the purpose of going to my friends' weddings. I'm thinking brown-ish / gold-ish, totally simple and plain, but a better material la. But suddenly as I was typing, I kinda pictured myself in a black baju kurung. Maybe not baju kurung la. Can wear kebaya/kebarung what?! Although I'm so fat and figure-less..... Oh well, maybe it's not such a good idea afterall. I think I'll just stick to a simple black baju kurung. Suits me just fine.

Dalam masa sebulan lagi, my dear Blog, I'm turning 25. Still young, huh? Keh keh keh. What do you think I want this year? A huge condo in the heart of KL? A peice of cheese cake? Free trip to New Zealand (Apa? 2 juta??!!!)? At this very moment, all I want is to be at home sleeping comfortably bersama bucuk ku.

The Big Boss ni asyik ler masuk basuh tangan kat pantry. Macam dia slalu buat since IMU days la kan... tapi skang ni cam kelakar. Dia keluar dari main door kat depan sana where everybody can't see and then quietly dia masuk dari our back door. Eh, ni tak sampai seminit dia dah masuk lagi pantry. WTF?! Hahahahha.. lantak dia la. Janji tak kantoi big-time!

Oh, cerita punya cerita...tgk2 dah panjang dah posting kali ni. Member sorang belum online la plak. Boring sampai nak menangis dah ni.

I love my car.

Thankyouverymuch.

Another 3 and a-half hours until balik time.

I CAN'T WAIT!!!
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40 minutes to go.

I NEED to get out of here!!
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9 more minutes.

BYE!!

If only I can make a video call from my brain. Let them get the picture straight from the source.

I feel like s***.

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What is more interesting than blogging?

Sleeping. Watching cartoons. Eating.

Working?
It IS interesting IF you are NOT attached to this company, or if you actually HAVE work to do.
At 8.30 am every morning I can't wait to go back home and sleep. Watch cartoons. Eat.

And now, at the end of the day, I still feel like s***.