Uji bakat Akademi Fantasia.

Johor Bahru - 24 & 25 Januari 2009.

Lagu : Karma - Cokelat.

"Kenapa anda mengambil bahagian dalam Akademi Fantasia?"
Sebab saya berminat dalam bidang nyanyian dan ingin mempelajari teknik2 yg betul supaya dapat memperbaiki mutu nyanyian saya. Tidak lupa juga untuk mempelopori bidang persembahan pentas, supaya dapat menjadi entertainer yg berkualiti.

"Mengapa anda rasa anda layak menjadi the next Akademi Fantasia winner?"
Kerana saya sangat determined untuk merialisasikan impian saya sebagai seorang penyanyi yg berkebolehan, dan saya percaya saya akan bekerja bersungguh2 dalam masa pengajian. Saya mempunyai motivasi diri yg tinggi untuk berjaya.

Tagline : "Peace!"

Promo clip : Menari terkinja2 sambil buat aksi comel, last skali pusing and say "Peace", sambil membuat gaya awek2 Jepun yg suke pose dalam gambar dengan trademark peace mereka tu.

Outfit dalam promo clip : Tudung bawal kaler putih pin kat depan. Jeans lusuh kaler biru, t-shirt lengan panjang shocking pink. Dan kasut Adidas sponsor, bewarna putih.

Cara perkenalkan diri sebelum persembahan : Senyum semanis mungkin selama 5 saat sambil memandang sekeliling auditorium. "AFUNDI saya! Peace!" sambil membuat gaya awek2 Jepun sekali lagi.

Yesterday, I fuc*ed things up. But it all turned out ok at the end.

At least I get to stay home, have lunch with Farah (who is now busy and keeping herself invisible from YM and Facebook), and talk to this man who is in charge of the server... and has the sexiest voice I've ever heard. Buat aku conscious plak dengan tahap ke-sedapan suara aku. Ekekeke...

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According to my BMI Calculator (bukan BMI my old college kat Gombak), I am an obese.

Yes. OBESE!

But I can't seem to keep food out of my head. Heran btui aku dengan orang2 yg bleh tahan makan sayur or roti hari2 selama sebulan sbb nak diet. Aku cuba 2 hari without nasik and I am dizzy like hell, sakit perut giler babs. Pasal tu la sampai aku pegi fuc*ed up that server. And yea, now I'm back to eating. Walaupun I think I eat less nowadays, my pants, baju and even towel tak boleh fit dah. Kembung angin ke? Hahahah.. tak logic sungguh. Confirm lah sbb aku makan banyak & jadi makin gemok. Cisss!!!

Tulah aku kata, I eat when I'm depress. Nampaknye aku makin depress skang nih. Yeke? Don't I seem happy on the outside? Hmmm... I don't understand myself.

Apelah yg jadik kat diri aku nih lately? Isk isk isk.... Bleh tak kalau aku nak keluar dari diri aku kejap? A pause from being myself. Rimas giler.

Is it because of work? Hmmm... I don't have anything against the company and my colleagues, but maybe... just maybe that I start to realise that I am not made to be what I am today? I wanna switch, but I can't.

I wish I can start over.

Yes. Betul. Maybe that's what I really want right now. I wish I can start over. I'll wish harder. Maybe it'll come true.

Topik 1

Cik, please wake up and smell the coffee. Awak tu sape? Tak cantik. Tak layak. Tak best.

So please, dok diam jek dah. Lupakan je....

Topik 2

Nak sambung blajar. Sementara masih ada semangat nih, baiklah terus plan dan apply.

Tapi takmau buat IT. Lain sket takpe. Lain terus pun takpe.

Islamic studies? Forestry?

Topik 3

Baru harini aku jatuh hati kat lagu Faizal Tahir - Sampai Syurga. Dah basi dah. Farah, Pizli, cousins... dari dulu dok soh aku dengar.

Sebab baru baca lirik nye. Dan dengar acoustic version.

Topik 4

Cuti CNY ni dok rumah aje la jawabnye. Make sure siap download movies & bawak balik buku2 citer.

Untuk stock seminggu. Sebab duit da takde, most probably cancel plan utk bawak Mummy & aunties jalan2.

Topik 5

Berangan itu best. Especially malam2 sebelum tidur. Utk mengelak daripada "cry myself to sleep" syndrome.

Bila bangun the next day, reality hits. Hard.

Hancur harapan. (Balik kepada Topik 1)

Topik 6

Berhenti berharap.

Apabila menekan break, ia berbunyi. So loud, kereta2 di sekeliling boleh dengar. (It's been weeks, dan break dah rasa mcm kurang makan)

Hantar kedai.

From break disc lining to something yg dah haus, calar, pecah to tayar koyak. From RM55 to RM245 to RM610 to RM850.

And no, hutang can't do.

Balik rumah. Korek tabung. Swipe credit card.

Siap.

Depress.

But still, anything for my car and my safety. It's her 5th year with me, and those things yg ditukar tidak pernah ditukar before. Except for my 2-year-old tyres, of course. (Ayat penyedap hati)

DO NOT ajak aku kuar. DO NOT even ajak pegi makan. For at least 5 months' recovery period.

A big shoutout to our friend, Omar, yg sudah bergaya dengan kereta baru. Yes, people. Omar dah beli kereta hebat dan he's driving it around town, baby!

Oh they grow up so fast... * sob sob *



A baby blue Chevrolet. What did I say, eh? Bergaya or what?! You should see him driving. Suddenly he becomes.... sexier. * Ka ching! *

So I guess now he has a house of his own, a new one for his family in Johor, a new car, his own business and he just sponsored his sister's wedding. Hmmm.. financially stable. He cooks, he cleans and now he's driving.

OMG! He's like, perfect!

Demit! Why does he has to be my friend?! Now aku tak bleh mengurat dah. Cis!

Contoh sms aku pada Omar lepasnih :
"Where r u? Please pick me up at home. Hujan la."

....like what he did to me zaman IMU dulu. Macam la takde payung! Rumah pun sekangkang kera dgn ofis. Ahaks! It's payback time!

Anyway, Dahlia pun dah pakai keta gak skang. So I guess now it's my turn to rest. Itupun kalo diaorg paham aku nih da penat drive sejak dulu lagik. Kalo masih tak paham, jawabnye aku jugak la yg kena bawak keta aku kalo pegi jalan2.

:P

I feel so ugly today. And it's just because of the new gold-color shoes I have on.

Baju kurung baru, fine. Tudung a bit off color, but still ok. Goes well with my kain. Shoes? OMG!!!! Why did I even buy these shoes? Urghhhh... this has to be because of that salesgirl yg lembab-nak-mati smalam tuh. Giler slow. She went 3 times to find my shoes, and it took her, like, an hour. She's an Indonesian. Maybe she didn't understand what I was saying?

"Ambilkan saya saiz 7 & 9. Apa2 warna pun boleh". They were out of 8.

She came with a brown-colored 9. And after I tested, it's too big and I said I wonder if I can fit in 7. And then she said, "saiz 7 ada, tapi warna hitam". I was like, WTF?!!!!!

I didn't want to have to wait another 15mintes for her to go find my shoes, when clearly I have requested for her to bring in those sizes in ANY color. So I took my first pick, which is this gold-colored shoes I'm wearing now.

It's so ugly. I can't wait for the color to fall off.

I think I have a crush on this guy, who is... ermm.. whatever.
So here's to you:

If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down
If you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain't no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try

Take a chance on me
(That's all I ask of you honey)
Take a chance on me

We can go dancing, we can go walking, as long as we're together
Listen to some music, maybe just talking, get to know you better
'Cos you know I've got
So much that I wanna do, when I dream I'm alone with you
It's magic
You want me to leave it there, afraid of a love affair
But I think you know
That I can't let go

If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down
If you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain't no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try

Take a chance on me
(Come on, give me a break will you?)
Take a chance on me
Oh you can take your time baby, I'm in no hurry, know I'm gonna get you
You don't wanna hurt me, baby don't worry, I ain't gonna let you
Let me tell you now
My love is strong enough to last when things are rough
It's magic
You say that I waste my time but I can't get you off my mind
No I can't let go
'Cos I love you so

If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down
If you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby can't you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
(Take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me)

Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby can't you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
(Take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me)

Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa ba-ba
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me


HarHarHar ;P

Pada suatu hari, saya came across satu website yang menampilkan imej2 menarik dan photoshop tutorials on how to create them. Maka saya telah mencuba nya dan header ini adalah satu test kepada ilmu baru yg telah saya perolehi.

Saya menulis teks ini adalah untuk menurunkan gambar Farah dan char kuey teaw Makcik Salmah itu. Ini adalah kerana ia sedikit sebanyak mengganggu pemandangan mata saya yg masih belum berpuas hati dengan hasil kerja saya. Tujuan saya meletakkannya sebagai header bukanlah to brag, instead saya lebih gembira jika ada kawan2 yg sudi memberi komen dan tunjuk ajar untuk mengembangkan lagi bakat saya dalam bidang design.

Ape? Bakat?!

Hahahahahha.. Dude. Tolong pulang ke pangkuan jalan. Sedar diri la. Please.

Orang kata, kalau kita list down ciri-ciri lelaki yg kite nak, maybe tak lama pastu akan jumpa lah kite dengan lelaki idaman kite tuh.

Maka pada satu hari yg indah, sedang aku duduk dibuai angin sepoi2 bahasa bersama lagu River Flows In You - Yiruma, telah complete lah ciri-ciri lelaki yg aku idamkan selama nih...

1. Impossibly fast & strong.
2. Skin must be pale white & ice cold.
3. Mata bewarna topaz, and must change color .
4. Speaks like he's from a different time.
5. Never eats or drinks anything.
6. Doesn't go out in the sunlight.

Umur tu tak penting. Age is just a number, right? He can be 17 for a hundred years, for all I care.

Ye, itulah sebabnya azam tahun 2009 aku kata, not to find myself a boyfriend.



*Sigh*