Dear blog,

Setelah sebulan bekerja separuh mati, semalam memang hampir 98% lagi mati. Pukul 6.30 pagi saya sampai rumah, pukul 8.30 pagi dah terkejar2 mandi sebab nak kene rush off for 10.00am training @ Nilai. Slept in the cab.

Dalam training, system tak jalan. Bongok gile aku nih. Buat kerja semua salah. Semua tak siap. Semua nya tak memuaskan. Mungkin dah terlalu penat kot? Maka, depan manusia yg ramai... aku telah kena sound. Siap sebut nama nih. Gile babas. Rasa macam nak sembunyi bawah meja. Semangat pun takde lepastu. Selera makan jgn harap la. Dah sebulan ni aku rasa makan sebab taknak pengsan jek. Tak rasa apa makanan yg masuk.

Nasib baik Lin ada kat kedai dia. Aku nak ada sorang family member yg dekat dgn aku skang. Oh btw, harini birthday Mummy.


And yes, I missed my best friend's wedding on Saturday. Zul's wedding. ZUL, ok! And months before this aku tak hangout dengan dia. Seriously, aku sedih.

Ok la. Takde masa ni. Semua manusia marah aku.

Bye

Aku dah tak rupa manusia. Tak boleh fikir, tak boleh bukak mata, tak boleh nak makan... Aku sendiri pun tak tau nak cakap macam mana. It's a huge pile of shit. Seriously. I'm WAY beyond DEAD. I'm sending in my letter in a few days.

Tapi aku tak sampai hati kat Encik Ho. Aku boleh bangun hari2 sebab ada dia. Pasal aku, dia kena marah. Because of him, and only him, that I'm still here doing my job. Even when I can't see it's going anywhere. Even when I feel like shit.

Urgh. Tak tau nak cakap cemana.

Ok, aku dah buat projek ni macam sampah. Kucar-kacir I don't know where to begin with. Boss pun dah marah. Aku tgh tunggu dua2 Big Boss maki hamun aku jek nih. Client pun dah marah.

Aku tak tau nak buat cemana lagi dah. Hari2 lintas jalan harap ada kereta langgar. But I'm still here.

Shucks.

OMG this is the deepest of the deep shit. Aku da tak tahan lah. Apa aku buat semua nya salah.

And i've never seen him tersangat marah dengan aku. he hates me so much now.

=) =(

Why in the world did I dapat this boss eh? Cute & like, the nicest guy on planet earth! Kinda hard to concentrate on work, after 5 seconds of looking at him.

Btw, he just picked me up at home this morning. Urgh. Boleh tak jangan greet me with a fresh smile pagi2 hari? Dizzy terus ok.

Tapi since I am in the deepest shit ever, dia marah aku like, every second of the day. Oh Bali... come faster! :'(

DEAD. SERIOUSLY.

Am in the DEEPEST SHIT EVER.

I'm too tired lah.

This is definately HELL on earth.

:-S

scabbers: u're going back now?
scabbers: * emoticon nervous *
jamaludinHo: around 6.15pm
scabbers: * emoticon nervous *
jamaludinHo: kenape ?
jamaludinHo: you perlukan i ?
scabbers: ye
jamaludinHo: aku akan datang nanti
jamaludinHo: jangan bimbang

If only dia tidak bermaksudkan kerja. * sigh *

@_@

Dear Boss,

Cepatla announce company trip pegi mana?! Can't wait lah. I need to sleep. Terbayang bantal dan katil empuk. Serta selimut best kat hotel.

I hope it's Phuket! Please say Phuket! Nak carik kawan mamat Thai plak. Later nak pi sana sorang2 dah ada kawan. Ekeke..

Ingat nak pi Bali early Jan. Tapi mahai la tiket. Mana mampu. Tunggu co. trip je la. In the meantime, IF aku dah boleh dapat tidur, I'll sleep at home. IF.

I miss tidur.

kiok

Kalau dalam lif dari Ground nak ke 6th floor pun aku boleh pejamkan mata nak berehat, apetah lagi waktu membuat kerja pukul 12.37pagi.

Dah 3 minggu la kot. Everyday (including weekends) kerja 10am - 3am secara hardcore. Laptop aku pun dah slow gile ni. Mana tak nye mata aku pun terikut.

Aku takut aku weng halfway. Takat ni ok, baru sampai tahap pasang lagu kuat2 dan menyanyi2 dalam ofis sambil wat keje.

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Ya Allah, kuatkan lah semangat aku untuk menempuh hari-hari mendatang yg penuh dengan cabaran.

Aku dah tanya, tapi dia macam taknak kasi. =(

Help

Tolong.

Aku dah sangat penat.

Tolong.

Aku dah takda semangat.

Tolong.

Dah rasa macam nak melarikan dan menghilangkan diri. Almost. Sipi2 je lagi. Sewaktu di surau semalam.

- Breakdown -

Will It Be Over Soon?

God! When is this going to be over?!

I'm seriously stuck & have absolutely no idea!

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Apart from that, I had a nite off semalam.

THANK YOU, SUNRISE MONT KIARA!!!
for shutting down the power

And had dinner @ Sushi King MidValley with my oh-so-adorable boss. Isk. Comel gile aa dia. Rasa cam nak tersengeh jek bile nampak dia hari2. (Kalau tak pikir pasal kerja la). Aherm. So, tidur tersenyum lah malam tadi.

But not really. I had a REALLY sickening dream! Yucks! Sangat membuat aku mual dan geli geleman. No, definately not about my boss la. If dia, confirm aku tak jejak tanah dah harini.

;)

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Dah 95% pasti. Jika ada masa, tengok apa berlaku esok.

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Dah 90% pasti.