Jaja called. Atuk Sue meninggal kat hospital ptg tadi.

Terkedu aku kejap. Takleh cakap. Terus aku sedih gile, teringat balik cerita masa raya haritu. Aku call Mummy & Makton, mintak pegi ziarah tp diaorg cam taknak la pulak. Fine, balik Muar weekend ni aku pegi la rumah Sue sorang2.

Baru aku tau aku tak sempat salam dia masa nak balik haritu. Macam mana aku tak sempat nak balik jumpa Arwah Bapak for the last time. Aku asyik terbayang muke dia masa tunjuk aku kotak berisi kain pelikat tu.

Masa Arwah Bapak meninggal dulu, aku menangis sampai rasa otak nak pecah. Skang otak aku sipi lagi nak jadi mcm tu. Nak wat keje pun takleh concentrate. Kepada semua yg aku kata aku selsema, tak sihat dan sebagainye... mintak maaf. Aku tak penah menangis depan orang.

Al-Fatihah untuk arwah atuk Sue.

Splurge day!!

Kasut sukan, kasut tinggi, J Co donut, birthday presents for the kids, Secret Recipe for lunch... Duit sudah terbang! Parking sampai 7hengget kat Time Square. Lantakla. Janji aku da sampai Pavillion akhirnye.

Syok jalan sorang2 kat Bukit Bintang. Pagi2 hari ahad yg tak ramai orang. Tapi biasa la...guard dok pandang aku sbb pakai baju tido ngan selipar jepun. Buruk giler, jalan sorang2.

Ingat nak sambung kat KLCC, tapi rasanya dlm kol 2 gitu parking da susah nak dapat. So pegi Tesco Ampang je. Downgrade eh? Hahahahaha....

Best2!!

Tapi yg paling bestnye, masa kat Pavillion tu.. igt nak balik, skali ternampak foodcourt kat bawah. Ok la, saje nak cekidaut...so turun la. Turun jek nampak Will Quah!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dulu aku pernah imagine kalau aku jumpa dia, aku nak cakap "I Love You" kat dia. Tapi masa tu dia dgn sorang kawan lelaki & perempuan, & he's on the phone.

Tak ke jodoh tu namanye? Mcm ade mende yg menarik aku turun bawah time tu. Rupanya nak jumpa Will Quah. Bukan tu jek, J Co donut takde org dalam line. Takde orang ok. Jarang sgt ia berlaku. Sangat rugi kalau tak cepat2 membeli. Huhuhuhuh...

Best giler harini ok!

Sebagaimana aku bagitau Pizli, ada 5 org lelaki je dlm dunia ni yg aku betul2 suke tak kire waktu:

1. Brad Pitt
2. Keanu Reeves
3. Jared Leto
4. Adrian Grenier
5. Colin Farrell

Itu sudah mengikut turutan. Dan sekarang aku tgh addicted to Entourage, aku rasa my heart is gonna explode anytime sbb banyak sgt tgk Adrian Grenier yg sgt sexy dan hensem.

Help!

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Kalau ada kawan lelaki, mula2 dia ada gf pastu dia tunang pastu dia kawen. And then you can't hang out with him anymore bcoz then wife dia akan marah & semua org lain akan kata that he's cheating on his wife.

Kalau ada kawan perempuan, mula2 dia ada bf pastu dia tunang pastu dia kawen. And then you can't hang out with her anymore bcoz dia akan sibuk buat kerja rumah, layan laki & jaga anak.

And for those yg life nye static gitu je, takde berkembang mcm org lain... berbaik2 lah dengan ahli keluarga. Bcoz at the end of the day, your own family je yg ada disisi.

I love my family very much!

Sorry friends, I don't love you. Not at the moment.

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Ok, ada sorang kawan kat internet nih... a guy, 1 year younger... kerja ok, rupa paras ok walaupun penampilannye agak poy... ade la jugak potensi utk kami kuar makan ke dating ke kan....

Skali tu, dia tulis "penat kejew". Fine, aku abaikan. Then dia tulis lagi "oh yekew". This is not the 1st time, and I'm starting to get a bit annoyed.

So I guess he's out. Bye bye bro. Just because he adds a "w" at the end of those words. Pizli, ko tentu faham perasaan aku kan?! Since aku ni mmg memilih, why not make the most of it. Hehehehe..

Asyik datang lambat. Asyik look forward to daily chit-chat with Brader Parking. Lama - lama makin gemok, dan makin takde duit.

Sebab ape? Sebab park keta dekat dan berbayar.


Scabbers : Wake up and smell the coffee, dude.

Wormtail : I don't want to.

Teardrops on My Guitar
Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see...

Saya memerlukan tips. To let Mummy to say "Yes" to my request for settling down in Muar, working as a normal gadis kilang or kerani or pegawai bank or security guard. Whatever jobs yg ada kat sana.

Untuk ke-sekian kali nye, I'm starting to hate this life and wishing for a better one at home. Even better if the world would end now, it'll all go away. (Eh, tapi belum bersedia lagi untuk merasa diri ini dibakar dan diseksa)

* Harga petrol adalah salah satu daripada faktor yg mendorong saya untuk berperasaan begini.

** Eh, aku takleh ada affair dgn laki org eh? Sikitttttt je pun takleh ke?

OI! Baru je cakap pasal burning in hell. Mau tambah dosa ka? (Sambil menggelengkan kepala penuh kecewa)

Mummy just called. Suruh masuk ikut gate depan bile aku sampai malam karang. When I asked why... she said kat blakang dah buat kemah.

Kemah?!

Dude! This is huge! Rupanya siap buat baca2 Yasin oleh kumpulan mengaji Makton & makan2 lagik. Whoalau! Cousin Lin punye majlis tunang besar2an nampaknye. Silap2 haribulan nikah terus. Ekekekeke....

I am so psyched!!! Last aku balik Muar masa cuti 1st May. Tambah2 lagi, dah berkurun takde org nak kawen dalam family.

Yeayy!!! Bestnye!!!

I have to go calm myself down with some coffee.

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Eh, aku baru terfikir. Ke..... mmg semua majlis tunang mcm ni? Muahahahaha... aku sungguh kesian. Tatau hapah pun.

Masa cuti 1st May tu aku ada 4 wedding invitations. 3 kat Muar, 1 kat KL. Tapi satu pun tak pegi. 6/7/08 ni ada 3 invitaions. Satu kat KL, satu kat Senawang, satu kat Muar. Aku rasa yg kat Senawang tu aku pegi kot. Budak ofis aku.

Aku tau kalo kite dah dapat Walimatul Urus, kite mesti pegi. Kan? Kalo cenggitu, sape2 yg mintak address aku pasni aku takmau bagi. Sombong tak? Hahahahaha... Jgn risau, aku nye wedding nnt aku takkan jemput orang. Keluarga terdekat sahaja. Sekian terima kasih.

Selasa

"Hi. Terima kasih", kata si dia beserta senyuman manis lemak berkrim.

Khamis

"Lama tak nampak, kak? Smalam letak kat atas sana? Padan la nampak mcm kenal je kereta tu. Mahal tak? Macam mana dia kire ye? ", si dia memberikan soalan bertubi-tubi sambil tersengih.

Jumaat

"Wah...lambat balik, kak. Ni mesti buat OT ni", katanya sambil tersengih2 mengira duit.

Selasa (harini)

"Lama tak nampak, kak? Ape kabar? Sihat?", skali lagi diserta kan dengan sengih yg tak sudah itu.

Layankan aje dengan baik, jgn lebih2. Strictly for flirting purposes only. Thank-you-very-much. I might have to suggest The Company to increase my salary kalau nak jumpa dia hari2. If not, bankrupt la aku.