她來聽我的演唱會 (whatever it means)

Listening to songs on YouTube without him rasa tak se-seronok biasa. I need my DJ...

Flirty flirty

Tsk tsk tsk, Scabbers...

;)

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Hari yg mana aku woke up on the wrong side of bed can turn into hari yg membuatkan aku senyum.

Kenapa lah dia comel dan klakar..

Year Of The Tiger

Turned out this CNY is NOT a holiday for me. Saturday I was working the whole day at the office. Sunday dapat off, but had to work because things screwed up. Today, I'm in AA office working. So will tomorrow. Surprise, surprise.

And guess what.. my family came here to visit me. And yea, I'm not in. On Sunday I had to work from home, so we didn't go anywhere. Cuma keluar kejap2 je. And I pengsan for few hours petang tu because I am WAY BEYOND TIRED. Mummy & Makton was frustrated, of course, they wanted to go out, and I can't even have that little time for them. And now I'm sad. It's SUCH a frustrating job.

Company doesn't give any Overtime for staff. Mileage is CRAP. And for 10 REALLY HARD working days of weekends and public holiday, you get back 4 days that you have to clear off before March. But WHEN DO YOU HAVE TIME TO CLEAR THE LEAVE?

Stupid *QW#^%&^

There is always a limit to everything. I've reached mine. Aku rasa aku ni sabar jugak lah orangnya, bila bos suruh itu ini, aku can compromise and buat kerja dan bersabar. Tapi now gunung berapi dah nak meletup. Penat, tension, sedih... and you get back nothing. NOTHING!

Kesimpulannya, aku travel dari Ampang ke Sepang for RM0.35sen per kilometer. Parking & toll boleh claim. THAT'S ALL.

It's shit, isn't it?

Yea, I know I promised not to curse, but as I said, I've reached my limit.

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I'm sad beyond words...

Even if the company bagi 10months bonus (which no way in hell it's going to happen) sekalipun, it won't bring back yesterday, my ONLY off day.. which I was supposed to spend with my family. Dan aku dah buat Makton merajuk. Aku sedih sangat pasal my only off day, dan aku dah promise diaorg if I'm working, I'll be working from home... but aku tak boleh nak tunaikan. And again, aku tak dapat nak jumpa diaorg before diaorg balik Muar.

Even if company bagi a month off for me (which again, is now way going to happen), it will not bring back yesterday.

Do you even get how I feel now?

DO YOU?????

I Have The Shittiest Job Ever

Ye, sampah masyarakat macam aku harini kene buat kerja cleanup. Restart server pun suruh aku jugak. Pastu delete log pun suruh aku jugak. Pastu kejap lagi sure dia tanya, kerja yg aku ada at hand, ada 2 tasks... dah siap?

Macam haram.
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Ada changes lagi!!!!!!!!!!! OMG aku dah fedup sangat dah. Seriously memang dah takde semangat. After 3 months... please lemme have AT LEAST 2 days of rest. Demit!!!!

Aku malas sangat, aku tak buat keje skang ni, asyik dok update blog je. Pasal ape? Pasal aku paling KULI!!! Apa2 diaorg tukar, apa2 diaorg decide, lepas tu penghujung skali aku yg kene buat. Ha so skang aku tak wat pape. Lantak engko la nak kata ape, aku tunggu je apa2 perubahan. Dah last bagi aku buat. Tapi orang semua dah cuti raya. Lepas raya CONFIRM diaorg dah nak mende ni siap. Habistu sape la manusia malang yg kene buat kerja time raya ni??????

AKUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!

Bodoh nak mampos aku rasa macam nak tampar je semua manusia ni. AKU PUN NAK REST JUGAK, NAK CUTI JUGAK LA!!!! Dah banyak sangat aku compromise, bagi can la!!!!!

Nampaknye takkan ada cuti la aku kali ni. Dah la bukan raya aku kan? Cis.

BODOH.

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Seriously aku dah jadi sampah. Takde orang update aku apa2 skang ni. Ntah apa berlaku pun aku tak tau. Kalo diaorg nak suruh buat kerja2 kuli je diaorg akan cari aku. Dahtu bila diaorg nak bring down server, aku diaorg tak bagi warning. Tapi user yg dok sekeliling aku ni, diaorg bagitau pulak? Padahal aku ada duduk tercongok kat depan dia. Tetiba aku tgh buat kerja, takleh access, aku tanya baru la nak kabo. Bila server dah up lupa jugak nak bagitau aku.

So yeah, aku adalah sampah. Anjing or sampah. Whatever yg rendah di muke bumi ni.

Of Being In HELL

I wanted to wait until I'm actually out of HELL, but it's taking too long and it's way too depressing to keep it all bottled up inside.

You can't even imagine being me right now. I am at the bottom-est level of this project, and I am like, the only full-time resource attending to it. So I have SO many people giving me instructions. Banyak sangat boss. Boss directly before me is of course, Mr. Ho. Every second of the day memang aku kene marah dengan dia. So when bos dia marah dia, dia marah aku. And on top of him ada 2 other bosses. So bile sampai kat aku dah jadi macam siol. Then ada Singapore punya boss. Diaorg bagi instructions itu, ini.. aku buat. Ye, aku jugak orang yg last yg kene buat semua. Bila aku tak buat kerja betul.. sebab aku terlalu penat tak cukup tidur, tak cukup makan, emosi tak stabil... aku kene marah lagi. Dia siap CC email kat segala bosses yg ada.

Kawan2 yg tolong aku buat kerja pun.. after diaorg setel, aku jugak yg kene plug-in dalam system. At the same time aku ada kerja aku sendiri. So bila aku takde masa, semua benda nak cepat, tak test betul2.. sebab when i'm doing task A, ada orang nak task B & C dengan urgent. Tapi I still have task C, D, E, F, G, until infiniti.. Kene marah lagi.


Client toksah citer. Memang marah. Dia marah Mr. Ho, then sape lagi yg kene lepas tu if not me? Client pun tau aku yg buat keje. Dan bile banyak sangat error & kiteorg lambat, diaorg kata aku tak geti buat kerja. Dalam meeting room dengan SEMUA client yg ada, nama aku disebut dan aku kene sound baikkk punya dengan one of the user. Giler babas rasa masa tu macam nak lari ke hangar kapal terbang & hope kene langgar dengan Airbus.

Bila sistem dah stabil sket, user dah boleh pakai, banyak sangat masalah yg timbul. At the same time aku ada task yg warna merah in my list. Bukan satu, tapi banyak. And bila dalam meeting back at the office, aku lah yg kene marah. Sebab aku pun kadang2 blur. Mana tak blur nye.. 2 hari tak tidur, tak balik rumah, tak mandi. Sengal nak mati.

On average, aku tidur like, 3 hours per day. On a good day, boleh up to 5 hours. Tapi JARANG sangat berlaku. If seminggu dua aku takde hal la. Ini dah 3 bulan. 3 bulan tak tidur, 3 bulan asyik kene marah, 3 bulan bz macam nak gila. WTF kan?

I havent had a weekend off since. Starting from raya haji when i'm stuck in the office sampai lah sekarang. Katil kat rumah untouched. Sofa kat ofis dah jadi katil. Itupun jarang aku tido atas sofa. Selalunya tidur kat meja sambil duduk, for 1 hour ke.. then angkat je muke nampak kerja balik terus sambung. My Penang trip dengan cousins pun canceled. Gile kan?

Now I'm based @ site for more than a month. Orang kat sini semua dah kenal aku. Jaga pun dok suruh aku balik, risau tgk aku tak balik2 asyik betapa kat ofis, hari2 muke sengal gile.

Sekarang ni, nampaknye macam dah ok sket la semua. Cuma user ni mengada2 gak. Nak tukar link sikit pun kadang2 suruh kiteorg jugak. Cakap haritu nak tukar component, pastu "my guys" will help to copy to the 32 sites. Haram takde. Aku sorang yg buat. Ni dah banyak kali dah. Diaorg tau aku sorang buat keje kuli ni, diaorg tau aku penat, tapi still aku kene buat. Mr. Ho pun tau, tapi still aku kene paksa buat, dia make sure aku tidur sejam jek sehari.

Aku dah buat banyak sangat salah. Sebab apa? Sebab aku takleh berfikir. Mr. Ho tu ingat semua orang superhuman macam dia kot. Kawan2 kat ofis, users kat sini semua tanya aku macam mana aku leh tahan. Kenapa bos aku buat aku cenggini. Ah lantakla. Buat aku marah je kalo citer pasal Mr. Ho ni. Dah bertekak macam nak hape dah dengan dia.

Now ada final major issue la. Since aku takleh solve, dia panggil la orang India datang mari bantu. Anyway, it's part of their task pun, sebab kita partners & ini module dia. So now aku dok AA, tak tau apa berlaku. Dia dah dapat Senior Consultant, aku tidak diperlukan lagi. So aku skang jadi tukang pungut sampah, a.k.a tukang cari log & send to support.

Ingat tu kerja senang? Huh. Toksah la. Kalo korang tengok log file punya nama je dah cukup pening. 1 file deployed, ada 1 log file. Imagine if buat 15 files. Dan bukan 1 server, ada 6 servers in total. Pastu bila aku lambat send log file, aku jugak kene marah. Sampai kan support pun dok push aku suruh cepat. Tapi aku banyak sangat task @ hand. At the same time aku kena buat deployment, nak simulate semua error itu ini la. At the same time Mr. Ho suruh aku buat yg lain pulak.

Apa reward? Takkan 3 bulan takde reward? Hmmm.. from what I know, reward aku sepanjang 10 hari weekend + public huliday, aku dapat 4 hari cuti ganti. Ini as of December 2009. Belum kira up til now. Paling best pun haritu dapat dok beberapa jam kat Concorde Inn KLIA. Itupun 3 orang 1 bilik! So bersekedudukan lah aku dengan Mr. Ho. Nasib baik ada ahmoi sorang lagi. Kalau tak... susah. Kedekut taik idung masin kan? Macam haram.

So in other words, I work like a dog. Anjing dalam neraka. Paling hina, itulah saya.