Yes!

Akhirnya hari yang ditunggu2 kini tiba.

Tapi....aku tengah ada mood nak buat kerja la plak. * Gasp!! * Yea, I'm not totally hopeless, you know. Kite mesti buat kerja maaa...kerja wajib diselesaikan terlebih dahulu sebelum perkara2 lain. Cewah!

Mummy just called to tell me that wonderful news we've all been waiting for. Finally! Alhamdulillah... aku turut gembira untuk Mak.

So basically, today, mood aku sangat baik. I'm totally psyched about this long holiday thing. Even the fact that I have to work on Friday, and two quizzes on Sunday... can't bring me down. Or so I hope. Hehehehe..

Tapikan, malang skali aku cam takde idea nak menulis. I'm listening to A Love That Would Never Grow Old - Emmylou Harris. From the soundtrack of Brokeback Mountain. Best ler plak lagunye. Penat layan rock, kite layan country jap kan? Kasi seimbang sket pala otak. Uishhh...seimbang ke aku nih? Macam tak sesuai jek... Huhuhuhuh... Dahlia kata lagu nih takbest. Tapi pada aku, ia best. Pasal lembut. Macam kalau dibuat lagu untuk tido mmg syok aaaa... siap bleh menitiskan air mata lagik dalam lena itu. Ekekekek...

Oh ye, tadi masa nak turun lunch, lif terberhenti kat 3rd floor. Begitu obvious skali keadaan nervous aku nak tengok kot2 mamat tu ade..sampai kena gelak ngan Dahlia. Cheh. Siot je. Rupanya takde. Kalau dia ada la tadi, bertambah2 gumbira la aku harinih. Tapi....... yg bestnye pagi tadi aku jalan saing ngan mamat comel-yg-macam-Sabahan/Sarawakian tu. Aiseh...lupa lak nak citer kat Mummy pasal nih. Come to think of it la kan...mamat tu muka ala2 brader 7Eleven yg hensem tu la. Sayangnye brader tu dah tak keje situ lagik. Dia lah satu2nya orang yg panggil aku "adik". Berbalik kepada mamat comel-yg-macam-Sabahan/Sarawakian tu, baru aku tau dia dok kat flat depan umah tu. Ahaaaa....lepas ni ada aku jadik stalker! Muahahahaha... (gelak evil)

Amboi aku nih, tadi kata taktau ape nak tulis. Tengok2 dah panjang berjela dah. Ekekeke.. Tu la aku dah kata, aku ni ntah ape2 jek. Baik toksah layan aku. Abaikan je, takpe. Aku dah biasa dah diabaikan oleh masyarakat umum. Dah kata bapak kandung sendiri pun abaikan aku, apetah lagik orang yg takde kena mengena dengan idup mati aku kan? Ewah ewah...mulut aku nih.. celupar lak dia! Ok jari la, bukan mulut. Sorry la, sorry. Pasni aku try takmoh cakap lagi issue2 sensitip nih.

Bercerita tentang orang2 yg aku slalu usha, dah lama tak balik saing orang-hensem-yg-bawak-kenari-kaler-coklat tu. Memandangkan dia skang tak hensem pasal dia dah potong rambut dan mengemaskan diri dia sket, aku tak brapa nak teruja la tgk dia. Isk...selama ni aku teruja ke? Takde la sangat...dia laki orang laaa... Dah tua! 40s kot. Oh tidak...jauhi lah dia! Hahahaha...

Eh ok.. aku off dulu la. Selamat bercuti untuk semua! Pandu cermat, jiwa selamat! Kalau boleh elakkan memandu langsung la time cuti ni. Naik je LRT. Boleh mengurangkan kadar traffic. Ekekeke... Orait babes... Chow! * kiss kiss! *

It's only 10am and I'm blogging already. Keje dah abih, only some research to be done before kite semua go off to one whole week of fun and laughter. Wah..description over tuh. Hehehehe..

Mari menjenguk kerja saya:

1. Update on webserver, database, whatever-else latest versions.
2. List of books for the librarary. (Dahlia, I told you kite keje kat library. Plus: No talking, No lauging, No handphone. Eating in the office is just a bonus.)
3. Training courses and centres... yet again!
4. Discussion on Online Help.
5. Progress report.

Hmmm...nampak gayanya banyak benda yg aku nak kena settle kan nih. Tapi semuanya memerlukan kepakaran net-surfing aku aja. Kecuali No. 4, which I am too damn lazy to do it anyway. Tomorrow's Friday la kan.. and the following Friday cuti semua dibekukan. Jadi, sape aje la yg ada mood mau buat keje? Plus all these kebisingan dan bau-bauan yg datang dari renovation of the office. Ahaaa... blom setahun lagi office ni kan? Tapi dah buat reno work yg besar2an. Let us see how far this new office layout will work out for them ok? I seriously hope it will last long enuff, as all of us have to come to work and help out with the angkat barang, kemas2 and all that stuff.. next Friday. The day most Malaysians are fast asleep and having a great time-off with their loved ones.

Kata suruh plan cuti baik2. Tak kasi amik cuti sekali banyak2. Tapi biler time tgh peak season utk cuti, ada peluang orang semua nak bermesra dengan keluarga, they have to spoil it la. Aiyaaa...no need to talk about this cuti2 issue some more la. They are the boss. They make the rule. Ikut aje la.. komplen2 lak. Amende lu, Jhn!!! Hahahaha.. (You see, I'm going nuts already!)

Yesterday, it seemed to take forever for the day to end. And today, it seems like an eternity. This morning, belum 8.30 lagi aku dah rasa boring. I can't wait for tomorrow la. Takbleh tahan beb...... Pala otak aku separuh berada di ofis, separuh berada di shopping complex sekitar kl, separuh berada di Langkawi. Dan separuh lagi memikirkan tentang duit, baju yg nak dibawa, plan for Saturday, plan after Tuesday, plan for next weekend, so on and so forth.

Ahaksss...another email la pasal keje. Soh betulkan lagi sket lak. Another discussion at noon. Kuang kuang kuang.... Orait boss. I'll be here. Where else would I be kan?

Ok, so I'm out of things to write as of now. Aku publish dulu mende nih, satgi nanti bosan2 aku update lagik la kan? Dulik ape kalo mende nih panjang ke...takde orang nak baca ke... ramai sgt orang membaca dan terasa ke... ni blog aku. Suke aku la. Macam diary aku gak kan? Keh keh..you haven't seen my diary la dude. Diary ngan journal sama ke ek? Aku rasa aku lagi banyak simpan journal la. Sejak darjah 3. Kat rumah kl aku nih ada 3. 2 dah full. Plus writings dalam notepad kat pc aku. Plus blog ni lagi. Plus blog kat frenster ngan myspace lagik. Wahhh... giler menulis la aku nih. Ntah ape2 jek la aku tulis. Aku rasa aku lagi banyak menulis dari bercakap kot. Aku lagi suka cakap pada kertas dan notepad dari cakap dengan orang kot. Kalo cakap ngan orang, nak kena jaga perasaan diaorg, nak kena pikir dulu ape kite nak respon.. banyak keje la plak. Baik diam je kan? Huhuhuhu...

Anyway, have to go now. Mr. Shamarque sudah tanya plak pasal email boss tadi tuh. Ekekeke.. sorry dude. Semangat lak dia nak wat keje. Mentang2 la dia cuti esok. Tak aci tol. Ade ke dua2 lelaki cuti esok? Mr. Lollipop sorang ni pun takde gak. Esok dating ngan Dahlia aje la nampak gayanya.... Ehhh aku tak berenti2 menaip lagik?

Orait orait. I'm off. Bye!

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Heal Me, I'm Heartsick
No Vacancy

Heal me, i'm heartsick
I'm hungry and i'm broken
I'm haunted, and weeping
The blood of heaven flowing like a river tonite, tears i can't fight on my own
I'm a haunted, heaving, i'm hung and barely breathing
The drowning ocean, snuff the sun in motion
Theres a pill on my tongue, a shot from a gun , the bottles bottom
I'm lonely as a star

So heal me, i'm heart sick
Hungry, but i can survive on you
Heal my heartsick hungry cries
I'm heartsick

Father, free me. mama , woman, feed me
Child of fury, lost his way but don't worry
I won't stop til the dawn
Though i'm in too long on the run i grow strongad restless as a dog

So heal me, i'm heart sick
Hungry, but i can survive on you
Heal my heartsick hungry cries
I'm heartsick

Heal me
I'm heart sick
I'm hungry and i'm broken
I'm haunted, and weeping
The blood of heaven flowing like a river tonite
Tears i can't fight on my own

So heal me, i'm heart sick
Hungry, but i can survive on you
Heal my heartsick hungry cries
I'm heartsick

So heal me, i'm heart sick
Hungry, but i can survive on you
Heal my heartsick hungry cries

This song is specially dedicated to Spermajalang.

My Boy Lollipop

My boy lollipop
You made my heart go giddy up
You are as sweet as candy
You're my sugar dandy

Ha, ho My boy lollipop
Never ever leave me
Because it would grieve me
My heart told me so

I love you, I love you, I love you so
That I want you to know
I need you, I need you, I need you so
And I'll never let you go

My boy lollipop
You make my heart go giddy up
You set my world on fire
You are my one desire

My boy lollipop
My boy lollipop

It's been days since I last wrote. Bak kata pepatah Lan, lutut dah menggigil dah nak blog... ketagih beb. Hehehe.

My leave for Friday 3rd Feb is not approved.

So, what else is new eh?

Can't wait for Saturday tho. Langkawi...here I come!!

Yeay yeay!!!

I've been reading the same line over and over again. My mind's stuck la. Macam takleh nak continue buat keje lak. So ok, pagi tadi semuanya berjalan lancar. Balik lunch je, buat lawak, gelak kuat sket je dah kena sound ngan boss. Official warning nye nih thru email. Aduh, pulak dah. Sudahnya mood aku terus termati kat sini aje. Idea hilang, semangat hilang, semuanya hilang.

Aku confuse la. Ape teruk sangat idup aku skang pun aku tatau. Dah la asyik sakit2 je. Biler dah orait, makan lak tak menentu. Kejap aku takde selera makan, kejap aku takleh nak tido. Macam mak orang lak nak bangun tetiap jam jenguk baby. I have to give myslef a slap in the face la. Untuk lebih rajin menjaga kesihatan.

Tengok, aku tulis pun dah bercampur-aduk. Ntah ape2 aje la aku nih. Serious aku confuse ni. Pasal cuti Chinese New Year ni la. Ceh, macam la confirm dapat cuti on Friday. But I hope dapat la. Seriously, aku perlukan cuti ni. Tapi kan...don't get me started on this "leave" matter la. Lagi pening pala aku.

Plannye nak ke Perak dengan Jaja. Semuanya dah ok. Aku dah excited dah. Tiba2 malam tadi Mummy called, kata Makton nak buat makan2 raya cina nih, jadi Mummy kata takyah la pegi jauh2... balik aje la Muar. Aduhai, rasa besalah pulak dah aku. Mummy kasi aku pegi, tapi macam restu tak restu aje la. Atau Mummy saja takmoh aku pegi pasal aku cakap maybe Adik nak ikut skali? Kenapa susah Mummy nak terima aku kawan ngan Adik tu? Aku kawan aje!! Serious takde lebih dari tu. Aku ni macam kakak dia aje. Betul tak tipu. Tapi sejak 1st time aku jumpa Adik dulu, aku bagitau Mummy dia ada gf, cuma kawan je ngan aku, Mummy terus buat muka la... cam tak suka gituh. You know your Mum kan? Cemana reaction mereka kalau tak suka sesuatu benda yg kite buat. From her expression, from the sound of her voice, you know la kan. Dah kata Mak...

Aaaaarghhh!! Aku membebel lagi. Pendekkan citer, Mummy cakap ngan Nur soh bawak aku skali jenjalan cuti ni. Nur nye offer pulak best. Jadi aku confirm la ngan Nur nak ikut skali... jadi Mummy tak risau sangat aku pegi jalan jauh2 tanpa pengawasan orang dewasa. Tapi aku dah janji dengan Jaja, nak gi Perak. So I told Jaja that we will go, but lambat sket la. She said it's ok. Tadi tgh hari terjumpa pulak Jaja kat TM nye foodcourt. I asked her if it's ok kalau aku cancel trip to Perak, takut aku nye kewangan tak utuh. She looked a bit disappointed la, and once again, aku pun terasa bersalah. Tapi dia kata takpe, just let her know later pasal dia nak confirm ngan family dia kot2 ada apa2 activity.

Semua2 tu berlaku sebelum boss hantar email pasal "professionalism". Semua benda membuatkan aku rasa down, walaupun aku excited about this trip to Langkawi. Aku sedang cuba menggembirakan hati aku dengan mengingati kembali conversation dengan Adik malam tadi, tapi takleh. Aku tetap down. Sebenarnye aku pun tak sure ape yg aku rasa skang ni. Dan aku lagi tak paham mende aku tulis ni. Ok la, I think I have to go puke now.

Maybe she's too busy to let us know that she's back for a short holiday. Her brother's getting engaged, I think. Lepas dia silap send sms utk abg dia kat aku tuh, takde berita terus. Offline pun tak reply, sms pun takde. I know she's busy kat sana. Orang tengah amik Masters la katakan... sape la aku, Degree pun terkedek2 lagi!

Based on my surfing skills kat Friendster, I know she, and the other friends, went to Scotland bercuti. Tapi tiba2 je Raya Haji haritu Encik Weng called from Cardiff, asking for her number in Malaysia. Ape jadahnye tanya aku? Aku tak tau langsung dia dah sampai Malaysia. The other day Zul called from Portsmouth, asking me of her condition! About her love life yg terputus tu not so long ago. You see...people know the 4 of us are good friends. Every BMI friends who call me mesti tanya kabar Anom, Fizah dan dia. Tapi biler balik sini, satu sms pun takde.

Aku tak perasan at first, but then Fizah yg bagitau aku. If she has a problem, she'd call us. If not, there's only silence from the other part of the world. Kenapa? I'm guessing she doesn't want to disturb us. Tapi dah lama2 nih, agak terasa jugak la. We all are. And I received news from Anom that she didn't even tell her bestest friend, Fizah, that she's here.

So what are we now?

Masa tengah susah, sakit hati, kecewa ngan boipren dia dulu... kemain lagi tepon kiteorg. Nak katakan hari2 dia tepon, especially Fizah la. Sekali tepon punya lama sembang, nangis2 luahkan perasaan. Time tu Fizah masih lagi tinggal dekat ngan umah aku. Ptg2 aku gi lepak umah dia, siap buat discussion lagi pasal problem kawan yg lagi sorang nih. Bagi nasihat itu ini, bagi pandangan sumer. Aku lagi la...siap kuar lagi ngan boipren dia tu. Nak tau citer nye pasal.

Skang nih dia dah dapat lupakan ex-boipren dia tu. Bagusla. Tapi dia lupa kat kiteorg ni skali.....

Confessions of me:

1. I like Nelly (the male rapper) originally because Ex-Husband likes him.

2. I hate Ex-Husband because he's being nice to me. And it ends up with me being stupid.

3. I still flirt with Lan, eventhough he's getting engaged soon.

4. I went out with a married man. And we flirt a whole lot. I don't intend to interfere with his marriage, although I was frustrated when he annouced it.. like, 5 years ago. Hahahaha.

5. I dumped Am because Adik came back into life (hahahaha.. macam Voldemort lak) and put me on cloud 9 for a month!

I welcome 2006 with sickness, anger and humiliation.

* Sigh *

What a way. I reckon this year is gonna be worse than the last.

* More sigh *

Errmmmmmmmmm... apa nak citer ek?

Jari jemari I nak menaip, tapi tatau ape nak citer.

Citer 1: Aku tengah bengang.

Citer 2: Dahlia tengah bengang.

Citer 3: Sharul lagi bengang.

Perbualan lunch di Indian Shop harinih tidak boleh diletakkan disini kerana ia mengandungi sangat banyak kata2 kesat. Jika dimuatkan juga, blog saya akan penuh dgn ******!! @#$%@%$ dan sebagainya.

While we were having lunch at the Indian Shop just now, the following conversation took place:

Dahlia : Ko nak jumpa Rishan tak nanti kat JB?

Scabbers : Tak kisah, aku ikut je. Tapi aku confirm taknak jumpa Heikal.

Dahlia : Eh...bukan haritu kata mmg taknak jumpa ke?

Scabbers : Oh, haritu kata taknak... tapi sebenarnye nak. Hehehehe.. Lepas dapat msg dia malam tadi, sakit hati plak. Memang confirm la taknak jumpa dia!

After lunch... balik ofis.

Baca email.

PISSED OFF!

No, I'm not mad at him, but at HER. Is it your hobby? Making everybody mad at you? You like it when every single person hates you? It's in your nature to piss everyone off, is it?

I'd rather have him begging me endlessly than having to read those annoying emails. At least he makes me happy once in a while... unlike you. You make me puke, lady!!!

Siapa2 yg ada extra duit bulan ni, atau banyak sangat duit sampai tak tau apa nak buat dengannya, sila salurkan kepada saya. Email saya di jihan****@yahoo.com atau telefon 012-2*****4 untuk maklumat selanjutnya. Siler lah....saya nak pegi jalan2 tapi tak cukup duit nih!

Jika anda bertanya mengapa saya berkelakuan sebegini, sila salurkan soalan anda kepada Encik Spermajalang-yg-taknak-balik-raya tu.

:p