It's Friday....!!!!

Selamat Hari Pekerja kepada semua rakan2 yg bekerja. Walaupun asyik merungut jek... Ahaks..!

Dear Blog,

It's Thursday! Can't wait till tomorrow comes. Although there's this orientation thing going on at the office (after office hour).

I haven't packed my things just yet. I don't wanna get my hopes too high, like last time lah kan. Kalau ada, ada. Kalau takda, nasib lah. There is no need for me to make preparations & arrangements of some sort. Kesakitan di hati masih terasa. Cewah.

I'm just pshyched about going back home. I've already dreamt about Mummy a few times. Even Yati & Nur ada dalam mimpi, and last night was Dina's turn. Untuk menambahkan lagi keterujaan aku untuk pulang, Fatin & Syami ada kat rumah. And I'll be seing them for the whole of the long weekend (at least I hope so). Yeay! Sekurang-kurangnya dapat lah mengubat luka didalam hati ini kerana tak dapat nak sambung 1 hari cuti lagi.

Blog dearie,

I just answered the door to a man who is supposed to have this meeting with all the bosses at 11a.m. The man asked me kat mana tempat meeting so I showed him the meeting room. I asked him to have a sit while waiting for the others to come. Then dia tanya aku if the meeting starts at 11 and I said yes. Dia tunjuk kat aku jam dan berkata, "Sekarang dah pukul 11 kan?". Wow. Maka dengan perasaan malu nya aku pun melihat jam aku. 11.05am (jam aku cepat 5 minit). Yup, dah kol 11 dah.

So Blog, nampak gaya nya aku pulak yg kena dengan orang tu tadi. Malu. Walaupun bukan salah aku orang2 yg sepatutnya attend meeting tu tak punctual dan maybe bukan sebab diaorg pun. Mungkin diaorg ada meeting somewhere else, and got caught up in a traffic ke.. kereta buat pasal ke.. we never know la kan. Tapikan, aku suka orang yg masih-duduk-kat-luar-tu-lepas-tunggu-dah-10-minit-dah-ni. Pasal dia punctual. Kehenseman pun masih ada la walaupun dia dah tua. Kalau dia muda harus aku mengurat. At least kalo ada date, takyah aku tunggu lama2 pasal dia menepati janji dan waktu. Keh keh keh.

Anyway Blog, biarkan aje la diaorang tu. I think I suka hari ini, so I'm trying my best to not get mad at anything that occurs and see the positive side of everything. I'm calm, and I plan to be, until the end of the day at least.

So Blog, wish me luck.

Oh and as of this very moment, the meeting is already 40 minutes late. Hmmmm... maybe they have another one of those "unforseen circumstances" going on.

Dear Blog,

I want to write but I don't know what topic to be discussed.

So okay,

Bye.

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Dear Blog (Again),

The rain just stopped and I feel like going under the covers, with cuddly pillows, while continuing my current read, John Grisham's The Broker. A cup of hot chocolate would be nice too. Alas, I can only dream of such coziness.

*Sigh*

Dalam hidup ini, kita diberi banyak cabaran dan dugaan. Antara yg bermain dalam fikiran aku sekarang:

1. Dugaan dengan Boss & endless case of susah nak bagi cuti.
2. Dugaan dengan pelajaran... nak study untuk exam, carik masa untuk siapkan assignment.
3. Duit yang ada pun asyik2 tak cukup je. Ada aje yg nak dibeli, dibuat, dilaburkan dan sebagainya.
4. Dugaan kesabaran menaiki tren bersama orang ramai serta pelbagai ragam mereka.
5. Keselamatan diri, hidup di dunia yg mana2-kita-pergi-pun-tak-selamat-sebab-ramai-sgt-org-jahat.
5. Orang yang kita suka tak suka balik kat kita.
6. Mak dah ada pilihan hati untuk kita, tapi kita tak boleh nak terima pilihan Mak.
7. Merujuk kepada no. 6, kita pula adalah satu2nya harapan Mak untuk melihat anaknya berjaya dan bahagia dalam hidup.

Apa sekalipun, aku harap aku dapat bersabar dengan segala yg datang (esp No.1). Selalunya aku akan mencari kesalahan diri sendiri supaya aku tidak berasa marah yg amat. Senangnya waktu muda2 dulu... Aku pun bukan seorang yg pemarah, kerana sesungguhnya cepat marah itu adalah satu sifat yg tak baik dan mesti dijauhkan.

Fuh... membebel pula aku nih. Apa pun dugaan, rintangan, cabaran yg datang... hadapi dengan senyuman. Eh..tu lagu Dewa. Silap. Hadapi dengan tenang dan penuh kesabaran. InsyaAllah everything will turn out a-okay.

Apekah.....????

Got this from Hafezh nye blog.

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Low
Lust:	High
Pride:	Low

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz


Hahahahaha....

Blind
Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

Kalau aku senyum/ketawa/menangis dengan tiba-tiba, doesn't mean that I'm crazy. Aku memang suka berangan dan men-saiko-kan diri aku sehingga batinku tersiksa (wah..."novel" nye ayat aku!) . It's in my nature.

Semalam aku berasa sangat gembira kerana dapat membeli 2 buah buku cerita di Kinokuniya, KLCC. Dan Brown - Angles & Demons juga John Grisham - The Broker. This morning I was so psyched about it and told Prisha, Min & Zaila the whole adventure of buying books, eating Cinnabon & meeting Lily kat KLCC. Until aku membuka Friendster aku dan mendapati Dia telah mem-view profile aku. Terus aku tergamam dan rasa gusar (wah...lagi sekali!!) . Pastu aku tengok rupa2nya ada new message. Maka aku pun clik la untuk melihat sapekah gerangan yg telah meninggalkan mesej kepada aku. Rupa2nya Dia juga.

Oh no...!!!

Bukan aku tak suka, dan bukan juga aku suka... tapi... ntah ek. Aku dah di tahap buleh melupakan dirinya (wah wah) tapi tetiba lak msg aku pehal? Mintak nombor fon la, kata nak kasi hadiah la. Aiyoh...please la! Gua kenal lu la beb... walaupun kite cuma sempat kuar bersama dalam 4-5 kali cuma...tapi I know you. And I thought lepas dia kata fon dia hilang dan no fon aku pun lenyap skali.... dia takkan contact aku lagik. Kurang lah rasa sakit di hati ini. Tetapi tidak (errmmm...ni ayat novel gak ke?).

* Uwaaaaa...!!! *

Apesal aku bengong sangat???!!! Eeeeeiii....!!!

Aku tak suke. Aku tak suke. Aku tak suke.... dengan diri aku yg cenggini.

"9. Watak. Perlu ada watak lelaki dan perempuan. Tak mahu watak yg berkelakuan sumbang."

Baru jek separuh jalan aku compose satu cerita nih...tetiba dtg syarat2nye. Hmmm... nampaknye terpaksalah aku tukar citer lain pasal ade satu watak dlm citer aku tu..kurang sesuai untuk makluman remaja bawah umur. Ekekekeke...

Two Names You Go By:
1. jihan
2. ji

* IMU friends like to call me Cik Ji *

Two Parts of Your Heritage:
1. malaysian
2. indonesian

* Eh....aku ada darah Arab tak ek? Huhuhuhu.. *

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. sweater
2. t-shirt

* Gasp! No pants?! Ade la..saja takmoh tulis *

Two Things You Want in a Relationship:
1. him giving me lots of expensive presents
2. him giving me lots of money to spend

* I'd love him more if he has loads of money. Terasa cam CT Nurhaliza la plak. Huhuhu.. *

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. shopping
2. reading story books

* The second hobby is like an answer of a Standard 3 schoolkid *

Two Things You Want Really Badly: (right now)
1. A daughter
2. A son

* Gasp!!!!! Whut da fakk??? *

Two Pets You Had/Have:
1. ikan berkaler emas dan berperut buncit
2. Nur's cats crash @ my place.

* When I was little, Mummy bought for me & cousin Dina a goldfish each. That very evening, kedua2 ikan tersebut mati. Har har har *

Two Favorite Sports:
1. huh?
2. what's "sports"?

* I used to watch football/soccer for the cute players *

Two People Who Will Fill This Out:
1. none
2. i said none!

* I believe my friends have better things to do... unlike me. *

Two Things You Did Last Night:
1. study
2. watch tv

* Did i really...? Kehkehkeh *

Two Favorite Places To Eat:
1. mamak blakang
2. klcc

* Mamak tetap menjadi pojaan hatiku... Kakakaka *

Two People That Live In Your House:
1. me
2. myself

*...... and I *

Two Things You Like About Yourself:
1. my love towards my family
2. no idea

* Mana ada orang kata dia suka sikap diri sendiri? Ini tugas untuk org lain la.... *

Two Things You Ate Today:
1. donut
2. nasik putih + lauk campur

* Suddenly my collegue came and handed me satu keping roti lengkap dgn peanut butter *

Two People You Last Talked To: (other than the poeple who live in your house)
1. prisha
2. dahlia

* Kalo tak cakap ngan ofismate cemana nak idup? *

Two Things You're Doing Tomorrow:
1. study
2. cook

* Or probably to PC Fair sebentar *

Two People That Make You Laugh:
1. family members
2. anom

* Sperm, Dahlia & Shamarque pun membuat aku gelak juga kadangkala *

Two People Close To Your Heart:
1. family
2. friends

* Yelah, sape lagik kan?! *

Two Longest Car Rides:
1. muar to kelantan
2. muar to penang

* Kalo yg aku drive sendiri... Rawang to Muar la kot. Hahahahah.. *

Two Favorite Holidays:
1. cuti raya
2. apa2 public holiday (diambil oleh KL) yg jatuh pada hari Ahad @ Isnin, jadi bleh ada long weekend.

* Dah kerja ade ke cuti yg best? Tambah2 lagi weekend kena pegi kelas... Sigh! *

My first attempt on cooking wasn't that bad afterall. Spaghetti Bolognese... kire cun gak aaa rasanya walaupun ada kekurangan. Ekekekeke... Pasni nak kena adjust sket lagik. Aku agak berbangga dengan diri aku yg berjaya masuk dapur & membuat kerja2 yg sepatutnya. Slalu aku masuk dapur amik air ngan basuh tangan jek. Huhuhuhuh....

Memandangkan aku tinggal seorang diri, masakan aku...aku la yg perabihkan sumernye. Revenge la kire. Pasal smalam nye paper (exam) susah!!! I studied and focused on everything in the module, except for VBScript. And... please guess topic mana yg banyak kuar? Yup, I stayed in the exam hall...cracking my head until Ketua Pengawas Peperiksaan tu kata "sekarang sudah pukul 11 pagi 40............. pagi" Have you ever heard orang memberitahu masa dalam keadaan tunggang-tebalik cenggitu skalik? Sebaik la aku bleh control gelak aku dalam hall smalam. Lawak btol la.

Oh and today... it's official that Dahlia likes the color PINK.

Sedang angau kah aku? Tidak sama skali. Aku rasa berdosa jika aku angau sekarang dan meninggalkan kerja2 study yg sepatutnya aku lakukan kerana lusa aku ada exam.

Oh kawan2 sekalian,

Esok birthday aku. Uwaaaaa...!!!! Nak nanges..!!! Dah tua...!!!! Sangat cepat masa berlalu.

Tidak...

Tidak........

TIDAK.........!!!!

* Kadangkala aku ada masalah mental, maafkan aku *

Selalu aku menatap wajah Blogger ni. Tapi selalu tu jugak la aku tatau nak tulis apa. Biler tak menulis, balik2 aku akan bukak gak blog aku. Hmmmm...

Aku terasa macam.....

. Nak pegi makan kat Keramat mlm ni .
. Nak lepak kat tepi pantai sambil study weekend ni .
. Nak pegi tunggang tebalik kat Genting ngan Jaja .
. Nak lepak2kan diri kat tempat yg sejuk dan mempunyai pemandangan hijau .

Tapi.....

. Adakah aku mempunyai wang saku yg cukup?
. Adakah ibuku memberi keizinan untuk aku meluangkan masa bercuti dgn diri sendiri?
. Adakah aku geti pam tayar keta aku yg agak lembik itu?
. Adakah aku rajin utk kuar diwaktu panas?

Sehabis tensen pun study utk exam next week...aku rasa aku akan ke KLCC cuci2 mata kat Kino. Takpun aku gi Galaxy layan wayang ape2 je la yg ada.

Kesimpulannya, aku pasti aku akan dok terperap dalam rumah. Kuar sekali je ptg Sabtu nak gi panaskan enjin keta pastu pusing2 sket. Itulah dia perjalanan hidup aku pada hari minggu dimana aku takde kerja & tak balik Muar. Sangat melambangkan kemalasan aku. Oh, satu idea la. Maybe aku leh gi carik2 barang kat Giant dan belajor masak. Yup... memasak to kill time. Good idea babe! Tapi nak drive ke Giant tu malas laaa...

;P

Our birthday is just another day in the calendar kan? Doesn't make any difference la. Tapi when your birthday falls on a public holiday, and you know you can't go out at all coz you have to sit for your final exam the next day, it's a bit of a bummer la. Of all days kan?

:(

11hb ni birthday aku. Lepasni makin bertambah2 la soalan "When are u getting married" yg akan ditujukan kepada aku. Mummy ade la jugak bagi2 hint kan...tapi yg lucunye adelah my aunties. The other day in Muar, I was helping Makton potong timun.. Makton suruh aku belajar potong halus2 pasal nanti mak mertua tgk tak cun..kurang la markahnye.

Tetiba Makdah menyampuk "A'ah, nanti dah jadi isteri orang kena pandai masak".

Tergelak besar aku time tu. Lawak bebenor la....!! Pasal Makdah pakai term "isteri orang" tu yg buat aku gelak tu. Dahla skema semacam je ayatnye..terbayang plak aku kalo jadi isteri orang. Wakakakakakaka... lucu la beb. Sure bingit satu dapur lagi2 time aku kena goreng mende. Minyak lompat2 u....!!!

Ada satu je manusia yg tak kesah aku pandai masak ke tak... janji aku buatkan dia Milo Ais hari2. Kehkehkeh... Tapi malang skali Mummy tak suke dia la. Pilihan hati Mummy tu..seram sket aku tengok. Takmau la. Malu..!! Heh. Macamla dia nak kat aku pun. Hahahahaha...

Dahla. Usah dilayan aku yg giler ini. Marilah kita sambung buat kerja.

Smalam tengok Ntv7 nye news kol 6.30ptg tu. Tetiba dia tunjuk Nelly...the rapper. Gigi dia...ermm... sangat tak menyelerakan la. Tetiba cam terpikir.. "Cemana la gamaknye kalo nak cium dia"?

Eewwww..!!! I nearly puked.

Jadi skang misi hidup aku (selain berjaya dalam kerjaya & pelajaran) nak carik lelaki untuk diri aku yg menjaga kesihatan giginya. Best sket kot2 mau french ka...

;P

* Aku tau post aku nih mengata orang, aku mintak maaf, tapi aku sedar aku pun kena jaga gigi aku jugak... jadi the opposite sex takde la cam nak termuntah tgk aku sengih/gelak/becakap. Hahahaha... *