There's this "Sisterhood Moments" ad on TV. The one competetion which I can't compete in. Yes, I've read, seen & been told that sisters/brothers can be best friends and they love each other to death even if they fight all the time... but I never do get the actual feeling, y'know. Like when somebody told you that it is sad when your father passed away and you would say yeah... but you don't actually know how sad it actually is until it is time for your own father to pass on. Well, this death part...I do get it.

I may be close to my cousins, but when time comes for them to have a family discussion or whatever... I still won't be counted in, kan? They have their own secrets, they have their moments. I see my niece, Fatin and her younger brother, Syami.. a good example of siblings who love and take good care of each other. I know when I was little, I used to cry when cousin Dina got scold. And she cried when I cried too... but it just is not the same. Of course I love all my cousins like my own sisters and brothers... but still... it is not the same. You get what I mean?

I guess not. Coz most of you have siblings. And you would say I'm lucky anough to have a very close relationship with my cousins... but you actually don't get it. Unless you're in my shoes. (Mummy slalu kata aku kaki gajah sbb pakai shoes size 8. Hehehehe) Whatever it is, I know I'm lucky to have a close relationship with my cousins. If not.. I can't imagine being alone for the rest of my life. Not share jokes with them? I'd die!!

I am more amazed with brotherly love. Men don't usually potray their true feelings kan... so when I see brothers who play or laugh together, I can't help but smile. If I were to ask them if they love each other..the answer would be No, of course. But you can see by their body language la kan. Contohnye my own boss and his brother. Cute. And the best brothers I've seen is Hafezh & his brother yg keje kat IMU dulu tu. Sape ek nama dia aku dah lupa. Comelnye!! Bukan diaorg yg comel.. tapi aku suka tgk diaorg datang keje sama2... balik keje saing...main carom sama2...gelak2 lagi... eeeeiii...geram I!

So anyway, I don't really have a point. Hehehehehe. Am just killing time here, ok. So.. Bye!

I'm currently loving the sound of Ne-Yo's Sexy Love...and this song below. Agak kuno sket la.

I Wanna Keep On Loving You
Reo Speedwagon

You should've seen by the look in my eyes, baby
There was somethin missin
You should've known by the tone of my voice, maybe
But you didn't listen
You played dead
But you never bled
Instead you lay still in the grass
All coiled up and hissin

And though I know all about those men
Still I don't remember
Cause it was us baby, way before then
And we're still together
And I meant, every word I said
When I said that I love you I meant
That I love you forever

And I'm gonna keep on lovin you
Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep
I just wanna keep on lovin you

And I meant every word I said
When I said that I love you I meant
That I love you forever

You will never believe who just talked to me.

Abang Mekanik Sexy Bawah Rumah!!!!

I was from Dahlia's, crossing the road heading for home and he smiled at me. Pastu aku turun balik nak patah ke rumah Dahlia... that's when dia tegur aku.

"Cermin mata mana?"

I was shocked, but of course keeping my coolness sambil me-reply (as if jantung aku tak jatuh ke kaki yet, sbb he noticed I wear specs! )...

"Tinggal kat umah kawan.."

Ahahahahhaha.... Excited GILER!!!! Awwww..bestnye! bestnye! bestnye! Hahahahaha... Dahlia kata aku gedik, but.. who cares?!!!

So today, my friends, is the happiest yet in months!

Oh and the best thing is... suara dia sedap. Takde la sedap as in Heath Ledger nye sedap, but it's definately a manly voice. And I'm loving it! I'm now at Dahlia's, and I'm sure as hell is gonna go home before 6.30pm. Even if it still rains.

So I guess aku melayan baby Syed Danish Fahrin sambil melayan ke-Cloud-9-an aku la ek. Huhuhuhuh...

:)

Selamat Berpuasa!

The Boss belanja lunch tadi. As if she knows her staff has ran out of money at this point of the month! Thank you boss. I love you I love you I love you!!!

Untuk pencuci mulut pula, Sperm belanja ice-cream. Thanks dude. I.... eh, takkan nak I lap u gak? Errmmm.. takpela. Thanks ek. U da man!!

:P

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhh!!!!! Bengangnye aku!!!!!!

Dah tau haritu kasi aku keje menimbun... pastu gi kasi lagi smalam. Dengan senang2 cakap soh provide link aje.. aduhaiiiiiiiiiiiii...mana la nak boleh! Dah tentu la salah kalo aku just biar dia baca ID dia je. Aku nak kena alter balik the WHOLE damn thing ok! As if u don't understand. Dah la nak kena cek balik satu2... kalo satu page, satu file takpe gak. Ini satu page nak kena gi tgk 2-3 file... pastu ade parameter yg nak kena bawak la... itula ini la... menyampahnye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aku tau la aku yg tak geti buat...tapi sape je tak bengang biler keje due esok, harinih aku tgh terkial2 nak carik balik ape nak kena bawak...nak kena letak... pastu error sana sini... nampak cam sikit...tapi back-end dia tau tak brapa banyak nak kena betulkan????!!!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tensen!!!

Dan menambahkan tensen aku dengan keadaan yg terkedap takde air-cond dan takde kipas. Dah berkali2 aku dok mintak kipas kat admin. Admin pun takleh nak watpe unless diaorg nak gi beli. Kipas ada satu kat Board Room. Yela, orang atasan je la yg dapat kipas. Orang bawah yg menggerakkan keje ni...yg kuli batak ni.... terpaksa lah MATI KEPANASAN!

Please la. Buy us the fu**ing fan already la deyyy!!!! Dulu kat IMU kemain lagi...tak cukup fan berdiri yg banyak extra tuh...tambah lagi dengan fan dinding. Yela, time tu mintak aje duit sumer dapat. Skang biler dah company sendiri... tiket kapal terbang yg 1st class bleh beli...siap bleh cancel last minute yg memerlukan beribu2 ringgit utk bayar penalty nye. Tapi satu kipas tu pun susah nak beli. Kipas bukannye mahal sangat pun. Kalau dah taknak sangat jaga kebajikan staff cakap je la. Ape dia ingat semua staff kat sini tak tahan sejuk ke? Beli aje la...make sure staff selesa nak wat keje. Jadi takde la staff jadi bitchy macam aku nih!!

Kedekut!!!!!!!!!!!

Stranded
Plumb

You know it only breaks my heart
To see you standing in the dark alone
Waiting there for me to come back
I'm too afraid to show

If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to the sea

And I wanna be with you
And you wanna be with me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
And I don't wanna be

Stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded

I can only take so much
These tears are turning me to rust
I know you're waiting there for me to come back
I'm to afraid to show

I miss you, I need you
Without you, I'm stranded
I love you so come back
I'm not afraid to show

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Have u seen John Mayer's latest look?

* Drool *

Cute! I lurrrvvvveeee the hair!

People! It's Friday!!!

I am just SO psyched! Despite the heavy workload I have for today, and the breakfast appointment that was cancelled this morning... I am still gonna hold my head up high, and smile. Keh keh keh.

Can't wait...can't wait...can't wait...can't wait....

Have you ever wondered what happened to your old crushes from school? I was just thinking last night... as I stare blankly at my dearest friend, The Wall, trying to get some sleep.

Kalau my cousins read this... I will be SO dead, but what the heck.

My first crush was this guy named Latip. Standard 1. Kecik2 dah gatal kan? Well at least dari kecik aku dah tau yg aku ni straight orangnye...suke lelaki sahaja. Cousin Yati used to tease me about him, but I kept my cool. (Of course! I never show my true feelings ok) About 2 years ago, his elder got married, and kiteorg punya rahsia selama ni terbongkar... thanks to Mummy, Latip's parents and Auntie Radziah! I was embarressed (and still am) when Mummy broke the news that the real person who gave me that flower back in Standard 1 was actually Latip, not his brother... as what he claimed. But I rejected the flower la back then. Malu beb. Dia masuk Skolah Sains pastu...sambung UKM if I'm not mistaken. Amik Engineering. Dah habis belajar dah kot. Yela, bak kata Cousin Farah, "Eh Jhn dah 24! Tak sangka nya. Slalu ingatkan Jhn ni kecik2 lagi". Awwww...shucks!!

Then came Azam. Satu skolah dok gossip aku ngan dia. Tapi aku suke dia kejap je...sbb I cannot handle all those rumours la u know... I tak suka u! Aku ingat lagi ade sekali tu aku terjumpa note kat bawah meja aku...budak kelas pagi yg tinggalkan. Note tu utk member aku Yati (cun, dan baru je kawen haritu). Budak yg tulis tu kata kat Yati, jangan terhegeh2 suke kat Azam...sbb dia ada Jhn. Tergelak beso aku time tu. Pastu aku gi kasi note tu kat Azam. Kiteorg gelak je la. Tapi pastu satu skola tau. Skola aku tu kecik je...skolah arab pondok la katakan. Hehehehee.. Azam ni comel, and as usual, parents dia kawan Mummy jugak. Hehehe. I guess when you're a teacher in a small town... everybody's your friend la. Dia gi skolah kat Kedah and found a girlfriend, who is said to be rich...and her family really digs this Azam guy. Sape tak suke? Cute dan pandai. Pakej, ok. Then a few years back they got married & sambung belajar kat Jepun bersama2. Ntah2 dah anak 2 dah skang. Hehehehe.. Giler tak sangka aku dia kawen awal. Umur 21 kot time tu. Muda!!! Aku pun masih hingusan lagi. Kehkehkeh.

Pastu Heezan. Hensem!!!! Tengah2 zaman skolah, dia gi pindah JB plak. Dia sambung kat English College. His elder sister kawan Cousin Lin. Haritu kakak dia kawen & Cousin Lin pegi tgk. Dia kata Heezan masih hensem...dan masih bujang. Kalo aku cun, skang gak aku gi tekel dia. Alas, I'm not... so aku continue life as it is.

Yang paling hebat ialah jiran aku, Hilal. Bukan dia yg hebat... ke-crush-an aku kat dia yg paling hebat of all. Dia Arab, keturunan Sheikh. Botak ala Mawi, pakai spek berbingkai hitam dan SANGAT comel (time tu la, skang dah tak). Mummy pun suke dia nih... sbb comel giler. Kalau hari Jumaat, aku suke dok bawah rumah & buat-buat buat homework.. padahal aku menunggu dia dan abang2nye berjalan/ menaiki motor keluar untuk Solat Jumaat. Lama gak aku suke dia nih.. tapi aku tau dia tak tahu akan kewujudan aku. Dan sebab tu aku layan lagu Intoxicated - Possibility. Masa Form 5, aku satu kelas tution Math ngan dia. Tapi dah tgh tahun kot...dia masuk lambat. Aku tengok perangai dia yg ntah ape2 tu... dan dia berkawan baik dgn sorang mamat dalam kelas tu yg aku tak suke. Turn-off beb! Tambahan lagi, dia takde la pandai mana dalam bidang Math. Lelaki biasanya bijak Matematik... biler tak, aku cam kureng sket la. Sejak itu...aku tak suke dia. Harapkan comel, tapi perangai ntah hape2. Skarang balik Muo aku jarang nampak dia. Lagipun I don't really care sbb pada aku dia dah tak comel. Hahahaha. The last time I heard, Mummy yg berbual dgn dia. Katanya sambung kat UiTM Segamat. Tapi tak habis rasanya. Pastu ape jadik pun aku tatau. Tapi dia tak abih blajo pun takpe kot. Family dia ada bisness. Kaya semacam je. Dulu aku nak no. plate JFS4040, tapi diaorg yg beli. Perdana V6 fav aku plak tu. Skang tambah plak dgn 4x4 ape ntah. Beso semacam. Kaya family dia...so lantak dia la nak jadi ape pun kan.

Itulah manusia terakhir kot. Lepastu aku masuk college...takde la crush ke mende nih. Aku cuma men-setia-kan diri aku kepada Brad Pitt & Keanu Reeves sahaja.

Weiii...tulis punye tulis dah kol 10.15 plak. Japgi ada discussion ngan The Boss. Harus aku stop sini. Ter- hyper plak harinih. Okla. Selamat bekerja!

"Welcome to Agroscience"

Record mende tu 10 kali je dah cukup buat aku penat. When you haven't had any intake of food and water sepanjang hari, tambah lagi berjalan dibawah sinaran matahari yg sangat terik... u'll feel like your head is empty sampai pening2.

So now I'm on Silent Mode, hoping that I will regain my strength to get through the day. Sebenarnye aku dah tak larat nak angkat mulut dah. Tekak rasa lebam siot. Hehehehe. Kalau la boleh letak kepala atas bantal dan berehat...walau hanya 5 minit.. alangkah indahnya dunia ini.

Terasa banyak cabaran aku harini.

sate kajang.... sate kajang.... sate kajang....

* Skarang aku plak yg mengidam.

One called last week, followed by the other. One is about to go back. One just dropped by last night, followed by a call from the other. One is going back tonight. Plus, an auntie who sent an email last week.

Suddenly I feel like I'm a bridge that connects United Kingdom and Malaysia. Minus the one from Ukraine... the one's going back tonight.

Maybe I should be like Ray Romano and create "Everybody Loves Scabbers".

Either aku * SANGAT * perasan, or my sitcom won't make it. 'Coz in the Wizarding World a.k.a MY World, Everybody HATES Scabbers.

Pada suatu hari..... aku sangat ngantok.