I better write now, in case the net gets shaky again from the Taiwan quake. Huhuhuhu..

I'll be going home tomorrow for Hari Raya Aidiladha, but I won't stay long at my own home which I miss so much! This year it's raya in JB, despite the flood lah kan. The water pump in Gersik (wherever that is!) yg menyalurkan air ke bandar Muar telah bocor akibat banjir haritu. And it will remain un-fix until air banjir from Segamat surut. So in the meantime...takde air! Aku sangat risau dan kesian akan keadaan family aku, namun begitu ada nasib orang yg lebih teruk. Especially yg kena banjir sampai musnah rumah, kereta, with no water and electricity supply pulak tu. My sympathy goes out to them.

As for my family, I really hate not being able to help and contribute something untuk meringankan burden. Subuh2 hari pegi tadah air hujan, nak angkat tong2 berat dengan air... semuanya senior citizens plak tu. Except for one, of course. Sorang je cousin yg muda kat rumah tu nak kena handle 3 orang makcik. At times like these, I really wish I have the money to go home and help. Masalahnya duit dah kering stok kontang punye lah! And gaji bulan December ni masuk on the 10th of January. Can you believe it? 10th! Aku takmoh cakap la bab ni, menjengkelkan. Dan biler dah marah, nak maki hamun tu ringan je mulut. Oleh itu lebih baik aku diam dan banyakkan bersabar.

Anyways, today is a special day. It's Mummy's birthday! So here's a shout-out to Mak..


Mummy will be here in KL by the time I get home this evening. Bukan aku taknak Mummy datang, tapi esok dah nak balik dan agak terbuang jugak la RM12 duit tambang, duit lrt nak ke rumah... memandangkan skang ni Mummy kena sara hidup aku (sebab gaji lambat!). Aku dah cuba cakap, tapi takut tersalah faham pulak nanti. Nanti Mummy dtg KL kesian pulak Makton tinggal sorang kat rumah. Aiyoh!!! How I wish I live in Muar!

Oh before I forget, since I won't be in until next year, I'd like to wish everybody a happy Hari Raya Aidiladha. Please pray for the safety and health of our families yg terlibat dalam banjir, ya. Happy New Year too. May you have a prosperous year ahead.

So what's your new year's resolution? I guess I've thought of mine. I will try my best to get my degree by the end of 2007, with good grades. That's the first one. Then it's work-wise. I will try harder to get a job, yg stabil, in Muar. Har har har! And finally, I'll try to find myslef a handsome, rich and well-mannered boyfriend (this combination of criterias only exist in fantasy land. I know!) whom I actually like. Then we'd settle down and produce cute and cuddly kids with curly hair until the end of time... NOT! Well at least it's not going to be THIS year's resolution! Give it another 5-6 years or so...and that'll be on top of the list. Har har har.

So ok babes. Have a comfy long weekend, yea!

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My landlord just called asking me to move out. Life sucks so bad right now.

Sabtu haritu Arin tido rumah aku. So that night, kiteorg plus Dahlia, Wandi dan Zul pegi melepak kat kedai makan kat rumah Keon.

* Disini aku ingin meminta maaf kepada Pizli dan Hafezh, juga rakan2 lain kerana tidak menjemput. Apekan daya, hanya kami berenam sahaja yg free... kot! (dalam erti kata lain bujang la)

Disini saya sertakan gambar2 yg berkaitan.


The guys were trying to spell out "Pizli" sebagai tanda peringatan. Hehehehe.. Ape pun, insyaAllah jika tiada apa aral..kami akan sampai ke rumah ko.

Selain melepak dengan kawan2 IMU, malam tadi Fendi datang amik aku nak gi makan. I haven't seen him since he went to UK kot. And he's worked in KL for about 2 1/2 years already. Punye la lama! Tak sedor aku rindu giler kat dia. (Eeeewww!! Geli siot ayat aku nih). Skarang dia drive Honda yg Hafezh citer kat blog dia tu, dan makin hensem aaa. Serious shit aku excited jumpa dia malam tadi. Rasa cam nak peluk je, tapi apekan daya.... tunang orang. Heheheheh...

I guess it was a good long weekend. More of a reunion weekend.

Mangkuk hayun betul!!!

Bodoh tu mengalahkan budak-skolah-zaman-skang-yg-dok-ikut-matrempit-pastu-last2-kena-
rape-dan-blame-nasib.

Ape pun, kite tengok je confirmation dari bosses nanti.

As for now, terima je ape aku tulis kat atas tu.

Baru je call Mummy tadi.

Rindu la.....

Tu la Chicago kata "everybody needs a little time away from each other". Pastu orang Melayu kata "jauh dimata, dekat dihati".

* Eh, betul ke aku nih? Main tibai jek nih. Kalo tak relevan tu mintak maap la ek. *

Maybe sebab financial problem tu da berkurangan sket (sikit je, still tak cukup duit pun!) so boleh la sembang sambil gelak2 sumer.

Eeeeeiii... rindunye!!!

Kang ade jadi macam dulu kat IMU, terpaksa amik time off sebab dah takbley tahan rindu. Kuar je ofis terus gi pudu, amik bas, terus balik. Esok subuh2 pinjam keta Mummy balik KL. Sejak tu ler aku sentiasa ada keta kat KL ni. Tengok2 sampai skang, dah ada keta sendiri, sampai 2 bulan tak balik! Padahal 2 jam aje pun. Mummy pun dah dok tanya biler aku nak balik.

Anak jenis ape aku nih?!

Dan sekarang aku sedar, ape yg Safyzan cakap tu betul la. Tula aku, dulu degil takmoh dengo cakap cikgu. Mana la nak tau kan, masa tu aku muda lagi... tak idup lagi. Skang dah jadi orang baru la tau.

Ok dah. Skang dah tak rindu cam tadi. Nak kena luahkan je, pastu aku ok balik. Thanks, blog. You're the best!

Runaway
The Corrs

Say it's true, there's nothing like me and you
I'm not alone, tell me you feel it too

And I would run away
I would run away, yeah , yeah
I would run away
I would run away with you

Cause I am falling in love with you
No never I'm never gonna stop
Falling in love with you

Close the door, lay down upon the floor
And by candlelight, make love to me through the night

Cause I have run away
I have run away, yeah , yeah
I have run away, run away
I have run away with you

Cause I am falling in love with you
No never I'm never gonna stop
Falling in love with you
With you

And I would runaway
I would runaway, yeah , yeah
I would runaway
I would runaway with you

Cause I am falling in love with you
No never I'm never gonna stop
Falling in love with you
Falling in love with you
No never I'm never gonna stop falling in love with you

With you, my love, with you

I like a guy who digs rock. As in the music genre, dan bukannya lelaki yg mengorek batu. I don't mind if he smokes, tapi make sure he looks all macho doing it. Stok yg pakai kemeja belang2, engineered jeans dengan rambut cacak2 tu toksah la. Aku lebih rela yg pakai bermuda pants and black t-shirt dengan rambut normal tu.

Dan kalau aku ada anak lelaki, aku suke kalau rambut dia macam....

I wonder if people nowadays would name their sons Karim. And not Daniel Karim Putrajaya or something else in between.

It's just a thought ok.

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Eeeeeppp....!!!

I just talked to Akmal, my long lost classmate from college. I'm so psyched right now. It's been, like, 4-5 years since I last saw him. Masa final year kat college pun sangat jarang nampak dia sbb dia asyik ponteng kelas je. Ntah habis ke tidak BMI dulu aku pun tatau. Kiteorg satu kelas dari sejak 1st semester, sampai la ke hujungnya. Dia suke bebenor buat lawak, konon2 malu dengan pompuan, suke pau gula2 aku sebab setiap minit excuse himself utk pegi isap rokok. Dia panggil aku "Jhn yg baik hati" sebab aku tak pernah tak kasi dia gula2 lepas habis dia menghembus asap nye tu. Punye lah lama...tiba2 tadi Teh called and said they bumped into him kat Shah Alam. Excited nih. Tapi takde sape nak dengo citer aku. So aku tulis kat blog. Heheheheh... suke la dapat contact balik kawan lama...

Ngantok giler. Tapi tak rasa cam nak terlelap. Mata ni celik habis. Oleh itu processor kat pala otak ni lambat la harini. Macam Purta LRT. Lemau nak mampus. Menyampah aku.

* Gasp! *

Adik is actually working KL?!

K.L ok. Kuala Lumpur. Altough PJ may be in Selangor, but still.....

Anyway, I checked out the company profile and it's international. They're looking for a System Analyst and guess what one of the requirement is?

Willing to travel overseas.

I so want that job! But they want a Degree holder. Tough luck! Eh, tapi takmoh la kan...dah la jauh nak travel dari rumah. I'll have to drive dan merempuh tol sebanyak RM5 pegi-balik hari2. Furthermore, he's there. Why work in the same office la kan? Tapi I bet there are loads of cute IT professionals there. Not to mention hardworking, which will lead to success, which will then lead to them having more money a.k.a rich!

See how creative my mind works? From a small thought of him, up to cute IT guys and now I'm thinking of rich CEOs. (Exclude Adik la, he's not cute. I never really liked cute guys anyway. They're so metro and yea, I can't stand metrosexual guys. Puh-lease! Oh, tapi kalau ada any reader sini yg metro... maafkan saya. This is just me and my point of view)

Yea. When you have this strong urge to shop, but you can't afford it... you'll start thinking of money! All you see is money. It's like your eyes are green... Oooppss!! Sorry Dahlia! I didn't mean YOUR green eyes ok. Think of KLCC, man. Aaaawww... it sucks bad knowing you can no longer afford to shop there. Aaaaaarrrgghhhhh!!!!

Oh, berbalik kepada cerita asal, (Hehehehe... jauh plak perjalanan cerita ini) he's here. He's actually here! Hmmm... I wonder if Mummy benarkan aku kuar ngan dia, now that he has a steady job. Not that he wants to go out with me anyway. Hahahahhaha....

Can I just stop thinking about it already?!

Ok. Fine. I'll stop.

Just let me jump out of the window from this 14th-floor-office first. I dunno, I just feel... stupid.

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

At this very moment, I know Mummy's wishing that I'm 16 again, still living at home in Muar, so all my social activities can be watched over. (As if! I didn't have any social life back when I was 16 ok!)

The reason?
I got busted while having dinner with Abg Mekanik the other day. Mummy called to check up on me.

So when I called home on Saturday, Makton was upset because Mummy was upset. Not to mention scared. I bet everybody at home, and the uncle in JB, uncle in Pahang, even auntie in England dah tau pasal mende ni. So yea, I can't go home (beside the fact that I'm broke!). Kalau Arwah Bapak still ada, aku rasa balik umah je confirm aku dah kena penampor dua tiga bijik! Confrim lah!!

Fine. I know I was wrong. But I just wanted some company. And he's the only one there. I kinda promised Kerol, but then he's too far...plus it was raining and I was so damn hungry! So I picked the nearest solution. Not to mention I got to know him better kan? Lan, of course. Kerol watpe...dah cukup kenal dah.

Dari situ lah my obsession has stopped. Yup, I'm no longer obsessing over him... which means I don't like him any longer. Sebagai kawan, penasihat kereta... ok no problem. Lebih dari tu? I don't think so! I wonder if this fact I just wrote would calm Mummy and Makton.

Isk, tetiba rasa tensen plak.

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RM10 for staff fund. Bloody hell! I owe RM10 for last month and now I have to pay double the amount. I haven't been home since raya Aidilfitri and as you can see I'm all cranky and sad and all messed up!

Tak semua orang can afford to pay RM10 for nothing ok! I wonder if we get back our money after we leave the office. Heh. Mati idup semula pun dia takkan bagi balik. Baik diaorg buat bayar servis sinki ke, servis tepon ke, bayar movers for the renovation ke...

BLOODY HELL!!!

Rm10 tu tambah sket, lepas minyak aku balik Muar ok!!! I don't think I can eat anymore. Fine. Take all what's left of my money and let me die of starvation!

Stupid, ugly, unreliable, ungrateful child.

Who?

ME!

Suatu ketika dahulu, aku adalah seorang yg periang. Sentiasa memberi senyuman dan suka bergelak ketawa. Penuh dengan kasih sayang (UWEKKK...!!! Nak temuntah aku!) Ok fine, aku tarik balik yg last tu.

Tapi sekarang, kalau aku senyum atau ketawa dan sebagainye yg menunjukkan aku gembira, silerlah jangan tertipu. It's all fake, baby. I don't think I can go back to being my old self again. Things are just too depressing.

I don't get it. I've tried... but I just can't. Ape jadik ni? Ape?!

Tolong la saiko kan diri engko, Jhn. Think positive beb. Give everybody around you (and yourself, most importantly!) some credit.

Please! I'm begging you.

P.L.E.A.S.E.!

Kalau tak, baik engko dok diam je kat rumah. Jangan jumpa orang langsung. Walau kawan baik, walau family. Nangis la engko sensorang. Layan la hati ko yg sakit tu sorang2. Jadi lah giler sorang2. Kalau sampai tahap "Depression" aku tatau. Padan muke!

Oh, and hope that this is only PMS or some other temporary mental sickness you can blame on.

* Hey! The more I write and read about this, the more I feel better.

So let's party tonite, ok! Just pray that you won't reserve yourself or jump out the window / KLCC bridge at any point. TRY and have some fun, ok dude?!