Ok, masa untuk declare resolutions for 2009. But before that, mau check dulu last year punye. Adakah tercapai? Ahaks..

1. Pegi exercise kalau boleh setiap pagi pada hujung minggu yg free.
[Errr... ade gak la pegi, like, 3 - 5 times througout the year]

2. Beli segala jenis kaler & merialisasikan kepuasan diri dalam bidang coloring. (Read : Saye suke mewarne).
[Done]

3. Go travel! Kurang2 kena sampai rumah Dahlia kat Perak.
[Done]

4. Have a social life.
[Met a bunch of Dee's friends and a small reunion of school friends at a wedding. Kire ok lah.]

5. At least pretend to enjoy meeting new people.
[Done]

6. Find myself a boyfriend.
[Not done, obviously]

Conclusion: It was ok, kebanyakannye done. Hehehe..

Baiklah, untuk tahun 2009 ni, aku bercita2 untuk menyambung apa yang not done last year. Dan add a few more new ones.

1. Pegi exercise kalau boleh setiap pagi pada hujung minggu yg free.
2. Not to have a social life.
3. Not to find myself a boyfriend.
4. Read and stay home more. Talk and go out less. Ignore what others are saying.
5. Bersihkan sebaik mungkin the pimples and scars on my face.
6. Eat & live healthy.
7. At least have RM3k terkumpul by end of the year. (Sikit, I know, tapi kalau letak tinggi nnt tak tercapai pulak. Berpada2 lah kalau nak set target pun kan?)

I think that's about it. I am dead serious about no. 2 & 3 though. Ini serious punye azam, bukan Azamuddin yg-dah-ada-brapa-org-anak-dah-agaknye.

Ok la. Selamat Tahun 2009.

Kinokuniya punya offer skang ni memang best. I bought 3 books for slightly under RM80! Plan nak beli HP and the Half-Blooded Prince, tapi tak nampak bayang pun. Manakala buku Twilight menimbun! So ape lagik. Gua kebas la satu beb.

Dan aku baca balik posting Hafezh haritu. Separuh dari aku setuju dengan wife Hafezh, Nisa, yg kata buku tu tak brapa best. Tapi masalahnye aku baca dengan pantas, and now I can't wait to get to Kino again to buy the 2nd book. Yes, part of me jugak kata buku tu agak addictive.

Tapi kan, aku tak faham apesal Bella macam susah sangat nak lepaskan Edward dari pandangan mata dia. Masa kat sepital after Bella kena attack dengan James tu pun, dia cam panic giler biler Edward cam ckp soh dia gi dok Jacksonville so dia takleh nak harm Bella. Aku sungguh tak paham. Is it mmg semua org becinta akan feel that way? Or is it kalau u becinta dengan vampire je akan jadi macam tu? Macam mengada2 pun ye.

But still, membaca selepas menengok movie mmg lah tak syok.

I think Khaled Hosseini is a great writer. The Kite Runner is my absolute favorite. Menangis tersedu-sedan masa membaca nye. Tengok movie toksah citer la. Terpaksa stop sbb tak mampu nak mengeluarkan air mata banyak sgt. Both of his novels memberi kesan kepada aku yg emo ini.

Aku suke membaca, tapi aku baca buku yg simple2 jek. Tak macam Hafezh, ofkos. Dia baca stok James Clavell yg tulis Shogun and Tai-Pan.. buku2 tebal umpama dictionary with thesaurus. Or J.R.R Tolkein's Lord Of The Rings yg aku baru baca 2 pages dah pening dengan bahasa nye. Susah btui.

I think the first novel (utk org dewasa, bukan teenage novels) yg aku baca was John Grisham's The Client. I love his novels and continue reading my cousins' novels sebab masa tu skolah lagi, belum ada duit nak beli sendiri. And now that I can afford it, I think his writing has somehow dropped a notch. Yang lama2 best giler, yg baru skang.. siap aku stop halfway. Tapi I will still buy, coz aku dah macam ada a half-collection of his books. In reality, I find lawyers and courtrooms wayyy boring, tapi aku boleh terima pulak citer2 John Grisham ni.

Sekarang ni aku tengah in the process of collecting Jodi Picoult's novels. Citer dia lebih kepada family, love... gituh2 la. Which reminds me of Danielle Steel. I don't read her novels as much. Just synopsys from my auntie jek. Hehehehe.. but I do have 1 of her books, though. Capix bagi. Ape ntah tajuknye.

Cecelia Ahern pun aku suke. At the moment aku tertinggal 2 buku dia - 1 blom sempat nak gi beli, 1 lagi baru kuar hardcover. Tunggu paperback kuar baru bleh beli. Hehehehe... Dia tulis love stories, tapi 2 -3 buku kebelangan ni dia tulis pasal imaginry things. But still ok to me. I still like her. My age, anak Ireland nye President kot?

Other authors aku baca - Sidney Sheldon. The Best Laid Plan is the best! Hehehe.. Sejak buku tu, I read more of his. Sayang dia da mati. Judith McNaught, tulis citer dalam zaman dulu2. Love stories yg sangat indah. Tapi yg baru2 aku da tak baca. Dahlia yg still baca. Her favorite author katanya. Tak lupa jugak Robert Langdon's adventures to solve mysteries in Vatican City. Ahaks. Of course, Dan Brown. I love the two books - Da Vinci Code and Angles and Demons. Yang lain2 tak baca. Digital Fortress baru baca few chapters mcm tak se-best the famous 2.

Sophie Kinsella and Meg Cabot pun dibaca juga. Tapi tak collect, cuma beli 2 -3 jek. Most of 'em dipinjam dari kawan-kawan - Arin dan Jaja. Can You Keep A Secret by Sophie Kinsella telah dibeli dan tidak menyesal langsung. Totally funny. Terpaksa laugh out loud reading it. If I'm in the mood for a chick-lit, I'd definately choose them. Ada a few other authors jugak yg dibeli, but not as good. Tak ingat dah their names. Hehehe..

She's Come Undone pun best. By Wally Lamb. Ingat nak sambung baca his other novels, but biler nampak je the thickness of I Know This Much Is True, aku tarik balik niat aku tu. Seram! Terbalik pulak dengan Mark Haddon. The author of The Curious Incident Of Ohe Dog In The Night-time. Maybe sebab dia banyak tulis Children's books kot? Anyway, I love his website. Bright colors!

Finally, of course, my all-time favorite and books that I read the most number of times, J.K Rowling's famous Harry Potter. I just can't describe how much I love 'em! The books I read once are Half-Blooded Prince and Deathly Hallows. Because takde masa. I have to read others too, right? Banyak kali baca pun, tetap buku pinjam. I only have Sorcerer's Stone, itupun my auntie bagi coz she works in a library kat England sana. Siap ada cop library lagi. Hehehehe.. Slowly lah, aku akan beli satu2. Dan baca balik semua. Yeay!

Recently ada Twilight punye series pulak, by Stephanie Meyer. Tapi aku tak baca lagik. Biler dah kuar movie and I haven't read the novel, buat aku malas untuk membaca nye. So yesterday I googled it, and read all 4 books punye Wiki. Ada section Plot kat situ, which menerangkan from beginning to the end of the books. So I generally have the idea of what's gonna come next. Most probably I won't read them. I still have HP, Cecelia Ahern and Jodi Picoult to buy, tapi tatau la kalau sampai kat Kinokuniya nanti berubah angin plak.

:)

Facebook tanya, "What are you doing right now?"

I am..

• Listening to Twilight soundtrack while playing the movie over and over again in my head.
• Wishing the movie plot will come true, and Bella is.. well.. Me.
• Falling in love with Edward Cullen (not Rob Pattinson) and Shia LaBeouf.
• Wanting to catch a movie, but can't think of any other except for Twilight.
• Thinking of making pasta.
• Listing down activities for the Christmas and Awal Muharram weekend.
• Gathering up targets for next year.
• Again, falling in love with Edward Cullen.
  

Eyes on Fire
Blue Foundation

I’ll seek you out,
Flay you alive
One more word and you won’t survive
And I’m not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

I’m taking it slow
Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze

And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace

Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace
Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace

Edward Cullen : Aren't you afraid?
Isabella Swan : I'm only afraid of losing you.

And in the final scene when they're dancing and he kissed her neck, I almost cried.

Awwww~

It's not really THAT good, but ok la. And the stupid cinema had to cut some of the scenes and sometimes what they're saying. Dumbo betul.

Mamat tu takde la hensem sgt dlm movie tu, I like him better as Cedric Diggory. Sebab bedak dia tebal sangat lah! Pale, white skin and red lips? Urgh! Sissy! But masa kat prom tu nampak hensem sket la. Tapi pompuan tu mmg cun. I agree dengan Hafezh. Menarik!

Definately akan download bcoz of the cut scenes, and if ada sequel, probably will download aje jugak. Nasib baik smalam wayang murah. Hehehehe..

No Other Love
John Legend feat Estelle

No other love
No other touch
Gimme gimme oh so much
Turn me on, turn me on

Won’t you please get outta my head
Get back into my bad, now come kiss me, come with me
Cause I can hardly sleep without you, can’t stop thinkin’ bout you girl
I want you, I need you

And I’m ready for love, ready for us to lose control
You know and I know

No other love
No other touch
Gimme gimme oh so much
Turn me on, turn me on

No other kiss
No one like this
Feelin’ like I can’t resist
Turn me on, turn me on

I had my share of lovers
But there is no other girl, your special, now let’s go

Cause love I want you more than ever, want to do whatever now
To keep you , I need you

And I’m ready for love, ready for us to lose control
You know and I know

No other love
No other touch
Gimme gimme oh so much
Turn me on, turn me on

No other kiss
No one like this
Feelin’ like I can’t resist
Turn me on, turn me on

I said you’re turnin’ me on, now
said you’re turnin’ me on
said you’re turnin me on

from your smile to your lips to the words of the song
i know i used to say i was too young
now im grown up
but i got you when you need that strong
real goody, good lovin

Stevie Wonder said it’s been so long
and i’ma give it if you need it
are you ready to receive it?
Boy i wanna give you some love,
wanna give you some love and affection
you got my attention

Balik from Zul's wedding in Melaka, greeted by my nephews...

Hazeem : Lamanye pegi, ingatkan kawen skali

Syahmi : Anak Nyaii Mah mana boleh kawen. Dia kena tinggi lagi cenggini (sambil menunjukkan the proper height)

Me : * LOL *

Ye, ye. Aku tau aku pendek. This will be my reason if, in case, org tanya why I'm not married.

Apart from Taufik/Taufiq and Hidayah, I kinda like the name Maryam/Mariam. Ibu Nabi Isa, kan? Yang melahirkan Nabi Isa tanpa bapa, kan?

Ok. So aku dah ada 3 nama anak. Walaupun aku rasa mcm aku takkan kawen, tp at least aku ada nama anak. Hahahahaha.. giler la weiiiii. Ah lantakla. Janji aku suke nama-nama tu. Mana lah tau kan...

Kalo zaman skang ni, orang mesti kata nama Maryam tu cam zaman dulu. Tapi takpe, janji makna nye bagus dan hopefully orangnye pun berkualiti (eh bleh ke?). "Nama itu doa... berilah yg terbaik".

Sebenarnye nama Omar/Umar pun aku suke jugak. Tapi tahap suke aku tak setanding dengan 3 nama yg sebelum ni. So, tak masuk list aaa... lagipun nanti ade satu sperm tu perasan over plak. Anak Pizli takpe lagi. Sejuk hati Pizli ngan Liza harapnye.

Anyway, enuff about names. I'm on diet. Starting today. Not just a regular reduce-weight diet, but caffeine diet. So I'm cutting down my coffee/nescafe/tea intake, and also chocolates. I had "soya suam kurang manis" for lunch just now, ok. How it sucks! Kurangkan ais pun ye. Terasa macam sinus menjadi2. Dah 8 hari aku dok selsema. Habuk di sekeliling aku nih menjadikan hidung aku gatal2. Smalam macam ada terbaca pasal ice ni, sbb tu aku start kurangkan.

Aku ada some sickness yg affects between 1 and 2% of the population sahaja. WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY embarrassing. No, it's not my allergy to habuk yg membuatkan muke aku penuh jerawat. Although, that is embarrassing jugak, to continue living dengan huge zits on the face yg membuatkan manusia nak muntah biler tengok aku.

Anyway, I found this community website yg membantu orang-orang seperti aku kat Malaysia. There is a permanent way of ending the sickness, but at a cost of RM9000. And its a surgery. So terpaksala aku hanya prektis tips2 lain yg diberikan. Unless ada org nak belanja aku sampai 9k, dan aku tak takot mati, aku akan buat surgery tu.

So I actually understand kenapa aku tak suke bersosial dan aku bujang sampai skang. Aku memang tak cantik.

Kalo Pizli baca ni, confirm dia akan cakap dia benci aku cakap cenggini. Ha benci la Pizli. Takpe. Orang tak cantik mcm aku nih mmg dibenci oleh masyarakat.

:P

Awek depan aku ni baik jugak orangnye. Masa first day kiteorg kat sini, dia bagitau aku plug tu da rosak, takleh guna. Pastu dia explen kat aku cemana nak gi surau. Dia pun vendor jugak. Handle system ape pun aku taktau.

Orangnye cantik. Kurus, kecik2, putih gebu, kulit bersih takde jerawat... mmg cun la kirenye. Tapi dia tak tinggi. My height je la. Tengok gaya pun ok jek. Pakai jam swatch skin yg aku dok usha satu ketika dulu. Baju2 pun takde la nampak exclusive giler, tp ok la.. normal utk orang melayu. Nampak mcm sebaya aku je. Dari cara dia cakap, jalan.. mcm baik2 je budaknye. Sopan aaa. Pakai tudung.

Biasanya dia dtg awal dari aku. Tapi pagi tadi aku tgh jalan dari parking nak ke ofis, dia drive masuk. Owh.. pakai Swift kaler merah ok! Comel giler. So aku terus rasa minah ni mcm perfect la. Aku bet gaji dia dah kurang2 3k da kot. At least. Untung betul boifren dia.

Mana aku tau dia ada bf? Huhuhuhu... Sebab kadang2 ada org call (ringtone Alicia Keys - No One) dan dia akan duduk senyap kat seat dia. Sebenarnye dia bercakap, tp berbisik.. sgt perlahan sampai aku tak dengo. Biasa la kot utk org bercinte. Hahahaha...

Aku dah la terasa sungguh kecil selama nih. Now I feel even smaller.

Pizli punya weekend memuaskan, begitu jugak dengan aku. Starting betul2 pukul 12tengah malam hari Jumaat (Sabtu pagi zero-hour).

Pegi melepak kat Old Town dengan Zul. Pastu makan Mekdi sampai kol 3 pagi. The next day, tengah hari pegi Tasik Perdana (yeke? yg kat Cheras tu). Sampai2 je disambut oleh seekor itik yg sedang makan rumput dengan releks nye.

Plan nye nak tengok sukan kanak2 kurang upaya kat stadium bola tu, tapi Cousin Yati (person in-charge of Johor nye kontijen) kata sampai noon je. Diaorg sumer da balik hotel. So I stayed kat park, berbual2 dengan itik. Nasib baik bawak buku cerita. So duduk bawah pokok yg rendang, matahari pun sepoi2 bahasa, sambil menikmati keindahan alam. An hour later, aku gi hotel to pickup Cousin Yati and her family. Nak ikut budak2 OKU Johor pegi Zoo!!

Hooray! Cita2 aku untuk gi ke Zoo skali lagi telah tercapai. Takde la sedih sgt sbb kena pegi sorang. Instead, pegi dengan budak2 special nih best pulak tengok gelagat diaorg. Kegembiraan tergambar pada wajah mereka. Cewah! Budak tak budak jugak la diaorg. Yang paling tua 28 tahun, ok. Bulu mata tebal. Bleh tahan gak la budak dia. Nama dia Osman. Tapi paling good-looking dia nye athlete harapan, Bakar. Senyum je dalam apa keadaan, walaupun bila diajukan soalan seperti: Bakar sukan tadi main ape?

Ye, dia akan tetap akan senyum tanpa berkata2. Cousin Midi kata dia tu slow budaknya. Slow2 pun, lari tetap laju! Ucup paling comel, sebab dia banyak senyum dan dia pakai bedak tebal. Budaknye pun ramah. Biler ditegur, akan menjawab dengan penuh kelembutan. Dia ada down-syndrome. Ada 2 Chinese girls yg mana dua2 menang tempat pertama dan kedua dalam acara lumba lari.

Di celah2 tu ada jugak kawan2 Cousin Yati yg lelaki, muda dan hensem. Ahaks. Tapi sorang dah kawen, sorang dah ada serious gf and the other one aku tersalah anggap ingat dia OKU jugak. Sorry, brader!!! :)

It was fun, dapat tengok monyet, zirafah, gajah, dan yg paling best... Gloria!!! a.k.a badak sumbu. Besar giler!!!!! Dapat tengok diaorg mandi, makan, menguap, minum dan tak lupa aktiviti yg paling diminati oleh Dahlia - berak. Ekekekeke...

Sunday morning aku heret Mummy & Makton pegi tengok Special Olympics budak2 tu. A few years back negeri Johor ada buat sukan kat Muar, Cousin Nur duduk tepi padang sambil menangis tengok budak2 tu main. Ekekeke... Aku ni bukan takde hati perut, tp takde la aku nak menangis. Sebab diaorg happy. Acara lumba lari ada 8 orang masuk, 8-8 la digelar "pemenang" dan semua akan dapat medal. Fair & square.

Best jugak skali skala habiskan weekend kat tempat selain shopping center. Tapi pegi gak CM beli beg & Kotaraya beli t-shirt. Ahaks! Sunday late evening pegi lagi park sbb nak tengok itik.

From now on, aku akan make sure aku pegi visit itik on weekends yg mana aku free dan tak balik Muar. I miss you, itik.

:)