Huiii penatnye. Berlari sana sini kat ofis. I had to do 2 briefings today. The server was somewhat like sh*t (hahahaha saja suka2 nak mengata) and students had so many problems. Thank God I have the answer. Just gave it out to keep their mouth shut. And the other one...my partner had to cover it for me. And I thank him for that. Tapi camne pun I went to see the testers and most of them tak paham maaaa.. konsep testing tu...aiyaaaaa... poning pala makcik... takpe la.. ape pun thanks to them, dapat gak tau error2 yg kita tak perasan... So now I have all sorts of papers on my desk..at the moment di bawah tangan aku..saja nak abaikan sbb sakit dah mata nih... next week had to submit the reports. And pray that Dr. S tak call!!! I'll send her an email la...nak elakkan her call.. ~remember, my prescious....not to give out your handphone number to her~ Ok... now nak pegi menjadi seorang counselor...to my friend yg sedang dalam kesedihan. Muahahahahhaa...

Going back to my hometown again today. Excited as usual...mimpi Mummy and MT...kitaorg pegi zoo tgk benda2 yg tinggal dalam air...hahahahhaha...cam lawak je mimpi tu... Mungkin sbb aku terkenangkan auntie aku MT tu before sleep last nite...

Watched "Thirteen" malam tadi when I was alone at home...sangap giler kazen2 aku takde...sorang2 nak buat ape?? Sib baik Mummy belikan tv ngan dvd player tuh...at least dapat gak tgk tv dengan clear! ~Berterima kasih aku kat Mummy aku~

Anyways... cerita tu agak menakutkan aku sbb tgk budak2 sekolah jadik macam gituh skali... pastu habis cerita ntah camne aku teringat la plak kat family aku...mula aku teringat kat Arwah Atuk aku... pastu tetiba jek muka makcik2 aku nih berada dlm pikiran... Semua dah tua la... my uncle (my Mummy's eldest brother) satu ketika dulu masuk ICU...tak sedarkan diri 2 hari kot... semua nya kerana rokok...

~Dan tiba2 jua mood nak bercerita aku hilang sbb aku penat gelak member aku call tadi...hahahahahha~

Excited nih!!! Did this quiz kat quizilla, again... and this is what I found out!!! The one celebrity I'm going to marry...


You are going to Marry Colin Farell. He is crazy
and often drunk, but he is capable of being
sweet. He is very mysterious and cute.
Congrats!




Muahahahhahaha....best best best giler... Dah la aku skang nih tgh head over heels dengan Colin Farell nih... tiba2 buat quiz dapat dia!!! Waduh waduh...kalau dah jodoh mmg tak kemana...hahahahhahahahahahahha...

~Nih pulak celebrity yg akan DAHLIA kawen...dahlia nih seorang designer yg terlampau ditempat kerja aku... hahahahahaha... atas permintaannya...aku post kan kat sinih..semoga kau berpuas hati merenung muka Orlando Bloom ok cik d~


You are going to Marry orlando Bloom. He will
always treat you right and is very romantic. He
will do anything for you. He is very polite and
has deep brown eyes and is very good looking
(which is another plus!). He can make anything
cheesy look really hot(like sliding down stairs
on a shield shooting arrows or wearing pointy
ears for example). Congrats!!



Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (now 12 (i just added more, and still more to come!)results that have pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla

Tiada idea untuk menulis...hanya untuk surfing dan baca blog2 org lain dan menghitamkan blog sendiri dan mendengar lagu dan memikirkan kewangan dan memikirkan permasalahan kenaikan harga kereta skang nih dan mengingatkan ibu, makcik2, anak2 sedara dirumah dan tak habis2 berharap harini dan esok akan berlalu sepantas kilat dan lagi....

I searched for LOTR jokes earlier but takde ape2 yg dapat menghiburkan hati aku... sedang frust menonggeng kah aku? Oh, tidak...tidak sama sekali... Yesterday I did quizzes kat Quizilla pastu ntah ape2 aje result aku... I am a bad girl la... I enjoy normal sex la... sesungguhnye diri ini ke-sangap-an diwaktu2 kerja tak banyak nih...

~ehh...they are having lunch together dalam bilik ma'am..being all lovey dovey...hish...agak geli juga aku..hahahahha~

This lecturer I worked with called me yesterday. Again. I did all she asked, she checked, she went to London and let me continue with it. 2 days before the launch she called me, from London la of course, a day before she called again, after the launch she called again. Yesterday I emailed her...she replied...and after that she called AGAIN!! What is it with her? Aku rimas la org call aku selalu2 nih...the only person whom I don't mind calling me everyday is my Mummy!! Why does she have this huge load of energy in her to plan all sorts of things involving e-learning for her students?? Why does she always wants us all in the IT dept to socialize with the students? What if we don't want to? Maybe others would like it, but not me ok... Aku nih tak gheti bersosial...ok?? Semua lecturer macam ni ke? Can't imagine myself being one of'em... mesti aku jadik lecturer paling malas in the history of mankind! Hahahahaha... If I can just get on with my life and my work without her calling me every single day... I can deal with emails... but no calls, please!!! Sib baik tak kasik no. handphone aku kat dia. Sat gi sampai tgh malam pun dia nak call aku gamaknye... "Sit down and discuss a few things for the students..make a proposal" Crap!!

Speaking of late nite calls, I got one last nite... from a chat friend of mine kat JB... hmmm...suara dia best.. aku dah la tekak skang nih cam sakit sket... plus suara org tgh tido... buruk giler aaa... heheheh.. anyway he called just to say hi sbb aku dah lama tak contact dia. Aku bukan ape... aku nih kalau org tu tak contact aku..aku malas la nak contact dia dulu...kang mengacau la ape la... nih melalui pengalaman la... Ok so don't get me started on guys ok... dah lama aku tak bercerita, dah lama tak contact dan dah lama juga aku tidak mengurats... Nanti la...bila sampai mood nya.

~Ehhh...tadi kata takde idea nak tulis, kan? tiba2 panjang lak citernye...heheheheh..~

~BOSAN~

Saw this Blogskin title - Crying For An Hour. Realized something. Cam dah lama tak menitiskan air mata nih.. Tapi nak buat ape pun ek? Tapi kalau tertitis la hendaknye...hehehe... rasa cam insaf sket pun ade...at least aku ingat asal usul aku nih.. tak pun mesti aku rindu kat someone, yg selalunye adelah ahli keluarga aku..
Sebenarnye takde benda nak citer...cuma rasa cam nak menaip lak...
Bosan la...mari kita menyanyi meh....

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where i Started
Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all i've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all i'm lacking
Completely and complete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

Now... i'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all i've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing i know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
I don't know what i'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing left to lose
Nothing left to fly
There is nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else...

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where i Started
Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all i've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing i know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
I don't know what i'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment...
Hanging by a moment...
Hanging by a moment here with you...

Itulah dia tadi nyanyian dari Lifehouse - Hanging by a moment... Ohhh...saya terdengar suara Sean Paul dari player MP3 saya...maka terbayang la rupa parasnya yg sungguh hensem dan cute itu dan dance moves dia yg begitu menggiurkan...hahahahaha.. sesungguhnya aku dah tahap takde kerja dah ni...Muahahahahha..penat dah dok apply kerja sana sini...penat dah nak cek program aku nih...lantak engko la esok nak jalan ke tak...insyaAllah jalan la... maka sekarang nih...killing time re-creating my blog...

Terbang melayang lagi duit gaji aku...and it's not even february yet! The Mask (cartoon character) would say "Sssssomebody Ssssssstop Me~!!"....indeed! Stop me, please!!! Pagi tadi saw TV3's Malaysia Hari Ini and they say harga kereta naik RM2000 - RM5000??? Haiyoooooo.... camne nih?? Bankrupt la aku... camne aku nak merealisasikan impian aku untuk memakai number plate pilihan hati aku nih??? Kena beli keta baru kan? Moto toksah la...since aku takleh nak bawak... aiseymen.... potong stim la weih!!! Have to check with Kamal la pasal harga keta nih.. kalau ok InsyaAllah la aku bleh membeli satu (cakap cam nak beli karipap aje kan?).

Bukak jek menda Blogger nih terus idea nak menulis hilang. Blank kejap.
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Ok...baru je habis isi borang online untuk kerja lain...siapa2 yg ade kerja kosong utk org bidang IT bleh la kasik ek... memerlukan nih..cam dah boring dok sini mengadap dia yg tidak berapa berkemampuan untuk berfikir... atau aku yg mengada2??? Many of my friends from this office yg dah lari ke tempat lain.. aku je dok tercanguk kat sini for almost 2 years. Nak balik kampung!!! Kalau dapat kerja kat BP tu mmg best aaa...
Yesterday after work niat nye nak beli cleanser..but bila sampai sana jek macam2 aku beli. Kasut, organizer (dah separuh abad baru nak beli), cleanser, deo, roti, lotion...and within that 1/2 an hour there aku habis lebih kuran rm150. Waduh!! Sakitnye aku nih...and today I have a shopping date with my friend ang my cousin. Nak beli jeans lak...and my other cousin pesan bag.. and biscuits... Ape nak jadik dengan aku nih? Pantang ade perayaan mesti nak shopping...hish... Duit rumah belum bayar lagi...bill dah sampai..tapi takpe bill tak banyak... Bayar hutang MARA lagi... *heyy...sape ade duit nak kasik aku secara free???*
Ok la...ptg karang maca2 activity aku kat ofis nih...lagi pagi tadi pun aku tak nyempat2 nak duduk kat kosi sendiri.. have to go and remind Amir utk projector. Ehhh... lunch dulu...lapar giler.. tapi nak gi toilet la... hahahahhaa.. aku cam tak btol la... ape la nak jadik. Muahahhahahahaha...

Didn't bring back my facial cleanser yesterday. Typical me. Ade aje menda yg nak di-terlupakan. Geramnye aku!! Next time have to set a reminder la... Hari ni bangun pagi cuci muka pakai sabun ntah ape2... Pastu muka sembab giler...rimasnye aku!!! Rimas sesangat!!! After work today have to singgah sumaket jap to buy a new one. Terbang melayang lagi la duit aku hendaknye.. *kalau la ade org yg baik hati nak sara idup aku ek..*

Dok kat umah nih cam takde idea lak nak tulis...bermalas malasan aje la hendaknye.. everyday sleep late at nite then wake up lat morning... skip breakfast and str8 to lunch.. mandi lagi la toksah citer..malas giler...satu hari sekali mandi..and that would be mandi petang. Sungguh malas aku dok kat umah nih.. Yesterday went to Melaka...today pegi lagi...with 3 other cousins..harinih baru la kedai bukak...but I can't find that one kasut yg aku bekenan...cuma kat Sogo je ade? saiko btol... pastu kasut yg satu lagi tuh sampai RM300++. Lagi la ke-saiko-an yg amat.. Dah last2 aku frust terus pegi melantak sampai dekat habis duit aku. Dah la gemok...bertambah gemok la jadiknye!!! Hahahhaha... Besides that cam takde menda pun... kehidupan ini agak membosankan sekarang ini...

Mujhse dotsi karoge! Tu la tajuk citer hindustan yg aku tgh tengok skang nih... I am so not a "kaki hindustan" but somehow citer nih menambat hati aku sejak mula... pasal friendship and love.. best aaa weiiii.... Mummy aku nye pasal la nih...suka menghasut aku tgk citer hindustan.. Iskkkk...kesian...kesian... emo lak aku tgk citer nih... Hrithik dah la hensem..
Ehhh...lupa nak citer...arituh on the way to pudu..dalam lrt tiba2 ade sorang mamat nih masuk,... bleh tahan hensem la... macho gak la.. tiba2 phone dia bunyik dan dia bersuara... huh!! Very de manly one! Kalau cakap ngan aku la dalam phone.. sure aku dah cair...muahahahahhaa...
Oh well.... aku nak abihkan tgk citer nih aaa... apsal la tunang masing2 tak dapat kesan yg diaorg tuh tgh hangat berchenta??? Lambat btol aa!!!

Sesungguhnya hari ini masa berjalan dengan amat perlahan sekali.. *Oh mengapa?* Sekarang kol 3... that means I have another 2 1/2 hours sebelum balik keje... 1/2 an hour perjalanan nak ke Puduraya.. hopefully lrt tak rosak macam semalam... dan sesudah itu bas ku akan bertolak pada pukul 6.30 ptg... excited giler nak balik sbb satu hari suntuk aku asyik sebut2 je pasal balik kampung... not to mention malam2 dimana aku bermimpikan ibu ku tercinta...
Selain cerita balik kampung, takde citer lain kot.. cuma kebosanan melanda jiwa.. dah takde idea nak surf ape... at least kalau kat rumah aku bleh chat... kat sinih buhsan...semuanye kena block... sib baik menda blogger nih dia tak block..kalau tak lagi la aku tak tau nak buat ape..
~hey...jgn tgk aku la...aku tgh belakon buat kerja nih~
Awal pagi tadi dia call... pujuk2 soh aku cuti arinih sbb dia cuti... ade ke patut...aku dah la baru amik emergancy last friday...lagi nak soh aku cuti... tapi separuh hati aku kata nak cuti gak...sbb dah berbulan2 aku tak jumpa dia.. dia punye pasal la nih...org kerja siang..dia kerja malam.. pastu asyik takde kat kl je..kalau ade pun mesti tgh ade hal dengan org itu la..ini la.. bosan aku... jadik kesimpulannye.. lantak engko la...janji aku bahagia.. *bahagiakah aku?* Hmmmm....

Harinih cam takde benda nak buat...nak mintak half day but the bosses blom datang lagi... kalau diaorg cuti? Can I just go back after lunch? Please!!! I miss my Mummy!! Hehehee... kalau sempat nak singgah KLCC to buy some biscuits for my cousin.. dia dah teringin biskut Marks & Spencer... Tapi...takyah la kan? Aku bawak chocolates Langkawi for them anyway... Can't wait to get home!! Tapi one thing I nak bawak balik, but can't coz beg dah penuh...is my bantal bucuk!! Aduhai...terpaksa la aku pakai bantal biasa2 kat umah tu... isk...sedey nye kena tinggalkan bantal kesayanganku kat KL...

* hmmmm...lalalalalalalalalaaaa~ boringnye.... *

Good morning...
Have u done two of the most important things when you wake up today?
1)Pray, so that u may live...
2)Take a bath-so that others may live too!

Good looks catch the eyes but Good Personality catches the heart, You are blessed with both!."
FLATTERED...?. Don't Be, it was sent to me, I just wanted you to read it.

From Monday to Sunday
From January To December
From birth till my death
My feelings for you have never changed.
For me, you've always been........... a headache

My friend, the best quality that i like about u is that, U R very sentimental .... (10% Senti and 90% Mental).

Dark were those days, without your sight.
When I was in darkness, you gave me light.
You gave me strength 2 make life bright.
Thank you so much PHILIPS TUBELIGHT

When I C the stars I C U
When I C the Sea I C U
Get out of the way you are blocking my view.

Ladies Tee-shirt sayings

Guys have feelings too. But, like, who cares?
I don't believe in miracles. I rely on them.
Next mood swing: 6 minutes.
I hate everybody, and you're next.
Please don't make me kill you.
I'm busy. You're ugly. Have a nice day.
Warning: I have an attitude, and I know how to use it.
Remember my name -- you'll be screaming it later.
You KNOW you want me.
Why do people with closed minds always open their mouths?
I'm multi-talented: I can talk and piss you off at the same time.
You, me, whipped cream, handcuffs. Any questions?
You have the right to remain silent, so please SHUT UP.
All stressed out and no one to choke.
How can I miss you if you won't go away?
Sorry if I looked interested. I'm not.
Nobody knows I'm not wearing underwear.
I'm out of estrogen and I have a gun.

I woke early one morning,
The earth lay cool and still
When suddenly a tiny bird
Perched on my window sill,
He sang a song so lovely
So carefree and so gay,
That slowly all my troubles
Began to slip away.
He sang of far off places
Of laughter and of fun,
It seemed his very trilling,
brought up the morning sun.
I stirred beneath the covers
Crept slowly out of bed,
Then gently shut the window
And crushed his fucking head.
I'm not a morning person

Kissing in the LRT? Sick! Yesterday there was this couple in front of me, practically kissing each other sepanjang2 perjalanan. Dalam lrt tau! Obviously, they need to get a room, a.s.a.p! Disguisting! Kalau ye pun... jangan la in public places, ok... nak temuntah aku! Nih bukan negara omputih la... korang tu orang Malaysia...ok?

Akhirnya!!! Siap gak...tapi blom upload lagik... penjaga server sibuk la plak...hehehehe...
Pagi tadi ma'am datang jek soh aku gantikan dia jadik cikgu utk bebudak trainee tuh...aduhai..saiko sungguh...dah la aku nih buta IT...lagi nak soh aku ajo...maka aku hentam sebarang aje la...soh aje diaorg buat exercise...aku tunjuk ajar sesikit jek... ahahahah... mana nak prepare...1/2 jam sebelum class baru dia nak bagitau...ape aaa...suka buat changes last minute tau...menyampah aku!

Saturday aritu first day masuk kelas.. siap gosok tudung lagi sbb nak masuk UIA...hehehehe.. rupa2nye takyah...pak gad pun pandang sebelah mata aje... so anyway... class was ok.. a few teachers and countless number of Telekom workers. There were only 7-8 girls in the class. Or should I say women? Heheheh... rasa cam orang tua lak... Others are all men.. some are cute, some are ok, some are quiet, some are outspoken... best gak la.. ye la...sebelum nih tak pernah masuk university la katakan... sape la aku.. hehehehe.. sekali masuk kena join orang2 dari pelbagai peringkat umur...best la..kan... Tapi ade one funny thing happened. Sementara nak tunggu 2nd class, we decided to go to one shopping mall...tunggu taxi...but none stopped. I repeat...NONE! We waited at the bus stop for about 1/2 an hour or so..dengan panas matahari tepat kol 12...plus that smell from the parit..sampai menusuk tekak aku!! How shitty was that, u tell me! Last2 masuk balik campus...pak gad tu siap tegur...heheheheh...masing2 malu la...heheheheh...takpe..pengalaman... pasnih kitaorg tau la nak buat ape... second class starts at 1.30 tapi until 2.00 takde cikgu dtg.. pastu dia soh pindah masuk kelas sebelah... aku dok depan sekali betul bawah lubang idung cikgu tuh..muahahahaha... sampai sekarang masih terngiang-ngiang lagi lubang idungnye di fikiran aku.. hahahahhaa... the class ended early...so me called my friend from work and went shopping... later that evening aku pegi Times Square.. pegi bawak my friend tengok tempat game... and was "stalked" by two of the workers there. Hahahaha... Kitaorg lari ternampak lak kedai beg... masuk la.. pastu rasa cam taknak kuar coz beg dia best2.. color punye la best...hijau, merah, oren, brown... I never liked bright colors, but somehow aku tertarik lak pada beg2 kat situh... then we decided taknak beli...next time la.. sambung la jalan balik...tiba2 ternampak lagi satu branch kedai beg yg sama! Masuk lagi...pastu serious takleh kuar...until we both bought one bag each. Hahahah.. Reasonable la price beg2 kat situ... mine is RM38... ok what....kan? Pastu balik la kami...untuk mengelakkan diri dari terus bershopping.. kuar dari sana tersaing dengan budak2 punk and skinheads nih...sungguh aku gerun..gerun giler... Aku tunggu sampai dah tak ramai yg ade kat lrt tu baru la aku naik. Ramai gilerrrr punye... scary habis! Only that night lepas aku citer ngan my cousin baru aku tau bebudak skinz nih masa malam new year tu ade pau 2 other guys...budak tu taknak kasik duit...diaorg pukul dengan besi.. sampai yg sorang tuh meninggal. Serious beb aku tak tau..masuk NTV punye Edisi Siasat ek? Next time aku takmoh la pegi sana malam2...coz my cousin said..diaorg mmg skang ade buat port kat area Time Square sana... Ntah ape2 jek bebudak nih... Siap ade pompuan2 yg kurang berbaju...berpeluk2 sesuka ati jek... aku nak ngata orang...aku sendiri pun bukannye baik sangat... but then aku takde la buat di khalayak ramai... Bab itu biarkan la diaorg...tapi bab pukul org sampai mati tu mmg takleh nak dibiarkan la... Padahal diaorg tu budak2 lagi...muka masing2 macam budak2 sekolah yg tak abih SPM lagi pun... Isk isk isk...
Anyways...Sabtu harituh mmg hari yg sungguh memenatkan... I got home nearly 11 o'clock.. lepak2 tgk tv... around 1-2 baru tido... Kol 6 he woke me up...badan rasa cam nak patah..lagi dia mau ajak kuar pepagi buta...malas betul aku nak layan...Last2 aku bangun kol 12 on Sunday... Hahahahha... tak pernah terjadik aku bangun camtu lambat.. nih kira record la nih... Dah bangun tak tau ape nak buat...mandi then tido balik... Hahahahha... bangun, makan, tgk tv, tgk tv dan tgk tv lagi... pastu takleh tido malam... pagi tadi cam takleh bangun... Heheheheh...tu la...Mummy kata jgn tido siang degil! Kan dah... heheheheh...

Speaking of Mummy... aku rindu giler kat Mak aku weihhhh... nak balik nak balik nak balik!!!!! Nak bawak chocolates, keychains, gambar... baru 2 minggu tak balik... dah jadik camni...hehehehhe... tak sabar nak hari Rabu... tanpa berpaling lagi aku akan meninggalkan KL tepat pada pukul 6.30 ptg... Malam tu bleh la aku berjumpa dengan ahli keluarga.. Anak2 sedara pun ade kat umah...best nih! Ok la...bebila aku sambung citer lagi aaa... skang nih...nak buat ape pun tak tau... chow!

FUCK!!!

Aku rasa sungguh bosan sekarang nih... nak balik rumah pun cam takde mood, nak pi kerja pun malas, nak buat kerja lagi la malas... dah la tuh.. kazen aku yg sorang tuh nyombong nak mati ngan aku...tak paham tul... mmg menambahkan kepeningan di kepala nih... bosan tul aku ngan dia..rasa cam nak halau jek dari rumah tuh... eee...geram GERAM!!!!!!!!! orang lain pun tgh amik PhD gak...org lain pun berumur 30an gak...org lain pun ade perasaan gak... apsal ko orang camtu? ikut sedap engko jek...semua org kena ikut kau punye perasaan... org lain ko buat bodo jek.. sbb ape? sbb ko yg paling tua? ha? ehhh... org tua pun kena hormat org muda gak. jangan ingat kita nih family, ko yg paling tua dalam ramai2 kazen...ko bleh buat sukati ko tau! cuba la hormat sket kazen2 kau yg lain nih...yg lebih muda.. mid-life crisis ek?? ingat ko sorang tak kawen? adik hang pun tak kawen tau...umur korang pun lebih kurang...tapi apesal dia bleh cool aje..engko nih saiko semacam? bila ade keperluan untuk ko jek ko akan layan kitaorg sebaik mungkin? ha? aku tau la aku nih takat diploma jek... tapi bukan la bermakna aku nih bodoh giler...aku tau la ko jauh lebih pandai dari aku tapi jangan la sampai memperkecilkan aku macam tu sekali. ingat org lain takde perasaan? belajar tinggi2 pandai2 menda macam tu pun takleh nak pikir. dah. lantak ko. mati tak layan.

I got his latest number from a friend of mine yg tgh buat Industrial Training kat sini.... saja je nak msg... kalau dia lupa kat aku mmg nak kena penampar la! Pastu dia reply...eheheheh.. satu petanda baik.. but at the same time aku tgh ber sms ngan member aku... tiba2 dia call! Huhuhuhuh... jantung ini berdegup dengan kencang! Muahahahahhaha... Mula2 cam segan pastu makin rancak lak... he is, still, a flirt! He wants to meet me...tapi dia suruh rahsiakan dari pengetahuan my cousin, who happens to be his workmate. Ape motifnye? Taknak org2 pejabat tahu? Taknak wife tahu? Ooooo...sekarang dah pandai yek kamu... takpe lah...tgk la esok camne.. he'll call me again! hehehehehhe...

You can do it!!! Tabahkan hati anda... Muahahahhaahahaha

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll
ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't
coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

~lagu nih mengingatkan aku saat2 aku berjalan ditepi pantai kat langkawi pada suatu malam yg indah~

Isk...rasa cam nak hantuk aje kepala dia kat dinding tau!!! Ingat aku dah takde benda sangat nak buat ke ha? Apsal tak cakap awal2?? Tu la dia..dulu taknak plan betul2...dah last2 baru nak suruh ubah. Adekah engkau tiada kerja lain selain menyusahkan idup orang lain? Buat sendiri la weiiiiiii~ Tu la....dulu nyibuk nak amik balik dari aku...pastu tak siap pass kat org lain. Nak terkentut aku tengok muka kau, tau tak!!!

Tapi dalam pada itu aku masih lagi mempunyai masa untuk menulis blog ini. Semua ini adelah disebabkan oleh tekanan jiwa yg melanda. Aku perlu meluahkannye (cewah!)

Last nite ntah camne asyik dok teringat la kat Encik sorang tuh yg kat UTM tuh... buat la miskol...hampeh giler dia tak reply. Muahahahhaha... Tetiba midnite tgh aku baru hendak dibuai mimpi...ade call dari JB. Maka aku terkejutla...ingat dia yg call. Aku dah agak excited la jugak nak marah dia. Hahahah...tapi rupanya orang lain.. Budak sorang nih...nak call awek dia...tapi asyik tak angkat fon..pastu dia call aku. Hahahahaha... Nampak sangat tidak diperlukan. Huhuhuhu~ syahdunye... Lantak la ape pun...janji Mummy call hari2...kan?? Semalam bual ngan anak2 sedara...hish...tak sabarnye nak balik raya Cina nih. hopefully diaorg ade kat rumah...at least takde la sunyi sangat rumah tu.. tapi kalau diaorg ade pun jeles gak aku...takleh nak tido ngan Mummy...kena halau tido katil sorang2...

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Cuti2 Malaysia kitaorg ke Langkawi mmg BeSt!!! Sekarang diri ini semakin gelap dan muka berbelang2. Ini semua disebabkan oleh aktiviti snorkeling yg dilakukan di Pulau Paya. Syok giler aaa~ swimming with sharks and so many types of fishessssss.... scenery at the beach kat hotel tu mmg cantik aaa... did a night stroll by the beach with a friend... bulan sungguh terang pada malam itu...bersama2 bintang2 yg banyak yg menyinari malam... oh indahnye percutian aku... *sigh* wish it never ends... Cable car kat Gunung Mat Cincang tu mmg best amat! The view from the top - toksah citer aaa... chantekkkkkk! Perasaan naik bot masih kekal lagi dalam diri ini sbb skang nih rasa cam terumbang ambing sambil memandang screen computer. Walaupun matahari sangat terik dan bahang nye amatlah panas... tapi kat atas bot tu berjemur macam mat salleh mmg syok... sbb angin dia kuat... aku berjemur sepanjang2 perjalanan pergi dan balik ke pulau paya. berpijak sahaja dibumi yg nyata...kulit muka rasa cam ditarik2...nak garu tangan pun pedih! inilah akibat sun burn. walaupun aku dah pakai sun block. muahahahhaha... ape pun aku tak kesah sbb semua tu meninggalkan memori yg best pada aku~ heheheheh

Leaving for Langkawi this evening at KL Central. Sape2 yg rasa nak hantar aku tuh...dipersilakan ke sana kol 7.30 (heheheh...cam celebriti). Anyways...tadi dapat pocket money dari org atasan. The wife main2 said aku tak payah sbb dah dapat duit raya. ahaks ahaks ahaks... tak ikhlas ke kak oiiii duit raya harituh??? kang aku amik balik kang kasut kesayangan aku yg telah engkau baraikan itu.. hehehehhe.. harituh briefing kata ada balloon punye game? siot giler...dia sebut menda tuh jek dah buat jantung aku berdebar2...tangan aku berpeluh2..jiwa raga ku tak menentu.. macam nak jumpa Azmi plak! Muahahahahaha... I am one sick person~ But to my friends yg tak ikut gi langkawi...don't miss me, ok! ;p

Ade exam jap gi...tolong jgn lupa ye cik~ anda nih macam org kurang siuman harinih~ Muehehehehhehehe.. Oh ye!! Lagi benda aku lupa... nak kena call tuan rumah aaa...pastu nak call one friend confirm pasal our meeting this Sunday. I'll be in KL around 6.45am and then I'll go home and then I'll have to go to Open U. To meet Azmi??? Yups!! Hahahahaha.. nih sume ko nyer pasal la Farah!!! (or should I say FiFi??) Ahaks.... but please, me, remember those things that need to be remembered.

Sudah dapat gading bertuah tanduk tidak berguna lagi - Obviously, I am the "tanduk". Kenapa bila kita baik sopan santun gituh, diaorg pijak kepala kita ek? Tapi takpe, doa org yg teraniaya nih selalunye termakbul.

But above all...Azmi just made my day~ huhuhuhu...

A day without sunshine is like, well, night; is supposed to be a joke but why the hell am I expressing my depression most of the time, eh? Takmoh dah la...menjelang new year nih...my first resolution is to take the positive side of everything that happens. InsyaAllah kalau aku termampu la....heheheheh...

*intermission:I would like to take this opportunity to make a song dedication to cik Fairus Hanum. Song title:Running -No Doubt. Message: Aku dah kata aku nak tulis nama ko dalam blog nih...so Hahaha to u~! :p :end of intermission*

Asked my cousins 'bout that friendster guy. First comment was:"cute...boleh diterima utk jadik kazen ipar la..." Second comment was:"macam Andy Flop Poppy masa tembam..cute...pandai lak tuh..ngurat la..ape lagi!" and my OWN comment goes like this:"comel giler masa kecik..dah besar pun bleh tahan cute gak la...tapi kadang2 perangai cam siot" so how? Mula2 nak marah...pastu tak jadik la sbb rupa2nye dia cute. Hahahaha...jahat tak aku?? Me and Teh's mission for 2004 - get a steady boyfriend. But I guess that goes for Teh only since aku still on and off over this kinda thing~ *boing boing*

SEBAB-SEBAB HATI TIDAK BAHAGIA IALAH KERANA ADANYA MAZMUMMAH DIDALAM
HATI.

Antara mazmummah utama yang menghilangkan bahagia di hati ialah :

1. Pemarah

Paling mudah dikesan atau dilihat dan paling banyak di dalam diri
manusia.Orang seperti ini jarang mendapat kawan dan hati tentunya tidak
terang.

2. Pendendam

Tersembunyi iaitu ibarat mengumpul lahar di dalam dada.Orang seperti
ini
sentiasa mencari-cari peluang untuk membalas dendam hatta secara yang
kecil-kecil sekalipun seperti sakitkan hati atau tempelak orang yang
didendami itu.Sebab itu orang pendendam mudah kena sakit jantung.

3. Hasad dengki

Amalannya hangus akibat hasad dengkinya itu kerana ia memiliki sifat
ketuhanan.

4. Bakhil

Sentiasa merasakan orang lain menginginkan harta,kesenangan, pangkat
dan
lain-lain dari dirinya. Contohnya sentiasa berdalih mengatakan ia tiada
duit.Allah lebih sayang orang yang fasiQ tetapi pemurah tetapi benci
orang
yang abid tetapi bakhil.Kerana walaupun fasiQ,pemurahnya itu tetap
memberi
manfaat pada orang lain kerana kadangkala rezeki itu Allah beri melalui
makhluk.

5. Tamak

Orang yang tidak puas dengan yang sedikit nescaya tidak akan puas
dengan
yang banyak kerana dunia ini ibarat meminum air laut…walau berapa
banyak
yang diminum tetap tak habis jugak…lagipun orang tamak selalu
rugi..Ingat!!
yang dikatakan harta atau rezeki kita bila ia dipakai atau digunakan
oleh
kita. Selagi tidak diguna iaitu disimpan,itu belum boleh dikatakan
rezeki
kita.(mungkin ada hak orang lain di situ) Biarlah rezeki itu sedikit
tetapi
mendapat keberkatan iaitu dapat dimanfaatkan.

6. Tidak sabar

Andainya perkara yang kecil pun tidak boleh bersabar apatah lagi
hal-hal
yang lebih besar.(oleh itu banyak-banyakkanlah bersabar bila hadapi
dugaan.

7. Ego

Ibu segala mazmummah jadi ia membuatkan seseorang paling tidak
tenang.Orang
yang memiliki sifat ini pantang tercabar dari sudut zahir mahupun
batin..

8. Riak

Terseksa sendiri kerana sentiasa tercari-cari peluang untuk
dipuji.Sentiasa
berlakun-lakun di depan orang.Jika ia dipuji,ia akan menambah amalnya
tetapi
jika dikeji,ia akan mengurangkan amalnya.Allah marah kalau kita
riak..takabbur dengan apa yang kita ada…

9. Cinta dunia

Tidak dapat menderita,…dapat pun menderita kerana bila sudah dapat
susah
pula menjaganya. Berhartalah tidakmengapa tetapi kawal hati jangan
diletakkan pada harta itu. – bila mati cuma bawa amalan dan doa anak
yang
soleh/solehah…

Cinta dunia merupakan "neraka dunia" kerana dunia itu "panas" akibat
ia
merupakan barang buruan dan rebutan.Jadi letakkanlah akhirat itu di
hati dan
dunia itu di tangan supaya dunia itu senang dibahagi-bahagi dan akhirat
dibawa mati.

Kesimpulan

Jadi yang meragut kebahagiaan sebenarnya bukanlah secara TOTALnya
disebabkan kemiskinan,musibah,kesibukan dan lain-lainnya,tetapi ialah
MAZMUMMAH.Makin tinggi mazmummah seseorang,makin ia tidak
BAHAGIA.Samada
bermujahadah atau biarkan saja mazmummah itu, kedua-duanya tetap
menderita
tetapi andainya bermujahadah kita akan dibantu Allah dan akan bahagia
jua
akhirnya.So..sama-samalah kita sentiasa ingat mengingati antara satu
sama
lain…andai kita terleka dengan dunia,buruklah padahnya…

Wallahu A'lam....

~aku ade ke ciri2 menda kat atas nih ha? cam ade je ek?~

Akhirnya...kau sedar jua... muahhahahahaha... tau pun nak nyesal mintak maap ngan aku. Tapi tau tak aku masih sakit ati lagi???? TAU TAK???? isk...aku ber-emo kat sini pun wat pe ek? Bagitau jek la dia kan? Muahahaha.... saiko~
Akan tetapi...tidak ku sangka ape yg berlaku sebentar tadi. Agak lawak la..tapi PADAN MUKA!!! Amik ko! Aku nih cam pendendam ek? Isk isk...jahatnye aku~

*Aku nih betul ke tidak?*

Dah kat rumah dah...setiap negeri aku singgah dalam perjalanan balik tadi. tapi masa kat highway panas gilerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. aku nye tangan, muka semua cam nak terbakar. pehhhh....dugaan sungguh! sib baik aku tak pening sgt..
skang nih aku rasa agak ngantok la jugak.
tgh ade mood untuk chatting..tapi malas nak gi tegur org... jadik takde org tegur aku. hahahahhaa...
aku join yahoo chat nye channel. join channel malaysia ngan kl banyak giler org luar...malas aku nak layan...masuk channel johor lak ade minah control...maleh aku nak dengo. sakit telinga! aku join la channel kedah... heyy...tau tak aku suka lelaki kedah? ahahahaha...saiko kan? tapi aku suka.. cam sweet2 jek diaorg tuh... kan? hehehehe..