I'm a bit hyper today. Didn't get my daily dose of Nescafe this morning... so I don't know what got into me. It'll probably last for about an hour or so and after this mengantuk balik la aku... Yups... ofis yg sangap ini akan menghilangkan all those feelings inside.. Camne gemira, hyper pun engkau...bila dok opes nih sejam dua... sure bosan giler sampai nak tertido. Muahahahahahahaha... suka2 jek ngutuk ek aku nih... dah la.. aku nak wat kerja (uiksss... terajin lak arinih...)

Tadi bergossip kat bawah ngan bebudak nih...rupanya minah tu masuk balik opes ni ek... huhuhuhu~ tertawa aku melihatnya. Clash ngan boifren, berenti kerja... bila dah baik balik bleh sambung kerja lak balik semula... ahahaha.. jahatnya aku ketawakan orang ek? Sape soh wat camtu kan?

Ok la..arinih Bib dah balik Johor, leaving me all alone at home tonight. *sigh* Thank God I have my pc with me (though takde internet) bleh aku bermanja-manja dengan komputer peribadi aku itu.. hehehehe... Watched Wishing Stairs with Bib last night...but I didn't understand the story..memandangkan my phone yg tak berenti2 bernyuik tuh.. ~hahahaa..baru sehari phone bunyik dah kecoh aaa..riak giler!! hahahahah~ So tonite... have to check out tv nye shows sbb vcd yg tinggal kat rumah tu macam dah habis tengok kesemuanya. Mesti sangap giler malam nih.. dah la Manja takde.. Bib dah balik.. Lin probably won't be at home since pagi tadi dia kata dia kerja kol 5 ptg.. Mung mmg blom balik dari cuti semester.. Waduh waduh... ooohhh laaa... terlupa lak aku... Bosan ape...aku ade keta kan.. rayau2 la malam nih! Weehaaa!!! Sukanya aku meronda sorang2 nih... Tapi...harus dipertimbangkan kerana nak cover balik kewangan yg telah digunakan secara meluas bulan yg baru lepas nih... *sedihnye* Don't everybody wish minyak keta tuh buleh digantikan dengan air kan??? Barulah hidup ini bermakna...hahahahahahah *saiko*

Ape pun...esok nak kuar ngan Teh.. nak pegi makan!! Suka nya aku bab makan2 nih...mana tak gemoknye?! *tsk tsk* Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ade satu benda penting lagi yg belum aku laksanakan... Basuh Baju!!!!! Gilossss... baldi dah membuak2 dah dengan baju. Pemalas punye pompuan! *Gollum*

Weh lupa nak citer aaa... pagi tadi sibuk sket wat kerja... yg bestnye aku tak ngantok! Pehhh... pembaharuan betul la aku nih...hahahahaha.. tapi bersebab jugak la... power trip plak sbb renovation nye hal nih.. pastu aku pun merayau la berjumpa rakan2 tempat duduk lama aku.. MNH, MEZ ngan NN... Ahaks... sembang2 la ape lagi kan...alasan power trip..server tak on lagi la.. internet down la.. huhuhuhu~ lantak ko la kan.. pastu aku nih mengekor la si Edzuan nih gi on kan server.. masuk la bilik server tu ngan dia... ~sembunyik dari org atasan~ hahahahahaha... sembang2 la dengan dia.. ok la jugak dia tuh... dulu punye la pendiam.. bila dah nak kuar nih la baru nak bermesra alam ngan kitaorg.. padahal aku nih dok sebelah dia jek.. cheh... aku ade gak soh dia stay.. alasan sbb dia takde nanti aku takde kawan *kuikuikui* Dia ade best la.. tercuci mata aku hari2... *comelnye* Ahahahahhaah... tak sempat aku nak menguratsss dah dia blah.. waduh waduh...sadisnya... Hehehehe... Biarla dia.. sat gi dia dapat gaji lebih besar dari gaji kat sini...aku pau la sket.. *isk..boleh ke?* Agak2 kalau ade dia terbaca blog nih kan.. mesti aku malu kan? Atau rakan2 dia yg lain2 tuh.. ( you know who you are).. Kot2 dia baca la... Good Luck 2 You!! *wink wink*

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?

Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?

Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?

Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?

Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?!

Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?

Love can be a many splendid thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Now I was once a fool, it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

(The trouble with) The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
The sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

(The trouble with love is) The trouble with love, yeah
(It can tear you up inside) It can tear you up inside
(Make your heart believe a lie) Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride

(The trouble with love is)
It's in your heart
It's in your soul (doesn't care how fast you fall)
You won't get no control
(and you can't refuse the call)
See, you got no say at all

(The trouble with love is) Oh, yeah
(It can tear you up inside)
(Make your heart believe a lie)

Song of the moment - Kelly Clarkson - The Trouble With Love Is

There's this huge renovation going on and I'm affected. I had to move away for a while and now I'm sitting in this dark and hot corner of the office. This table (not mine) is so small and yet there are 2 monitors sitting on it. Mine and my friend's previous pc. Aku malas la nak angkat bawak turun...sbb kang aku pindah nak kena angkat lagi...so lantak la.. but damn aku tersepit kat sinih. Pinggang rasa cam nak patah je..kaki tak muat2 bawah meja yg sempit nih. Dah la dengan kebisingan org2 tu men-skru partition baru... aduhai...bosan betul la perpindahan nih...

Found this in Fiza's blog. Decided to kill some time answering...


1. What's your name?
Scabbers

2. Spell your name from backwards?
srebbacS

3. What are your nicknames?
Scabbers, Hufflepuff

4. When's your birthday?
11/4/1982

5. What your star sign?
Aries

6. Have you ever been love?
Does Colin Farrell count?

7. Where were you born?
Hospital - Hehehehe..

8. Where do you live now?
Ampang

9. Which state your parents came from?
Johor

10. What's your favorite color?
Black

11. How tall are you?
Average Hobbit height

12. What kind of music do you like?
All kinds - except techno, rave, dangdut.

13. Have you ever met anyone famous?
Yups.

14. How many friends do you have?
2 - Hahahaha... No la... can't count maa...

15. Who are your absolute best friends (real life only)?
Hanum, Muza, Fizah, Dahlia, Jaja...ehh..banyak la plak...

16. What's your favorite song?
As for now - 3 Doors Down's Here Without You and Luther Vandross' Dance With My Father

17. Do you have a boyfriend?
Nope

18. What's your favorite food?
Pizza, cheeseburger (I AM fat!!!)

19. Do you look like your parents?
They say I do

20. Do you look like anyone famous?
J Lo - Hahahhaa... I wish!

21. Who is your favorite celebrity?
Brad Pitt, Colin Farrell, Hugh Jackman

22. Have you ever been kissed?
Does kissing my Mummy count?

++The last time you been kissed?
Hmmm... a few months back

++The best kisser ever?
Still waiting...hahahaha...

++The last person you kissed?
If Mummy counts, then its her...if not... ermm...lets just keep it a secret, ok!

23. Are you a virgin?
Not sure - Hahahahah...

24. What kind of car do you want?
Satria GTi 1.8, Lexus 1.8 4-wheel tuh..

25. What would you change your name to, if you could?
Professor McGonnagal - Hehehehe...crap!

26. If you could have three wishes, what would they be?
- World Peace (macam jawapan supermodel tak? heheheh)
- To be successful in life (work, studies, etc, etc..)
- To be rich and at the same time, to have all the love in the world! (Apo nih?)

27. When do you want to get married?
Haven't give it a thought yet....

28. What are some things you say a lot?
"ek" - typical johorian...

29. What are your favorite boys' names?
I don't like boys' names. Hahahaha..

30. Who do you hate?
Orang tak skolah yg suka tolak2 nak masuk lrt, org yg tak gheti queue, org yg tak hormat org tua ataupun org2 lain
disekelilingnya. (mereka tak sekolah, bukan?)

31. What are the worst names?
Hmmmm... dunno.

32. Do you have any brothers or sisters?
Nope.

33. What do you notice first about the opposite sex?
Cute butts..heheheh

34. Then what?
He himself.

35. Who do you wish you were?
Nobody.. I like me.

36. Who is the funniest comedian?
Isk...dunno la... can't think of a good one now.

37. What is the craziest thing you've ever done?
Something REALLY bad and almost got caught!!!!

38. What college do you want to go to?
Oxford or Cambridge

39. What is your favorite movie?
Clueless, The Rock, Face/Off and some others.

40. Do you like Playstation?
No.. I like playing Snake on my hp.

41. What's your favorite Playstation game?
Is there Tetris???

42. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Depends. If its weekend at home or in KL with friends, then I'd be a night person. If I'm alone in KL, I'd be a morning
person.

43. Can you define love?
I guess not... But I love my Mummy!

44. What's your favorite television station?
MTV and Channel [V]

45. Do you get along with your parents?
My Mummy, yeah...

46. Do you believe in God?
Yes.

47. Do you believe in yourself?
Most of the time... but never when I'm crossing the road!

48. Do you believe in aliens?
Nope

49. Do you curse a lot?
If I'm really mad.

50. Are you ticklish?
Very much

51. What's your favorite candy?
Can I go for sweets? Its Smint - No Smint, No Kiss!

52. What are you wearing?
Baju kurung - at work laaaa...sopan sket!

53. Do you think there is one person meant for you?
I guess... but probably dah takde didunia atau belum dilahirkan (hahahahhaa...jahatnye aku!)

54. Who is your favorite cartoon character?
The Powerpuff Girls, of course!

55. What is your favorite television show?
F.R.I.E.N.D.S , Scrubs, Makansutra!!! Hehehehee...

56. What's your favorite book?
John Grisham's, Judith McNaught's, Best Laid Plans, etc, etc....

57. Have you ever cried over someone of the opposite sex?
Yup... sampai demam2 aku... I am THAT stupid!!!

58. Which one of your friends do you think will get married first?
Just between my close friends - 1 dah kawen..1 anak dah... and coming soon.. Fizah!

59. What's your worst memory as a child?
Cried everytime my auntie tells me that Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup story... up until now, aku takleh denga citer
tuh...sedey giler!

60. If you could be a crayon, what color would you be?
Black or red

61. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?
My Mummy and MT, family and friends

62. Do you own a lava lamp?
The hell is that?

63. Who is your favorite Backstreet Boy?
Used to be Kevin - now I just love that Puddle of Mudd singer... aiyooo...

64. Who is your favorite 'N Sync boy?
Dulu kala suka Chris but please DO NOT give me Justin. I hate that guy!

65. What makes you happy?
My family, friends, VCDs, DVDs, my pc, McDonalds, my journals (yup...I write!), the ability to drive in a non-congested
routes..and shopping!

66. What is your favorite perfume?
I don't really care about perfume..

67. Fast or slow?
Both... ikut mood.

68. Are you rich, poor, or in the middle?
In the middle

69. Does this number make you giggle?
Most of the time they do. Hehehehe...

70. Flowers or candy?
Candy please... I don't have a clue about flowers.

71. What kind?
Any kinds

72. Do you like talking on the phone?
Yups...

73. What are six things you have yet to do?
- Finish my assignment by next week
- Finish my User Guide
- Wash clothes
- Touch up sket kedudukan bilik
- Finish all those testings!
- Hmmmm....takde dah kot...

74. Have you ever smoked weed?
Nope

75. Have you ever cheated on your boyfriend?
How can I cheat when I don't even have one?!

76. Have you ever been suspended?
Hmmm...I don't think so.

77. Have you ever stolen anything?
I have stolen the heart of a handsome, rich and successful man - Hahahaha... I wish!!!

78. Have you ever smoked?
I don't think so.

79. Have you ever loved somebody so much it made you cry?
Yes indeed...

80. Do you belong to a certain religion?
Yes, I do.

81. Where do you see yourself ten years from now?
(Ehh...ni soklan Edzuan la...) Happy living with my Mummy and MT in my current home, aku dah beli rumah lagi sebijik,
dan aku juga dah beli kereta lagi sebuah.

82. What would you do for a Klondike bar?
The hell is that??

83. Who do you admire the most?
My Mummy and MT

84. What's your favorite flavor?
Chocolate

85. If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?
The extra Fat in me!!

86. Rate your life on a scale of 1-10.
8

87. What two CDs could you NOT live without?
Linkin Park and Backstreet Boys?? Heheheheh...

88. Would you rather be deaf or blind?
Kalau boleh taknak la dua2...

89. Do you play any instruments?
Nope

90. Where do you want to go on your honeymoon?
Rome, Paris

91. Have you seen Empire Records?
Yups...and I like it!

92. When you need help, who do you turn to?
My family and friends

93. Describe yourself in one word.
Fat and ugly - Hahahahaha....

94. What's your favorite board game?
Monopoly - Star Wars special edition

95. Do you like to read?
Yup

96. Did you know this number is "69" upside-down?
Yeah, figured it out with a friend of mine back in college...

97. Are you getting bored yet?
You bet'cha!

98. How about now?
Yup!

99. What decade would you live in, if you had a choice?
I like it the way it is.

100. List a few things you do every day.
- Sleep
- Brush my teeth
- Eat
- Watch TV
- Talk with Mummy on the phone
- Singing like I don't care!

At times like these... I really need him. *aiyooo*

~ Hormones problem ~

Aku nak orang lain...lain lak yg contact aku... ape pun its nice to hear from him again. *smiley*

Skang nih semua org in the office tgh busy berpindah randah. Turns out I don't have to move. Lucky me. *happy happy*.. so in the future, I'll be sitting with the guys.. probably to shut me up! Hahahaha... Coz I just love to talk, talk and talk with my girlfriends.

Mummy called. Something happened to MD and she was sent to the hospital. Hope she's all right. Mummy didn't get back to school, though. Padal takde benda nak buat kat rumah, coz MD's husband i.e my uncle, ade kat umah untuk menguruskan hal2 yg berkaitan. Guess Mummy will spend all day today finishing her 5 banners. I miss helping Mummy doing her banners. Macam2 ade. Tulisan jawi la...ade yg nak bercorak2 la.. sib baik she gets paid ok for her work. Ade la sket2 side income. Oh speaking of side income, aku nye duit buat cawan for TNB harituh tak dapat lagi. Agaknye Mummy dah masukkan semua dalam account kitaorg kot.. we have this shared account. Duitnye digunakan for my insurance and other stuff, i.e car services, redecorating the house... So ok la kan? Hmmm...hehehhee...

Harini juga seperti hari2 lain mata taknak berfungsi...huhuhuuh~ lagi teruk harinih aku lepas mandi tengok muka kat cermin...Haiyoh!!! Sebijik cam org tak mandi..sembapnye!!!! Tak tau dah nak buat ape... pakai lotion pun tak berjaya menceriakan muka aku lagi dah. Aku sangat risau!!! Takpela, weekend ni nak tido sepuas2nye. Kasik tido nyenyak2 nak cover balik...heheheh...

Found this in MSN, written by Jennifer Tai

The C Word

Recently, I had dinner with one friend and two strangers.

Well, not complete strangers but acquaintances I've not had the pleasure of meeting face to face before. These are friends I'd made in the course of my leisurely, often pointless (but far from being utterly useless) ramblings in my personal blog, which some of the more curious among you may have found.

And as usual, we got to talking about who was seeing whom. Most assuredly, I was still seeing my husband, so that was as far as we got in MY sex/love life. And then we got to my girl friend, who probably has the most colourful social life in the history of 30-something working girls in KL who date.

She had met someone online and they had a fling. He was 40 and cute. She was 30 and ready for some fun. It was a match made in heaven.

And then I had to spoil it all by saying something stupid like "is he THE ONE?"

Apparently, commitment is a taboo subject even for single 30-something women these days.

"Eh nolah, please!" my girl friend quickly waved my question off.

"Nolah, nolah it's just a fling!"

And then, after a few more sips of her beverage, a few more bites of her dessert, she said, "I slept with him. But I don't think it's going anywherelah."

It was as though entertaining the thought of a future with this new guy was not something she should do. It's just too good to be GOING to be true. Here was a single, 40-year old cute guy with a career, money and is even good in bed. But does my friend jump at the chance?

Apparently, commitment is a taboo whim even for single 30-something women these days.

This was what 14 years of dating in a city like KL did to you. Self-loathing, self-doubt and the adoption of self-created superstitions which seem to equate talking about something to MAKING it happen. Walls and walls of a different sort of denial to protect oneself from the pain of rejection or even worse, someone falling OUT of love with you once they get to know the 'real' you.

The you with a fat bum in daylight. The you with a hygiene problem. The you with a colourful sexual past.

"Did you at least have a good time?" I asked.

The answer was yes.

"Are you seeing him again?"

The answer was yes.

Who knows? The romantic in me wants this to happen for my friend. Even if she can't hope, I will hope enough for the both of them.

And maybe, just maybe, she will be THE ONE.

These past few days had been really tiring for me. Keeping up with work, assignments, quizzes and my social life (not that its hectic anyway) is indeed giving me headache. Didn't get much sleep. And if I do, tak pernah tido dengan nyenyak. Dengan mimpi nye...sms nye...miskol nye... aduhai... mimpi pun kalau yg best2 takpe...aman tido aku. Ini tak, macam nightmare aje hari2. Jadik penat tu dari last week punye pun tak habis lagi. Skang nih serious shit punye, kepala pusing, mata aku dah kelabu. Everyday ade orang akan tegur yg aku nampak mengantuk. Kadang2 bukannye aku ngantok pun...tapi diaorg kata mata aku nampak cam sembap. (betul ke spelling nih?) Pagi tadi lagi best. Member aku tanye aku mandi ke tak...siot betul... muka cam baru bangun tido...tak tau camne nak buat dah. PENAT!!!!

I keep hearing and reading all sorts of things about Love. But somehow, I never get that chance to actually experience it. Love is a many splendored thing, love is like the air we breathe, love is all we need *what about money, huh?* and also, love hurts....

Camne la agaknye ek? Macam nak jugak rasa, but then takut. Sbb tengok org lain cam ade gaduh la ape la kadang2...rasa cam taknak la pulak... macam seram nak handle things like that. Tapi kan...camne kita leh sayang kat sorang tu sampai macam tu sekali kan? Padahal dia bukan family. Dia orang luar. Imagine some stranger sesat masuk rumah, stayed for a while and kita already dah like, can't live without that person. Cam pelik. Ehhh.. aku mencarut la... Malas la nak likir. Let love lead the way *Spice Girls* If I'm not mistaken la...

Anyhow, I'd like to experience that " Mandi tak basah, makan tak kenyang, tidur tak lena" kinda thing. Tapi nanti aku mesti nak deny those feelings kan? Why? I don't know! Tak pernah cuba...mana la nak tau.. Apesal semua benda lain aku boleh cuba, tapi yg nih aku takleh? Don't I have the guts?

Well...

Sleepy.... but [H][A][P][P][Y]

Cam dah lama tak jadik macam nih. *sick*


For the 100th time, there's this renovation going on at the office. Imagine a year working and not one day, have I seen that guy NOT being in the office with us. Its renovation demi renovation, all year round. Might as well make it a renovation company. They think the walls are clay or sumthin'? Habuk, ok!

My eyes and brains seem not to function well today. Slept late last night, with that HUGE cramp. Had to sleep carefully. Not to stretch my stomach..nanti sakitnye macam nak terkuar anak! Tapi takpe, today dah ok.

~Kepada rakan aku yg akan bercuti on the 24th... Aku harap engkorang semua berbahagia disamping keluarga tercinta. Sesungguhnye toksah la menJELESkan aku kerana aku tak mintak cuti. Buat pe dok umah lama2????? Baik balik KL la weh!!!~

I'm in P A I N !!!

~Sufferin'~

What if I told you it was all meant to be,
Would you believe me
Would you agree
It's almost that feeling that we met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come here and now

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.

Everything changes but beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I may be dreaming but till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.

Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall (fall)
So let me tell you this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Oh I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Last night I watched "Phone Booth" with Mung. Colin Farrell is so so so damn cute! Nasib baik aje tak termimpikan dia. Pastu tengok the making of that movie and ade la Colin Farrell bercakap. Rambut serabai pastu dia senyum. Aduhai...berdegup jantungku dengan kencang sekali! Hahahaha.. *sick*

This morning rasa serba tak kena masa jalan nak pegi kerja. Hmmm... rupanya terlupa nak bawak diskette! Cheh...lupa lagik! Apo nak jadik ngan aku nih... asyik dok lupa jek manjang~

As I was having breakfast, I heard this beautiful song - Edwin McCain - I'll Be. Maka terdiam seketika aku ditempat duduk aku...mengenangkan kisah silam. Ahahahahah... macam ade jek? Huhuhuh~ Tapi mmg lagu tu was one of those songs yg membuat aku berangan..

~Hey whuts up with boobs anyway?~

Pagi tadi sekejap je masa berlalu. Tiba2 sampai petang...lambat yg teramat la pulak. What de happen? Another half hour to go. My head feels like it's about to burst! Can't concentrate on working. Hell...what's happening to me? Am so hungry right now. Had only kueh and jambu for lunch. And seriously, I need more food!!! Kepala dah rasa macam semalam masa kat Time Square. Sket lagi nak pensan... Lapo lapo!!! Hish...bosannye.... ok la. bye

Woke up early Sunday morning. Watched tv sambil bergolek2 atas tilam..hahahaha.. Had a 'meeting' with a friend of mine, who is very de penyayang one. Hahahahaha. *ehem Capix...jgn bengang ek*

So 11 o'clock sampai la encik Capix ke rumahku... maka setelah kami bersarapan di kedai mamak berdekatan *mamak tu kenal aku, ok* kami pun bertolak ke Mines Shopping Fair. Plan awal nye nak gi tengok wayang, tapi tak jadik sbb queue panjang sangat. Eh by the way, ko macam dress-up jek semalam, capix. Kenapa? *wink wink* Kami pun menjelajah lah tempat tersebut...tiba2 aku terasa seperti ade benda yg tak kena. Ruapanya betul...mmg tak kena sungguh! Hahahaha.

So he drove me home and I changed and then continued our activity for the day. Ke Time Square lak kami... pada mulanya aku tak lapar..tapi disebabkan some things yg banyak keluar daripada aku menjadikan aku rasa tak cukup darah naik ke kepala. Macam nak pengsan aku dibuatnye tak mendapat makanan. Mekdonals penuh sgt lak.. carik Secret Recipe was something else! Hahahaha.. pusing punye pusing tak jumpa! So we settled for Kenny Rodgers. Lazatnye~ aku roder hot drink, believe it or not... coz nak menjaga kesejahteraan perut aku ketika itu. Heehehehe..

Pusing pusing pusing, tengok roller coaster, beli pirated dvds, kami pun blah la dari situ...Heheheheh.. pastu berpindah pulak ke KLCC. Niatnye nak lepak2 kat park, since aku dah bersuara nak melepakkan diri kat taman kan... tiba2 tgh syok2 lepak..hujan lak... maka kami pun masuk la ke Suria KLCC... maka bermulala la skali lagi kativiti berjalan2 kami... window shop la.. survey things. I had a list of books that I wanted. Hopefully seorang yg PENYAYANG akan belikan utk aku.. *hint hint* Minum sat kat food court.. time tu tak kira la food cuort mana pun sbb aku dah haus giler...padahal baru jek perabih setin coke! So we sat and chatted until Mummy called. Terkejut Mummy kita tak balik2 lagi. Hahahahha.. ~Sorry Mum!~

Then kol 9 ek kita balik? Pastu pusing lak Gombak. Gi tengok BMI yg baru. Tapi tak berani lak nak masuk. Hehehhehe.. pastu baru la balik. Penat dia toksah citer la masa tuh. Badan dah rasa cam senget2 dah. Tapi takpe.. sbb org yg penyayang tu *ehem* memberikan layanan yg baik. ~Don't get me wrong on layanan here, ok~

Dah malam tu ade org takleh tido... teringat kat ape la agaknye ek?? ~huhuhuhu~ Maka yg penyayang tadi pun call la aku. Sembang punye sembang sampai la dekat kol 2. Pastu a few minutes after, tertido la aku...

Maka sampai la ke hari ini, Monday. Mata pagi tadi cam taknak berfungsi. Berdiri dalam lrt pun bleh terpejam mata berehat sat. Tapi harnih jam giler nye kat Bukit Jalil. Tadi masa naik lrt nak kuar ke Pandan Jaya pun tengok traffik kat MRR tu tak bergerak langsung. What de happen, man! Monday, I guess. Rupanya my friend said ade something pasal National Service kat Bukit Jalil. Oh...so that's what yg membuatkan jam giler harinih. Serious nye jam, depan ofis aku kereta cam tak bergerak. And I never see such a thing since I first worked here.

So ok... to Capix.. thank you very much.. you know I had fun :)

Valentine's day fell on Saturday, but did not celebrate. Had class, but was stuck in PJ for like, an hour! masuk aje PJ, slow moving traffic, and in front of Midvalley was like, heavy duty, man!! Sampai la ke UIA PJ. We were 1/2 an hour late for class, but thank God the lecturer was not in. Pegi naik Haji rupanya. Had a substitute though. Then second class, I was having trouble understanding IT in Malay. As known to all, my language is not that good, ok. Hahahaha. Didn't take the test, and had to come for the next class, which will be on Saturday of this week. Imagine that! THIS week! And I planned to go home early on Friday. Haiyoh... but anyhow...must study first!

Bib wanted to come but didn't. Cancelled at the last minute, when I was asleep. I could just strangle that woman with my bare hands. Bengang aku dengan dia...I didn't reply her sms. Didn't get much sleep again Saturday night. Was disturbed by Bartt's missed calls. He didn't party??? What was he doing on Valentine's night giving me missed calls? I thought he had batter things to do besides that. Like party, obviously! Hahahhahaa.. agaknye takde partner kot... muahahahaha. Then sms demi sms berkunjung tiba ke hp aku. Dari sms.ac, which aku lupa nak de-activate my account untuk benda yg deduct duit tepon kita. So my credit was taken away. 5 hengget lak tuh! Fuck man...I forgot!

Shadows are falling and I'm running out of breath
Keep me in your heart for awhile

If I leave you it doesn't mean I love you any less
Keep me in your heart for awhile

When you get up in the morning and you see that crazy sun
Keep me in your heart for while

There's a train leaving nightly called when all is said and done
Keep me in your heart for while

Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-li-li-lo
Keep me in your heart for while

Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-li-li-lo
Keep me in your heart for while

Sometimes when you're doing simple things around the house
Maybe you'll think of me and smile

You know I'm tied to you like the buttons on your blouse
Keep me in your heart for while

Hold me in your thoughts, take me to your dreams
Touch me as I fall into view
When the winter comes keep the fires lit
And I will be right next to you

Engine driver's headed north to Pleasant Stream
Keep me in your heart for while

These wheels keep turning but they're running out of steam
Keep me in your heart for while

Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-li-li-lo
Keep me in your heart for while

Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-li-li-lo
Keep me in your heart for while

Keep me in your heart for while
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Cam sedih2 jek lagu tuh kan.. jumpa masa tengok Grammy la harituh. Penyanyi dia dah mati. Warren Zevon. Who he is...I don't know... but his son's kinda cute. Hehehehehe...

Valentines day wat pe? Ade QUIZ!!!!!! Oh tidak!!! Tak blajo lagi oooiiiii~ Bengangnye!

"I suck at life" - Do I???

Its true what they say.. when you really miss someone, you dream about them. And in the dream u embrace the person tightly, not wanting to let go..

"And the longing you feel for that moment in the past when you were together.."

~ I miss him so much ~

*mind you this has got nothing to do with gf-bf stuff...its all family lovin here*

You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla

Orang laki depan aku nih cakap sensorang ke? Betul ke tak dia nih? Cam geli2 jek? Huhuhuhu... Type punye la laju...tak nampak sgt muka dia sbb terhalang dek cermin nih... banyak kali lak tuh? Hang saiko ka bang? Atau stress? Kalau stress meh citer kat saya...saya nih nak kena buat essay pasal Stress Management... Huhuhuu...

~Sejuk giler...jari aku dah kebas~

Slept damn early last night. Asked Mung to wake me up at 11 but I didn't. Hehehehe. Woke up around 2 am and niat nak bangun at 5 to study or do some work. Didn't either. So I woke up at 6 something this morning. Had a stomach ache of some kind until I have to stay in the toilet. After Mung left, wash me clothes and organize things to do today. Because today, I have one WHOLE day for me self. Muahahaha. I actually ironed my t-shirt this morning! And I never iron t-shirts, ok! Pampering me self once in a while feels so good. Hehehehe.

So after bersiap2...went down to wish Good Morning to me friends at the kedai and had breakfast. Dah kenyang, started off my journey for the day by heading to 7 eleven to buy me a box of Smint. Heyy - No Smint No Kiss - OK! Thank God I dind't have to wait that long for the lrt so I headed to KL to pay off my monthly hutang kat MARA. Ade ke ATM kat Pertama tu rosak, so I had to walk to Maju Junction to kuarkan duit. While the sun shines right above me head, I walked again, back to MARA. % minutes there and I'm done. Head back towards the lrt - continuous walking, I tell ya!- and again, I didn't have to wait long, and sampai la aku ke stesen ape-ntah-tak-hengat.

Walked again, under the firery sun. Sweat ran down my face (muahahaha). Sib baik pakai cap coz it's really THAT hot. So I arrived at the University, after 10 minutes of walk. Jumpa orang sepatutnya and solved some issue. Met Noriah's boyfriend at another office. Said hi and chatted for a while and head here. To where I'm sitting right now. In this cold-and-hi-tech library. And I want to send some msg to me friend.

To Farah:
Weh aku kat Library nih!!! HUhuhuhu~ best!! Aku dah jumpa Azma tadi. Wan tu pun ade gak. Senyum2 bila aku sebut nama aku. By the way, diaorg tanye mana ko. Heheheheh... Aku dah amik dah module kau. Nanti ko kena dtg sendiri ke sini untuk pulangkan module English tu. Tak yah bayar ape2... credit transfer kita diaorg kata jgn risau, dalam website tu yg lama punya. Yg baru (yg haritu dia call aku tu) blom upload lagi, ,pastu yg second application kita tu Prof blom semak lagi. So I guess we'll have to wait, ok! Pasal class, inform cikgu English tuh..and discuss ngan cikgu Konsep Asas yg kita takleh buat kuiz this coming Saturday. Explain la ngan dia pastu soh dia letakkan masa yg sesuai utk both of us. Pastu masa aku nak tulis nama kat Indian guard tu kan (ingat tak?) dia tanye aku nak jumpa Azmi ek? Muahahahhaha... aku nak tergelak kat situ. Kuikuikui... tapi pastu masa aku nak dtg sini (library) aku terserempak ngan sorang lagi pekerja sini yg comel giler! Huiii.... nampaknya slalu2 la aku lepak sinih, pekerja semua membuatkan mata aku tercuci. Hahahahaha.. Ok, selamat buat RLO. Send my regards to Cik D.

My horoscope for the day:

You are a warm and caring person, *scabbers*. What is extraordinary about you is that you seem to care just as much for people you don't know as those you do. You can't tolerate the injustices of this world. And yes, there certainly are many. Today give some thought to what you could possibly do to make a difference in someone's life. There's no sense single-handedly trying to stop world hunger, but you could go down to the local soup kitchen and chop some vegetables. It's a little act, but with a real impact.

I care about other people, but don't ever give me orang Sri Petaling or Bukit Jalil. Menyampah betul aku dengan manusia2 yg tak berhati perut nih. Dia pikir utk diri dia sendiri aje...ape la sangat seat dalam lrt tu yg sampai nak rempuh2 orang? Bukannye baru pagi tadi aku menghadapi masalah ni tapi since I started working in KL and using the lrt la. Pagi tadi lagi best...siap siku aku lagi padahal seat belambak2!!! nak jugak dok sempit2 sebelah aku. Pastu bukan gheti nak cakap sorry. Diaorg nih macam kalau tak dapat duduk tu satu kehilangan besar, satu kesalahan yg amat! Apesal orang2 nih? kaki patah ke kalau tak duduk? Ha? Seat lrt tu boleh kasik bontot korang lagi cantik ka? Cheh. Kalau dah tak dpt seat tu dah la...takyah la sampai nak tolak2 orang. Brape kali dah aku kena tolak. Dah setahun lebih dok ulang alik sini...asyik2 kena tolak aje la aku.

Lagi satu aku nyampah betul orang yg tak gheti2 nak senyum nih. Aku penat kasik senyuman manis kat diaorg, diaorg bleh buat bodo jek? Seperti contohnya orang dalam bangunan tempat aku bekerja nih jugak. Sampai PENAT tau aku senyum ngan dia, dia buat muka sesombong dinding. Pastu kata kat orang lain yg aku nih sombong. Ade ke? Hantuk sekali kang baru tau. Tapi member sorang tu backing kata aku mmg rabun sbb tak pakai spek, tak nampak orang. Masalahnye aku rabun, bukannye BUTA. Aku tau la dengan sape patut memberi senyuman, dengan sape tak patut!Sampai sekarang aku tak pernah senyum dengan dia. Boleh belah. Jika keadaan memaksa pun akan aku pikirkan dulu. Pastu ade lagi sorang amoi nih. Dia dari company luar kot...ntah la... dtg tanye aku pasal nak access server pastu nak mintak password la kejadah nye la... haku tidak diberi kebenaran, kak oiii.. maka org yg menjaga server time tu dua2 takde. aku soh dia tunggu, dia kata ok. sat gi dia masuk lagi. tanye dengan kereknya adekah aku nih org ofis ni sbb kenapa aku ngan member aku sorang lagi tak tau. Laaaaa...wat camne...penat aku explain tak sesabo btol la. Dah la kerek. Tanye bebaik dengan senyuman manis takleh ke? Pastu aku ok lagi ngan dia. Still senyum kalau jumpa tapi dia buat muka sombong. Jadiknye salah aku ke kalau aku nyombong dengan dia skang nih? Buleh la belah!!

Jadiknye skang nih kalau aku buat muka sombong, pedulikkan aku sbb aku tak suka engko. Aku period ke marah2 ni ek? Hahahahahahhaha...

Malam tadi tgk Grammy. Shit la they cut off Outcast - Hey Ya punye show. I waited for that since the beginning. And I had to stay up until 12.30am only to find that performance dia dah takde. I wast so frustrated and mad at Channel 8. Ade ke patut? Teruk sangat ke pakaian diaorg? Cheh... baik balik kampung tgk Astro daripada tgk tv mesia biasa. Geramnya aku!!!

But anyways... Luther Vandross part was very touching. Dia cakap pun dah macam tak brape betul sgt. And that song - Dance with my Father...best...touching gak. A tear nearly rolled down my eye listeing to Celine Dion singing the song, with the pictures of Celine's late father at the side screen. But suddenly after that they announced Sean Paul's singing with Sting. Terus gumbira aku diabuatnya. Sean Paul sangat la comel. Walaupun I can't understand a word he's singing. Hehehehee...

Searched for the lyrics...and here it is...song of the day:

Dance With My Father - Luther Vandross

Back when I was a child,
Before life removed all the innocence,
My father would lift me high,
And dance with my mother and me,
And then...
Spin me around til' I fell asleep,
Then up the stairs he would carry me,
And I knew for sure I was loved


If I could get another chance,
Another one, another dance with him,
I'd play a song that would never never end
How I'd love love love...
To dance with my father again.

Ooooh...

When I and my mother disagreed,
To get my way I would run from her to him.
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me,
Yeah yeah...
Then finally make me do just what my momma said.

Later that night when I was asleep,
He left a dollar under my sheet.
Never dreamed that he, would be gone from me.

Repeat Chorus
If I could steal one final glance,
One final step,
One final dance with him,
I'd play a song that'd never never end.
Cos I'd love love love, to dance with my father again.

Sometimes I'd listen outside the door
And I'd hear how my momma cried for him
I pray for her even more than me...
I pray for her even more than me.....

I know I'm praying for much too much,
But could you send back,
The only man she loved.
I know you don't do it usually,
But dear Lord she's dying,
To dance with my father again.

Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Listening to it right now kat dia nye website. Although I have no father (lebih kurang la) tapi aku tetap sedih jugak baca lyrics dia. Terbayang lak muka arwah atuk aku, who had been like a father to me all these years. Isk... rindu pulak aku kat arwah atuk aku. Nih yg sedey nih. Control...control... u're at work, ok! ~ok~ Hehehehe...

Dah la. Takmoh la aku dengo lagu nih lagi. Nangis kang sape nak tanggung? Dah la sat gi ade briefing. ;P

This is what I read in the website:
The poignant, reflective title cut is a prime example. "Yes, recording that song was very emotional for me and yes, it is based on my own experience. But, as much as it is that, it isn't about a situation that happened just to me. It's not limited to one type of circumstance in life: it's not just about losing one's father but about missing someone who is gone - for whatever reason - and the longing you feel for that moment in the past when you were together. I called my mother when I first started writing "Dance With My Father" to let her know about it and as soon as we had a first draft of it, I got it to her and she has played it literally every day since. It captures a particular place and suspends you in mid-air. It's my mother and my father dancing to some Baby Washington songs with me right there and the memory of that moment has hovered around me throughout my life ever since."

Badut? Hahahahahahaha....lawak nye!

Anal dildo tester? Even funnier! Hahahahahahahahhahaa...kuhkuhkuhkuhkuhkuh....sib baik tak berguling2 aje aku gelak.

Tu la dia kerja kat opes pepagi. Bukak email, test crappy things yg diforwardkan and end up gelak sakan!

Masa berlalu dengan begitu perlahan hari ini. Sudah tidak sabar rasanya untuk diri ini berlari pulang ke rumah. Ape yg ade dirumah? Tiada sapa2. Tu la yg best. Hehehehe. Owh lupa...ade sebaldi baju lagi sedang menunggu untuk dicuci. Waduh waduh...malasnye aku nih~

Rabu nih haku cuti. Yay~ And the best part was that they didn't ask. Thank God! I don't have any more lies to come up with. Hehehehehe... Nampaknye aku kena pegi sorang2. Harap2 semua berjalan lancar. Aku nak settle habis la kalau boleh

Weh terasa cam dah lama tak pegi dating maaa... eh tapi...do I date, in the 1st place? Huhuhuhu~ Aku rasa cam nak jumpa my new chat friend. Tapi dia kat JB. Jauh la pulak....besides, kalau nak pegi sana kena pegi dengan Mak, kalau tak Mak tak caye. Kalau gi dengan Mak, dah tentu takleh berdating! Ahaks...

Ade sape2 nak teman aku gi tgk wayang ari Rabu nih???

Sekarang nih kan aku sedang aktif mengemail rakan2 sebilik aku masa kat college dulu. I miss them all. Dah jarang dah kitaorg dok sama2, makan sama2, lepak sama2... iskk...sedey nye... Kalau la ade Doraemon..bleh pinjam barang dia yg membolehkan aku melihat diri aku dan bebudak nih masa kat college dulu. Bestnye... those days yg membuatkan aku risau hanye lah tests, assignments and exams. Duit pun agak banyak gak zaman tu. And now, yg membuatkan aku risau: contract kerja aku, kewangan aku, assignments, tests, exams, pencarian kerja baru dan sebagainya. Kitaorg 4 orang (termasuk sorang yg membaca blog nih..huhuhuuuh) sorang sambung blaja kat UK, sorang dah kerja dan baru bertunang dan akan melangsungkan perkahwinan hujung tahun ni InsyaAllah. Sorang lagi lebih kurang cam aku la... dah bekerja di salah sebuah institusi pendidikan di KL nih. Jadiknya masing2 sekarang dah sibuk dengan hal masing2. Umur baru 22 dah sebok...ntah ape2 jek kan?

Huhuhuhuu~

Bila la prince charming aku nak dtg nih?? Lama nunggu dah nih!!!

After a thousand times menjenguk jam, sememangnya aku mendapati sekarang nih belum lagi la pukul 4 ptg. Menandakan aku ade 1 jam 1/2 lagi untuk men-sangap-kan diri aku dalam opes yg amat sejuk ini.

The trip back home on Friday evening was such a bummer. The bus was actually empty but then came in beribu2 orang Nepal. Haiyoooo!!! And one sat beside me. Sesungguhnye aku telah menaiki bas rombongan orang2 Nepal balik kampung. Sungguhlah mereka ini jakun sbb bising yg teramat sangat.

Hello!!! Mana ade org menjerit dari belakang ke depan dalam bas express???

I was so damn mad I closed my eyes from start till end. And I didn't sleep. Aku rasa cam nak terajang aje sekor2. After this sebelum naik bas kena check with brader yg jual tiket. Kalau ade org Nepal, Indon or Bangla dalam bas tu dengan amaun yg banyak...takkan aku naik bersama mereka lagi. Bukannye aku menyampah giler ngan diaorg, tapi aksi2 jakun yg amat yg telah aku saksikan tempoh hari amat menyakiti hati aku. Nak tido pun tak aman! Saiko!

Balik rumah dapat aku merehatkan diri. And the best thing is, my auntie's family pegi JB, no uncles came home and my other uncle's family singgah tapi tak lama. So there were nobody at home except for my Mummy, MT and me. The original member of the house. And I get to sleep with my Mummy!! No niece, no nephew to take over my place, ok! I am the princess of the house. Hehehehe.

At first Mummy said my niece and nephew are gonna stay another week or so. I was like, damn!!! Again??? Not that I don't like it, but it had been months since I last found peace at home. Tapi sib baik la they came back yesterday evening, when I was already off to KL once again. *sigh*

And satu hal lagi masa aku balik tuh Mummy told me ade one part of the daging korban left in the car trunk. Dah 4 hari tinggal dalam tu. Semua org tak sedar, until that Friday, Mummy smelled something really, really rotten in the car. Kat sekolah before balik Mummy check and found mountains of maggots dalam trunk. Haiyoh!!! Mummy drove home as fast as she could and had my 3 cousins to was everything off. But the smell was so horrible Mummy had to send the car to the carwash (murid dia punya). Budak tu citer dia bukak seat dalam kereta...rupanya banyak lagi ulat!!! Pehhhh... Aku yg tak menyaksikan nih pun geli geleman mendengo citer. Hehehehehe... Jadik skang nih Mummy's car takde seat belakang and semua benda dalam kereta from truck up to the driver's seat..dalam keadaan huru hara. I came home and there was still this odd smell coming from inside the car. Mak aih...buruk sgt ke keadaan nye? The next morning aku tgk dalam parit, banyak giler ulat yg dah mati. Huhuhuhuh~ and until now Mummy rasa geli + takut nak naik kereta tuh. Hehehehe...sian Mak.

Boss was really mad yesterday. Nearly screamed out loud man! Wahlauuuu.. Tak pernah terjadik aku tgk dia marah camtu sekali. Well Boss, *sorry*... But you have to look at the way you manage the office. Or probably not you, but your wife yg seperti telah menjadi segala2 bagimu sehinggakan engkau buta dan mengenepikan orang lain.

~Serious shit happened. Damn~

When is my prince charming gonna come to me? I'll leave EVERYTHING. *everything includes job, studies, shit, shit and more shit... excluding beloved family and friends, of course!* ~I am so bored~ *sigh*

Oh by the way, watched Gothika last nite. Jalan cerita biasa je...tak brape best coz it's typical sampai kan bleh tahu bila time nak tutup mata and all... heheheheh. But it was scary ok... Sebab sound menjerit dia kuat/nyaring giler pastu terkejut2 ngan muka hantu tu. Ape pun, terima kasih kepada rakan yg telah mengambil, membelanja tiket wayang, meneman dan menghantar pulang ke rumah malam tadi. Lain kali belanja lagi. Hehehehe...

Alhamdulillah blood test ok. I'm normal. Have to drink a lot of water though. He said don't take kacang, sardines, mushroom and some other stuff as much. But I don't take much of those, ok! Checked the book again and read that those things are the cause of Gout. Well, it runs in the family. My late grandma had it and my uncles (all of'em). Jadik kena la berada dalam keadaan berjaga2. Jantung terasa nak gugur when he started to mention about cholestrol. But thank God I'm in a normal mode. Tapi mesti juga berjaga2. You'll never know, you fat hobbit you!! :p

~Agaknya ape la yg hendak dibincangkan dalam meeting ptg nih~

aAaAaAaAaAaAaAaAaAa.....!!!!

Blood test result's coming out today at 2. Worried, but not as much. If it's really bad...I'll probably jump off the building. Hahahaha...just kidding.

Haven't started on my assignement. Which is really bad. Have to submit in early March. Not even the slightest idea came across my mind for the topic. Thinking of going back home and discuss it with my Mummy and MT.

Rasa bersalah menyelubungi diri.

Just got off the phone with that Dr. -for the hundredth time, i don't know- She likes to call me, doesn't she? But today's a bit different. Much discussions were made. Today's a good one, I guess. I actually enjoy our conversation just now. Oh well... standard la kerja ngan lecturers.

My cousin offered me a job. Lecturer kat mana ek? IKM? Hmmmm... I want to get out of here...and becoming some sort of a teacher is my chilhood dream. Memandangkan family aku kebanyakannya cikgu la kan... BUT *there's always this buts around* takut ajaran aku nih sesat. Aku nak mengajar, aku nih bukannya pandai sangat...tu le masalahnya.

Heyy...tiba2 dapat email suruh amik exam today at 4? Nih mesti exam untuk naikkan gaji nih. Naikkan pangkat ke... lantak engko la. Programming aku pun dah lupa ntah ke mana. Nak soh sit for Flash exam? Even worse! What am I interested in, then? Designing - not with computer technologies, but with my hands. Kenapa la dulu tak amik subject arts? Because my Mummy told me not to. Kenapa ikut cakap Mak? Sebab aku tak suka melawan. Nanti Mak kecik ati. Oh well... just hope that a prince charming will sweep me off my feet. Live in a castle (or a huge house..hehehe), drive around in big cars, shopping like mad, and I don't have to work. Life is total bliss~ And like I said, there's always a BUT. And this time, I don't think there is such man out there yg dah kaya tapi setia pada wife yg sorang, tanpa pedulikan rupa paras or such thing. That's why I don't like the opposite species.

~Maaflah jika ia menyinggung perasaan sesetengah pihak~

Huh? Sorang lagi rakan aku getting married? Ajak aku pegi kursus kawen? This is SO not me.

Capix...Thanks! :)

Was reading my previous entries, and found this site... Ape kena la ngan Michael Jackson ek?

Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder
and I don't think I can look at this the same.
And all these miles that seperate
disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.

I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams.
And tonight, it's only you and me.

These miles just keep rollin'
as the people leave their way to say hello.
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams.
And tonight girl, it's only you and me.

And everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
And when the last one falls, and when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.

I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it's only you and me

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Worrying about my assignment while eating, while chatting, while watching tv certainly gives this brain of mine macam2 benda nak dipikirkan. Suddenly heard this beautiful song. Ahhhhhh~ terasa amat menyegarkan. 3 Doors Down's song selalunya membuatkan aku tenang atau rasa best. Paham tak? Hehehehe.. This particular song is currently my favourite. Baru pagi tadi dengar sambil melalak2 dalam keta ngan my Mummy. Hehehehe... and tonite, dah brape ribu kali pusing lagu nih pun tak tau la aku...heheheh....

Aku terfikir suasana lagu nih... on a windy day... by the beach... singing while playing the guitar... tapi kenapa imaginasi aku berkata Rob Thomas yg nyanyi? Sedangkan band nih adelah 3 Doors Down??!! Kenapa? Ade jodoh aku kot ngan Rob Thomas... hehehehe... the singer's missing his girl... waduh waduh...

~I AM one of those sick person on earth, eh?~

This morning pegi tengok korban lembu. Excited since this is my first time. Patted the lembu before korban masa tu lembu tu dah tergolek kat tepi parit... *hey lembu...u're still with me in my dreams, ok* Lembu kitaorg tu kuat iman aaa... tak meronta teruk, suara tak dengar pun. Diam aje... Many said lembu tu nangis masa kena potong, but Farah said lembu tu probably putus cinta. Heheheheheeh... serious ke weh? Muahahahaha... Tapi dalam kes lembu aku, macam takde jek air mata. Atau aku yg rabun giler pagi tadi? Hehehehe... Lama gak lembu tu nak menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya. Mula2 aku ingat lembu tu mati la dah kena potong kat leher, tapi masa aku buat close-up tu...nampak la mata lembu nih macam terkebil2 jek... ish...ye ke? Pastu mulut dia macam tercungap2.. lidah terjelir... nak kesian takleh... sambil tu my Mummy and her friend baca ayat2 utk lembu tu... mmg kena kan? Sepanjang2 lembu tu dari lepas kena potong sampai la mati...

Then me and my Mummy went out ke pasar... pastu send my aunties home, then went back to the lembu place to fetch my other auntie and bahagian daging2 korban kitaorg... camne pun kepala aku sampai sekarang tgh me-relate-kan lembu yg hidup, kena korban, cabut kulit sumer, tiba2 daging dia dah dalam plastic bags. Macam aku kenal lembu tersebut, ok...

Isk...ok la... citer pasal lembu nih kang buat aku terharu lak... padahal tulang/daging nya telahpun aku hadam.

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha.... This year's a bit exciting for me. Family ramai giler yg balik... both my cousins yg dah ade anak, both uncles from JB and Pahang...even my uncle, nenek and second cousin from Singapore turun to celebrate with us. This morning rumah macam nak pecah dengan suara2 meriah sedara mara aku....family yg tinggal belakang rumah and my uncle's family kat sini pun makan kat umah aku... very de happening one... I, as usual, tukang pecah ais...sebagai tuan rumah, aku pun terasa agak penat la nih... yesterday lagi la...woke up very early indeed...managed to have breakfast with the whole family and after that kena kemas umah lak... bergelumang la aku dengan habuk2 bawah katil la...atas kipas la... dah dekat lunch baru mandi. Hehehehe.. tapi mmg seronok... sbb ramai orang kan.... syok aaa...
Tapi aku tetap tak brape suka perangai orang2 lelaki nih... masak pun pompuan, kemas umah pun pompuan, they just smoke and sembang kosong kat dapur. Lazy bum all of'em. My uncles, cousin and cousin-in-law. I was like, heyy it's your job...u do it...don't ask my Mummy, ok. But they just sat there like nothing to do padahal ketupat tu nak kena angkat dah. And my cousin kata "Gantung aje ketupat tu". Aku punya HANGIN time tu. Sib baik tak kena carutan. Tak productive langsung umat2 manusia yg berjantina lelaki nih. Bosan aku. Typical. Yg auntie aku sorang nih ikut aje cakap laki dia. Aku dah marah2 dah pakcik ngan kazen aku tu. Tapi diaorg nih jenis tak gehti hormat budak yg lebih muda dari diaorg...cakap aku diaorg buat bodo aje la. Hishhhhhhh....geram aku tak habis lagi nih. Ni la dia lelaki. PEMALAS!!!! And some men are even worse! Semalam me and my cousins nak pegi sumaket, mula2 takde parking so my cousin the driver nih park kejap kat tepi keta org sbb nak tunggu aku masuk sumaket jap. Pastu keta satu ni pun kuar la...kita nih kedepan sket sbb nak masuk parking dia. Tiba2 this one fucked-up bastard masuk parking kitaorg dengan selambanya. Kitaorg penat honk kuat2 tapi dia buat muka tapir-yg-kena-penyek-lori tu. I was like, Shit man!! Aku tengok la diaorg dengan muka marah, the wife or gf tu tengok aku dengan muka bodoh giler dia. Macam tak paham your husband just took our parking space. Nak kata tak signal, kitaorg dah signal. So my cousin parked betul2 rapat dengan keta diaorg..aku kuar hentam sket keta dia. Tak brani la nak hentam kuat, kang tak pasal2 duit aku terbang nak kena bayar kang... I wanted to give him my two middle fingers. But aku nye purse time tu nak terjatuh la pulak. Aku rasa macam nak maki serious aje kat manusia bodoh itu. Stupid asshole! And how come the wife be so stupiud?? You should see her face. Macam stup id giler. Serious nih...bukan nak mengata. Hahahahahahahahhaa... Yg laki tu toksah citer la...muka like arse la... HAhahahahaa...jahatnye aku. Lantak engko la. Nak raya pun nak dengki dekat manusia lain. Sama agama lak tuh. Tu yg aku marah sgt tu. Biarlah diaorg... orang2 tak sekolah macam ni tak dihormati orang lain. Hidup pun tak senang. Hahahahaha... dah. puas hati aku kutuk diaorg kat sinih. Sampai aku terlupa nak citer. Me and my cousins went to get a haircut semalam. Me..cut my hair short sampai dah takleh nak ikat. Kepala terasa ringan tapi PANAS!!!! And now I look SO FAT!!! Hahahahahahahaha.... Camne nak gi ofis pasnih ek? Ikat takleh? Clip? Yuck....very de girlish one! Hairband probably. Lawak giler aaaaaaaa.... but don't worry....my hair akan panjang dalam masa yg cepat. Syampoo aje panjang...dalam masa sebulan lebih rambut dah panjang lepas bahu dah... ehhh...ok la...my nephew nak tgk Animal Planet lak nih... have to go. Hahahaha... I love my nephews and niece!!!