Dear blog,

Setelah sebulan bekerja separuh mati, semalam memang hampir 98% lagi mati. Pukul 6.30 pagi saya sampai rumah, pukul 8.30 pagi dah terkejar2 mandi sebab nak kene rush off for 10.00am training @ Nilai. Slept in the cab.

Dalam training, system tak jalan. Bongok gile aku nih. Buat kerja semua salah. Semua tak siap. Semua nya tak memuaskan. Mungkin dah terlalu penat kot? Maka, depan manusia yg ramai... aku telah kena sound. Siap sebut nama nih. Gile babas. Rasa macam nak sembunyi bawah meja. Semangat pun takde lepastu. Selera makan jgn harap la. Dah sebulan ni aku rasa makan sebab taknak pengsan jek. Tak rasa apa makanan yg masuk.

Nasib baik Lin ada kat kedai dia. Aku nak ada sorang family member yg dekat dgn aku skang. Oh btw, harini birthday Mummy.


And yes, I missed my best friend's wedding on Saturday. Zul's wedding. ZUL, ok! And months before this aku tak hangout dengan dia. Seriously, aku sedih.

Ok la. Takde masa ni. Semua manusia marah aku.

Bye

Aku dah tak rupa manusia. Tak boleh fikir, tak boleh bukak mata, tak boleh nak makan... Aku sendiri pun tak tau nak cakap macam mana. It's a huge pile of shit. Seriously. I'm WAY beyond DEAD. I'm sending in my letter in a few days.

Tapi aku tak sampai hati kat Encik Ho. Aku boleh bangun hari2 sebab ada dia. Pasal aku, dia kena marah. Because of him, and only him, that I'm still here doing my job. Even when I can't see it's going anywhere. Even when I feel like shit.

Urgh. Tak tau nak cakap cemana.

Ok, aku dah buat projek ni macam sampah. Kucar-kacir I don't know where to begin with. Boss pun dah marah. Aku tgh tunggu dua2 Big Boss maki hamun aku jek nih. Client pun dah marah.

Aku tak tau nak buat cemana lagi dah. Hari2 lintas jalan harap ada kereta langgar. But I'm still here.

Shucks.

OMG this is the deepest of the deep shit. Aku da tak tahan lah. Apa aku buat semua nya salah.

And i've never seen him tersangat marah dengan aku. he hates me so much now.

=) =(

Why in the world did I dapat this boss eh? Cute & like, the nicest guy on planet earth! Kinda hard to concentrate on work, after 5 seconds of looking at him.

Btw, he just picked me up at home this morning. Urgh. Boleh tak jangan greet me with a fresh smile pagi2 hari? Dizzy terus ok.

Tapi since I am in the deepest shit ever, dia marah aku like, every second of the day. Oh Bali... come faster! :'(

DEAD. SERIOUSLY.

Am in the DEEPEST SHIT EVER.

I'm too tired lah.

This is definately HELL on earth.

:-S

scabbers: u're going back now?
scabbers: * emoticon nervous *
jamaludinHo: around 6.15pm
scabbers: * emoticon nervous *
jamaludinHo: kenape ?
jamaludinHo: you perlukan i ?
scabbers: ye
jamaludinHo: aku akan datang nanti
jamaludinHo: jangan bimbang

If only dia tidak bermaksudkan kerja. * sigh *

@_@

Dear Boss,

Cepatla announce company trip pegi mana?! Can't wait lah. I need to sleep. Terbayang bantal dan katil empuk. Serta selimut best kat hotel.

I hope it's Phuket! Please say Phuket! Nak carik kawan mamat Thai plak. Later nak pi sana sorang2 dah ada kawan. Ekeke..

Ingat nak pi Bali early Jan. Tapi mahai la tiket. Mana mampu. Tunggu co. trip je la. In the meantime, IF aku dah boleh dapat tidur, I'll sleep at home. IF.

I miss tidur.

kiok

Kalau dalam lif dari Ground nak ke 6th floor pun aku boleh pejamkan mata nak berehat, apetah lagi waktu membuat kerja pukul 12.37pagi.

Dah 3 minggu la kot. Everyday (including weekends) kerja 10am - 3am secara hardcore. Laptop aku pun dah slow gile ni. Mana tak nye mata aku pun terikut.

Aku takut aku weng halfway. Takat ni ok, baru sampai tahap pasang lagu kuat2 dan menyanyi2 dalam ofis sambil wat keje.

~~~

Ya Allah, kuatkan lah semangat aku untuk menempuh hari-hari mendatang yg penuh dengan cabaran.

Aku dah tanya, tapi dia macam taknak kasi. =(

Help

Tolong.

Aku dah sangat penat.

Tolong.

Aku dah takda semangat.

Tolong.

Dah rasa macam nak melarikan dan menghilangkan diri. Almost. Sipi2 je lagi. Sewaktu di surau semalam.

- Breakdown -

Will It Be Over Soon?

God! When is this going to be over?!

I'm seriously stuck & have absolutely no idea!

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Apart from that, I had a nite off semalam.

THANK YOU, SUNRISE MONT KIARA!!!
for shutting down the power

And had dinner @ Sushi King MidValley with my oh-so-adorable boss. Isk. Comel gile aa dia. Rasa cam nak tersengeh jek bile nampak dia hari2. (Kalau tak pikir pasal kerja la). Aherm. So, tidur tersenyum lah malam tadi.

But not really. I had a REALLY sickening dream! Yucks! Sangat membuat aku mual dan geli geleman. No, definately not about my boss la. If dia, confirm aku tak jejak tanah dah harini.

;)

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Dah 95% pasti. Jika ada masa, tengok apa berlaku esok.

~

Dah 90% pasti.

Don't Forget You Love Me, Today =)

I don't think there's one song from Schuyler Fisk that I don't like. I love'em all! Lagu ini telah menghilangkan tensen saya @ 2am sewaktu membuat kerja.

:'(

Sungguh bertuah perempuan itu.

Apalah malang nasib diri ini.....

* sambil merenung ke bulan, dan perlahan2 air mata menitis ke bumi *

Perihal Raya Haji 2009

Khamis, 9.00am (baru terjaga tido)

Ring ring!

Scabbers : Hello

Munah : Balik lambat ke malam ni? Ingat nak saing.

Scabbers : Tak balik aaa...

Khamis, 10am (driving to work)

Ring ring!

Scabbers : Hello

Dina : Dina balik harini, sampai 30th baru balik KL.

Scabbers : Ala!

Jumaat, 2pm (driving to work)

Scabbers : Hello, Farah. Selamat Hari Raya.

Farhiah : Aku kat rumah mak mertua.

Scabbers : Ye tak ye, kau ada husband. At least you're not alone for raya.

~~~~~~~~~

Lepas aku sadar tu, aku rasa sedih. Balik pagi hari sorang2. Bangun pagi sorang2. Lunch McD tapau pun sorang2.

How sad can life be?

Meoww ~

Kuching was superb!

Hotel a bit mahal, considering takda breakfast.. but maybe cuti sekolah kan peak season, so mahal la kot. Tapi the location, tilam & katil.. sangat best. Memang puas aku qadha' tidur!

We didn't go into mountains ke rumah panjang ke... just pusing2 around town je. And I kinda like their Waterfront tu. Barang2 murah, makan pun ok la... and it's just a minute away from the opposite kampung which sells kek lapis halal & makanan yg sedap.

But the most important thing is, Kuching is filled with cute guys! If I were to move permanently there, it'd be because orang kat sana comel2 dan oh-so-friendly! And the city is surprisingly clean! Memang jauh la nak compare to KL. Even Singapore pun I saw ada sampah sikit la, sana sini.. but Kuching memang bersih gila. Thumbs up for Kuching!

We went to Pasar Satok to buy some ikan, yg kata nya glamer kat sana, but don't ask me lah. Forgot the name already. Hehe.. Saw the Sarawak Museum, but didn't go. Crossing the river was interesting. Everybody takut nak naik sampan tu. But of course lah, kita kan semua gemuk2.. dan, diaorg tak biasa kot.. orang tua & budak kecik mah. Semua muke saspen je dalam "penambang" tu. Tapi kita cross twice! 50sen je tambang per person, so we went in the morning to buy kek lapis, then again at night to check out their night scene @ the foodcourt.

Memang happening! And boy, I tell ya... cute guys really made me dizzy lah. I did NOT want to go back, but I HAD to. Shucks!!!!!!

And now, I'm in the deepest shit ever @ work. Ok, I'm going to die now. See ya in heaven.. i hope!

-

I am THIS close to crying.

Tapi.... macam "on cloud 9" pun ada.

Ntah pape

Teka-Teki

Nur call smalam citer pasal si Akim kat Muar haritu, nak bagi Nur teka-teki..

Akim : Auntie Nur, cuba teka.. banyak2 mee, mee apa takbleh makan?

Nur : Mee goreng (dalam mood malas nak layan)

Akim : Errmmm... dalam mee goreng tu ada telur tak, Auntie Nur?

Nur : Ada

Akim : Telur tu ada yg warna kuning tak?

"-_-


And the soalan goes on and on and on..... sampai last2 dah tak jadi teka-teki lagi.

Oh budak Akim ni.. ade2 aje!

Memories

Ke Mana Harun?

Sedang saya mendengar lagu Peterpan - Tak Ada Yang Abadi, saya teringat kepada Harun, si penjual roti. (Zaman dulu naik basikal hitam sambil jerit "Roti! Roti!" bila lalu depan rumah)

Saya suka Harun. Harun baik. Janggut nya panjang. Waktu saya kecik2 pun dia sudah tua. Saya harap dia masih hidup, dalam keadaan sihat walafiat. Jika tidak, may he rest in peace.

Harun, I miss you.

ekekeke...

I Hate My Job & I Wanna Die Now

- No contents necessary -

Dead And Gone

I'd probably be happier, when I'm Dead & Gone, tapi banyak dosa lah.

OMG! OMG! OMG!

He text-ed me!!

* Pengsan! *

But just bcoz he's kinda my boss & dia kena la jaga kebajikan developers nya. Kan? Anyway I replied like a stupid idiot.

IDIOT!! * marah diri sendiri *

Shi* Load Of Stuff

I'm sad coz I miss my Mummy. I'm excited coz my Convent girls will be back in Muar for our 10-year reunion this Saturday nite. I'm psyched over Cousin Lynn's wedding the following weekend. I'm thankful for my new salary increment.

On top of it all, I'm packed with work and health treatments that I don't even have time to kemas rumah, let alone figure out my outfit for all the occasions!

OMG. I think I'm gonna have a panic attack!

* mind u, I have time to blog coz I'm waiting for my Virtual Machine to start up *

Did you know that selecting an outfit is like, seriously crucial? Yes. CRUCIAL. Especially for weddings & reunions! I don't exaggerate with my look, but I try to look pleasant at least. Lebih2 lagi when your childhood friends have all turned into swans. (Read : beautiful women. Duh.) And they are all successful, have businesses and travel all over the world while you, still fat, ugly and boyfriend-less, just sits there quietly and wishing for the world to end before you......

It's stressful, but one has got to get over it, give herself some credit and enjoy the company of her friends, right?

And Lynn's wedding! It's next weekend, and I should be home by Thursday nite, but I still haven't decided baju nak pakai! Malam berinai, nikah, sanding, rumah Fadly. Aiyoh. Kritikal beb. Nak kene gosok lagi.... tudung lagi... Ayo yo!!!

Looks like I have some serious work to do here. =|

Oh shoot! Where did I put my camera and those batteries? Demit!

500 Days Of Summer

It's a cute movie, but not THAT good. Didn't make me cry though, but made me smile. A whole lot. Not worth going to the movies for it. Download aje!

Anyway, bila habis je tengok movie tu, rasa macam... you know... "Maybe he's not the one I was looking for".

So Scabbers, sila STOP obsessing over him!

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I need a new pair of Clarks. The one I'm wearing has worn off. Like, seriously. This is totally an emergency! Kalau nak hadiahkan, please do so. Coz aku takdak duit. =(

Kenapa Saya Ber Facebook

1. Sebab banyak sangat kerja sampai tak tau mana satu nak buat, last2 enjoy dulu.

2. Sebab saya suka bila berjumpa dengan kawan2 lama, current & baru *1

3. Saya ada bela kucing. Kesian kalau dia tak mandi, makan & bermain2.

4. Saya kepohchi. Nak tengok gambar orang2 lain.

5. Sebab kalau saya tak login Facebook satu hari, saya boleh jadi pening & mual.

_______________________

*1 : baru - jika dia kawan kepada kawan, dan if status Single sahaja. In A Relationship pun tidak diterima. Jika tiada mutual friend, lupakan sahaja.

Loserville

* Sedang imagine berada dalam Starbucks *

Orang : Yes, miss.. what will you have this morning?

Scabbers : Ermm.. I'll have twin babies, black coffee & a good movie please. Oh, and a date with a decent guy would be nice.

Orang : Is that all?

Scabbers : For now, yes please. * Smiles *

Orang : * Masuk dapur to get me what I need *

Kepulangan

My hero Hindustan dah pulang. =(

Going International

Nah, I'm not flying out of the country. I'm not even going to Singapore. Hehe.. It's just that Singaporeans are here at the office. Well, the original Singaporean is my boss, yg dah macam jadi Malaysian. Then there's this Indian guy, I guess he's originally from India coz he has all the accent, but I believe he works in Singapore. Then there's an Arab guy, whom has nothing to do with Singapore. It's just that he's my new team member, currently working with my company. Haha.

Plus my new and cute Project Consultant, (If anybody from my office reads this, I am so dead) who is a Malaysian Chinese. And then finally, there's me. So that wraps up our team for this current project that I'm in. Oh, and petang tadi my French boss was in the meeting room discussing about servers which I have no idea what's going on anyway.

Of all these people in the room just now, I think it's safe to say that by the end of the meeting, I am attracted to the Indian guy who works in Singapore. Man! How come my cute consultant pun kalah eh? Hmmm... Combine cute consultant + baik hati Singaporean boss + hensem French boss + the Arab is nothing but the fact that I LIKE Arabs in general sbb diaorg hensem/cantik. Haha. Boleh kalah jugak semua tu?

Kalau nak compare him to Siva (the other Singaporean who has a British accent, tapi kali ni tak datang pulak), this guy is more soft-spoken and calm. Siva's loud, completely botak and SO damn sexy! Dia ni tak sexy lah. Tinggi, tak gemuk, but size orang yg dah kawen jugak la. Perut takde la. Normal. Ada rambut kerinting sket, and ada uban. Mata dia kot eh? Mata dia cam... hmmm.. cemana nak describe? Kalau tengok rasa relaxed. Dan cam kaler brown. And, sangat kemas orangnye. Smart gile ok. No tie la, cuma baju dia nampak sangat properly gosok & of the best material.

Dia ada gaya Professor yg hebat in an International University. Ramai student bleh jatuh hati kat dia. Errr... including me? Forgive me, tapi aku mmg cepat jatuh hati kat orang. Ekekeke... Anyway he's going back tomorrow evening. So esok aku nak melekat kat dia. Not because I like him, but because I need his consultation & tunjuk ajar to these new things that I'm supposed to complete in 2 month's time.

Buat sorang2 ok. Pak Arab tu buat jugak, cuma module lain la. Gila. Mana taknye aku cakap aku nak mati. Skang pun dah rasa cam nak demam. Eh tapi sebenarnye sebab semalam pi melepak sampai lewat malam dengan Capix. Hahaha..

Ok lah. Masa untuk saye pengsan sekarang.

Goodbye, World!

I am so fu**ed up. ok. dia dah panggil. I guess I'll be dead in a while.

Bye.

Smile

Lagu ini ditujukan kepada kanak-kanak yg ada di rumah terbuka CKO haritu - Umar, Haziq, Amni, Ilyas, Nazurah, Fatin, Damia & Husayn.

=)

Ramblings Of An Un-attached Person

When you're single, and you go to gatherings or reunions or whatever u call it... and there happens to be somebody of the opposite sex who is also single, everybody starts pairing up the both of you. And when that person happens to be the same big size as you are, which is a bonus point in everybody else's eyes, the ayat-ayat kacau from your friends keeps coming until like, 5 years after.

OMG I am so sick of it, ok.
(Or maybe it's just that I'm not interested in that person je yg buat aku bengang? Kalau aku ada interest at least sikit pun kat dia, sure aku tak marah kan?)

Happy Deepavali

Just got back from Pizli & Liza's CKO Open House. Boy, am I tired or what?! Ini baru round KL pegi 3 open houses, belum lagi organize one. Mung's @ Danau Kota, Omar's @ Kelana Jaya and was @ Bandar Mahkota the whole nite.

Syok lah wei jumpa kawan-kawan IMU dulu. Yang bukan CKO cuma Justin & Che' Norley je la. Dan Najula dah besar! OMG she's now in Primary 2 and has 2 little sisters! I have to say, penat jugak melayan budak2 kecik eh... Tapi syok la tengok macam2 gelagat kelakar diaorg.

And today's the first time aku bercakap dengan Justin. I always thought that he's cute. Tambah pulak very polite and soft-spoken.. isk.. buat aku tersipu2 pulak dengan dia. And it turned out we have some things in common. Aaww.. I wonder if he likes Malay girls. Hahahah.. Gila.

Anyway, yg penting I had a blast! Am waiting for pictures now.. Walaupun I know aku tak cun, lantak la. I wanna see pictures! Hehe.. rindu betul kat kawan-kawan semua...

Tidak Faham

Setelah tamat mood country saye, sekarang saya addicted to love songs pula. Specifically Melly Goeslaw's from varius movies.

My playlist reads :

1. Ayat-Ayat Cinta
2. Ketika Cinta Bertasbih
3. Cinta

Macam tiba-tiba je aku start dengar balik lagu Ayat-Ayat Cinta and now I can't stop, dan rasa sangat best dan rindu nak tengok balik movie tu. WTF dude. I'm confident I'm not in love.

I think.


Oh well, mungkin mood aku jek kot. Yelah, kazen nak kawen...
Hahahaha.. Whatever. Loser.

Reminiscing

I just had to say it today. His name; Arman.

Urgh. I've been avoiding that name for like, 8 years now. Haha. Bukan pasal apa pun, just because aku nak komen kuiz yg kawan aku buat kat Facebook. And his name was the first that popped up in my mind. Shucks.

He was my chat friend, originally. Then he called me almost everyday, bergayut tak sudah macam orang berchenta. Back in college, everybody bergayut. Biasalah kan. That was when I was about 18 years old kot.. earlier years of college. And he was 40. Separated with the wife, and has 2 kids aged around 4-6 years old.

He owns a construction company, if I'm not mistaken. Pergi clubbing every nite, and tell me stories I've never heard before. Real life stories. Dia pandai make conversations, aku rasa best cakap dengan dia (at that time lah. now when I think of it, semua nya jadi pathetic!)

He told me he's old and ugly, and I kept saying it's ok. We flirted like mad, but just over the phone or in a chatroom lah. I guess I just wanted to "test power". Sejauh mana kehandalan aku dalam bab2 mengurat. Hmmm.. I even flirted with my lecturer in front of like, everybody.

Anyway, one Saturday I was planning a day out with my friends when he called to volunteer jadi driver and tour guide for us. He canceled his trip balik Perak sebab ni ok. Haha. I agreed, dan heret lah kawan-kawan ku bersama.

Kami janji nak jumpa kat CM. Berdebar bukan main lagi masa tu tau! Ingatkan dia bawak Harrier, rupanya bawak Wira (no offense, tapi this is for a guy who OWNS a construction company). His spectacles was so the same age as I was, his shirt looks tight around the oh-so-obvious-belly, and his grey hair's a total mess. He looked like a 60year-old man who's life is very much messed up.

I walked up to his car, said hello and made an excuse not to go out with him that day. It was kinda an obvious excuse, so he never called me again since. Or that's what I think, since I turned off my phone for 3 days straight. Mummy had to call the girls to get to me. Heheh.

Well, that was just me... being a teenager. Rest assured, I am now a changed person.

P/S: But sometimes the old me needs a break from hiding too. *wink*

Pelamin Anganku Musnah

Tidak, saye belum buat pelamin lagi. Yang nak kawen next month ialah kazen saye.

Cuma, hari ni penuh dengan angan-angan. Asyik2 nak senyum je. Bangun pagi senyum, gosok gigi senyum, drive senyum, jalan tengah panas pun senyum...

Sampai mamat-ofisboy-sebelah-yg-bleh-tahan-hensem tu terserempak kuar dari lif, siap buat double take kerana saye sedang tersenyum simpul kepadanya. Oh malu!

:">

I know it's a Monday, tapi.... kalau berangan tu, bukan kisah hari apa pun! Kan?

One Health Community

I just joined this.. ermmm.. One Health Community. It has a few products under it's label, and so far I think it's great.

Visit this page here, ada pictures and explanation on each products. Cuma dia tertinggal eLife, a machine with a tagline that says "The Health Shield For An Energized Life". Google for more info or come down to The Weld for treatment. Sorry, I'm just a sucker at explaining.

Anyway, all I have to say is, EzOut is the best thing that has ever happen to me. Health-related lah. Hehe. I have constipation problem since I was in primary school. I've tried banana, prune and whatever they're discussing it here, but still the same. The first time I took EzOut, I went to the toilet for 5 times. Man, I was so happy. It's been about 10 days now, everyday without fail. Now I can eat chicken, egg, prawn or any seafood stuff without feeling guilty. And my face no longer itch. I feel good!

And eWash? Hehe, easiest as ever, satisfactory result and saves me money yo.

Love Of My Life

Where you are that's where I wanna be
And through your eyes all the things I wanna see
And in the night you are my dream
You're everything to me

Kata-kata puitis ini hanya applicable untuk orang yg sedang dalam proses menambat hati si dia sahaja.

You're the love of my life
And the breath in my prayers
Take my hand lead me there

Kata-kata ini pula akan diucapkan tatkala hendak pujuk to get in his/her pants.

I cant forget the taste of your mouth
From your lips the heavens pour out
I cant forget when we are one
With you alone I am free

Yang ini akan dibuaikan di telinga si dia selepas bangun tidur, dalam proses untuk memujuk si dia untuk satu lagi round.

We go dancing in the moonlight
With the starlight in your eyes
We go dancing till the sunrise
You and me were gonna dance dance dance

And this verse here, cuma akan berlaku untuk pasangan yg sedang hangat berchenta la konon nya. Pabila melangkah ke the next stage, kesemua kata-kata indah dan semanis madu itu akan lenyap forever. Harap maklum.

Tapi saye suke juga. Kerana suara penyanyi itu sexy (pasti lah, ia nya Dave Matthews!) dan ada alunan gitar dari Santana. Jika didengar pada waktu malam pesta yg mana semua orang sedang ghairah menari, sungguh asyik!

Do You Take Dexter Morgan?

As my beloved husband, to love and to hold, till death do us part?

YES!

You guys should watch Dexter. It's really cool. I have been on hold with my Dexter-watching activity since S03E07. Suddenly when I wake up from slumber.. it's already Season 4, Episode 4.. I think!

Now I'm actively downloading those episodes which I've missed. And I can't wait to watch him kill Miguel. He's such an ass.

Season 4, wait for me! Nak tengok baby baru Dexter!

Lost & Found

Thursday..
"Kak, akak Fauzanah ke?", sambil menunjukkan sekeping IC.

Sunday..
"Cik, cik! Awak Puspa ke?", sambil menunjukkan sekeping Driving License.

Do I look like I just throw my important documents all over the place? I'm a cheapskate that I wear torn-out bags sampai semua nye tercicir? Jeez! What is it with these people?!

Maybe I'm too cute they just wanna talk to me.

"Hi there. My name's Puspa Fauzanah." ;)

A Birthday Shout-Out

Scabbers Go Country

Lagu ini saya tujukan kepada Arin, Pizli, Hafezh, Dahlia, Farah, Omar, Shahrul, Kerol, Liza, Capix, Fizah, Hanum dan Muza. Dengan mesej...




I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you...

Just So You Know

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

Aidilfitri 2009

Haqeem : Tengok kasut Akim! Kasut keje.

Scabbers : Wow cantiknya! Akim keje kat mana?

Haqeem : Kat ofis Bapak. Akim keje kat ofis Bapak.

Scabbers : Akim keje buat apa kat ofis Bapak?

Haqeem : Ermm... tak tau!

Scabbers : Akim buat paperwork ek?

Haqeem : Paperwork tu apa?

Scabbers : Paperwork tu kertas kerja.

Haqeem : * Termenung sambil menjeling ke arah TV *



Haqeem : Ermm... susah tak nak buat kertas jadi TV?

"-_-

Already Gone

Tinggal a few hours sahaja lagi sebelum waktu kerja pada hari ini habis, dan cuti hari raya pun bermula. Sungguh tidak sabar! Padahal cuti kejap aja pun. I just told Mummy yesterday yg aku cuti Friday. Seperti ada nada excitement pada suara Mummy. Aaawww... gumbira I! =)

Sememangnya dari semalam lagi nyawa ini tidak berada di ofis. Hanya badan sahaja di sini. Dan harini, lagi la jangan harap boleh concentrate buat kerja. I've been looking at the same set of code for the past 2 hours.

Mana tak nya, semalam berbuka puasa kat Hotel Putra dengan kawan2 BMI. No food picture this time, ok. Penat dah. Food was good dan tak ramai orang! Best!! Dan today, berbuka puasa dengan kawan2 SESAMA di Restoran Cheng Ho.

So tell me, how can I work? How?!

Ok la, drive safe balik kampung ya.. jangan main mercun, jangan lupa kasi duit raya kat budak2, ambik gambar banyak2 & yg penting, selamat menjamu selera.

Movies Or Adik Hensem?

Cerita yg "sick". Dari mula, scene baby dia mati, sampai last.. minah Esther ni dress up for her father.. semuanya sick. Dan yg penting, menyakitkan hati. Ingatkan cerita ni pasal budak yg kena rasuk hantu, or evil macam cerita Unborn ke hape tuh. Rupanya cerita orang normal yg tak normal. Surprisingly I didn't fall asleep, walaupun cinema tu sejuk dan aku dalam keadaan kekenyangan selepas melantak Empal Sapi, jus tembikai & alpokat @ Wong Solo bersama kawan2 ex-IMU earlier.

Siapa2 yg bercadang nak amik anak angkat tu, dinasihatkan agar menonton filem ini terlebih dahulu. Ia akan membuka mata dan minda anda terhadap perkara ini. Ok gak la citer nye, takde la best gile dan takde la tak best langsung. 3 bintang kot.

Sabtu malam pula pegi menonton Gamer. Mula2 rasa macam tak best dan taknak tengok walaupun ada Gerard Butler, tapi siang sebelum tu watched the trailer dan dapat tahu si Dexter pun belakon gak. Dexter the serial killer cum police officer - Michael C. Hall nama sebenarnya. Maka terus je paksa Nurin ikut, since nak tgk movie kol 11mlm.. dah lewat takleh gi sorang. Heheh..

Hah memang worth my RM9. Bukan je my two fav men belakon, tapi ada Milo (Peter Petrelli from Heroes) and Jake (taktau the real name, Jake is his character dalam CSI: Miami). Aku rekemen la korang pi tgk citer nih, tapi make sure jangan bawak budak bawah 18 tahun, or if korang perempuan.. jgn pi tgk waktu kuar dating dgn lelaki gatal. Initially I wanted to go watch dgn my friend Zul, tapi tak jadi. Nasib baik la.. kalau tak mmg awkward lah suasana nye nanti.

Banyak sex-related scenes, esp masa dalam "Society". Bila dia tunjuk "Slayers", maka pembunuhan kejam pula akan berlaku sebab ia merupakan game perang2. Hehehe.. Jalan cerita nya agak similar to Death Race, which I love. And so, this movie aku suke gak la. Boleh beli DVD pirate nye nanti.

Kesimpulannya, aku pi tgk wayang semata2 sebab nak jenguk adik comel yg jaga counter ticket. Malam Sabtu tu ntah kenapa nervous nak mampus, dah nak pegi kat counter dia.. dia pun dah ready nak terima tapi at the last second aku pi pusing ke counter budak pompuan sebelahnya. Isk isk. Bodo giler rasa, tapi I neves la dik! U tu hensem sangat!

;)

David Cook

David Cook sangat sexy. Esp in this video.



* air liur meleleh *

I Heart JB !

JB is the best during Ramadhan month, dudes! Seriously. The food! OMG, the food! Tak sempat pulak nak amik gambar all the delicious food we had. Sibuk makan lah katakan...

Oh btw, Friday aku bukak posa dgn classmate aku kat kolej dulu. Kenny Rodgers @ The Mall. Mummy didn't seem to mind aku sampai rumah at midnite, just because I had a date with a single guy who has a stable job and a similar backgrouond. Oh Mak.

Anyway, Saturday we went to Xtra. My ultimate favorite pasar Ramadhan in JB. Almost as big as Putrajaya, only pilihan makanan dan tahap kesedapannya lebih best. Makanan wajib - Kacang poll, chocolate cake, caramel & ABC lumayan. Tapi baru 1 pasar dah penuh boot kereta aku. Lepastu ke Kg Melayu Majidee pula. Makanan wajib - Nasi kerabu & popiah goreng. Sama juga la dengan Xtra, by the time kuar dari pasar, tangan dah merah angkat plastik beg.

Bukan cuma 2 tempat, malah kami lalu depan gerai2 di depan rumah Manpik, di JP Perdana. Takda yg nampak menarik pun, lalu kami meneruskan perjalanan ke Setia Indah. Beli air, tapi gerai nya sikit sangat dan makanan tak menarik.

Malam tu kami ke Carries, atas permintaan saya. The last time I went there was like, 20 years ago. Seriously. Menarik juga mall tu, sebab Metrojaya nya banyak pilihan. I fell in love with a Sisley handbag yg ada 40% discount. Tapi tak beli dulu, kena bajet & fikir macam2. Mall dah nak tutup, kami ke Coffee Bean. Sedang Cousin Nur & I meng-order makanan, kami terdengar Mummy & Makton berbual2. Then Makton called out my name.

Aku toleh.

Ada seorang pakcik. Rupanya dia adalah bapa Ahmad. Eh, excited aku masa tu! I missed him very much (Ahmad, not the father ok), lama sangat tak contact. Then bapak dia blah, tetiba ada 2 org budak yg menyerupai Ahmad masuk. Makton tegur, tanya if diaorg anak pakcik tadi. Diaorg kata ya. Then Mummy tanya diaorg tu yg sulung dgn yg bongsu ke. Dan yg lelaki tu cakap ya, dia bongsu. Then Mummy tanya, tak kenal aku ke? Dia tengok aku dia tanya, "Jaja ek?" (Jaja tu my best friend in school, and his college mate in MMU) Hahaha.. tak kire lah dia ingat aku Jaja ke sape . Janji aku dah jumpa balik Ahmad!

Excited giler ok! He looked so young. Dapat la sembang2 jap citer pasal update masing2, then mak dia pulak datang sembang2 dgn kiteorg. Last2 exchange numbers & balik. Hehe..

Sunday pulak seperti the years before, kami ke Angsana - the best place in JB to do your hari raya shopping. Baju, tudung, hiasan rumah, kuih-muih... mewah! Tak habis kat situ, kami ke Kotaraya untuk membeli Halwa Maskat yg katanya sedap dan tiap2 tahun juga beli kat sana. Mall tu tak se-best Angsana, tapi ok la when it comes to pilihan kuih-muih. Semua orang dah penat, tapi aku blom puas hati sbb tak dapat beli handbag. So kami ke Danga City Mall nak tengok2 Metrojaya nya. Banyak handbag! Tapi takda satu yg melekat di hati. Cuma beli seluar tidur yg comel.


Bik Kaseh called saying dia masak stew & mee goreng. Tapi Yati stopped just outside Kotaraya untuk beli lauk2 masakan kelantan. Sedap jugak. Singgah Xtra lagi untuk beli jelaburan (kuih-muih dan minuman). Kacang poll lagi! Hehehe..

Semua orang dah nak pengsan, tapi aku nak patah balik Carries beli the Sisley handbag which by the time aku dah takleh lupa & had to have it! Mummy ikut, dan bagaikan jodoh, dapat parking betul depan pintu masuk. Sampai je kat handbag tu, ada kakak salesgirl yg membantu dengan baik sekali. Makanya, I bought the bag! Yeay!!!


And now I'm happy. I heart JB. =)

Berbuka Pada Hari Biasa

Hari : Khamis
Lokasi : Old Town White Coffee Danau Kota
Turut Hadir : Munah & me
Tujuan : Tiada.

Just because the exit on DUKE (to Ampang) is wayyyy congested, I took the exit to Gombak. Apa agaknya berlaku di Ampang ya, jem start from Wangsa Melawati. Gila.


Munah with her traditional Asam Laksa & ais limau, and I tried a new set of menu for Ramadhan. Hor Hee, tembikai susu pudding, kurma 2 bijik, 2 popiah sayur, 1 samosa kari & sirap bandung cincau. The set costs RM11.90, which is an okay price to me. Semuanya sedap.


Lepas our main course, we ordered our favorite Kaya & Butter Toast, dan blackcurrent smoothies. Syiok!


Satu je yg mengecewakan... Adik melayu yg comel keje kat situ takda. It's been months since I last went there, so aku tatau la dia da berhenti ke apa. Maybe baru kene panggil masuk Uni kot. Hehehe..

Berbuka over the Merdeka Weekend

Day : Saturday
Location : Wong Solo, Ampang (again!)
Turut Hadir : Mummy, Makton, BikMuna, Dina, Hani, Nurin & me




We went to Setiawangsa quite early, around 4pm, kedai2 tak banyak yg dah bukak. Tapi macam2 gak hasil pembeliannya! Then headed to Putrajaya to check out the pasar Ramadhan punya scene yg ramai orang kata best. Dan ya, memang best. Sebab BANYAK SANGAT stall jualan. Sampai nak putus jari kami mengangkat barang-barang. Boot kereta kelisa yg comel saya tu pun padat jadinya!

Day : Monday (Selamat Hari Merdeka!)
Location : Rumah Munah
Turut Hadir : Mummy, Makton, Makdah, Paktan, Munah, Nur, Dina, Nurin, Fatin, Syahmi & me.


Makton masak lauk ikan kicap, sambal udang & jemput2 pisang. Munah, the tuan rumah masak masakan omputih which I am not sure of. Like Mum always say, "Eat, don't ask". And so I did. So dua hari aku makan ayam. Seketul yg kecik je sehari. Hahah. Oh ya, sebelum sampai rumah Munah, singgah sebentar di pasar Ramadhan @ Danau Kota. Ramai giler manusia! Dan so far, paling ramai lelaki muda yg-kelihatan-bujang. Me likey!

Kesimpulannya, sangat kenyang! Alhamdulillah.. =)

Empat Sekawan Menyambut Hari Lahir

Perkara : Acara berbuka puasa bersama-sama, merangkap sambutan hari jadi.

Lokasi : Secret Recipe Sogo

Waktu : 6.30 - 8pm

Ahli : Dahlia, Zura (the birthday girl), Et & yours truly.

Behind the Scene : Dahlia dan kawan2 baik nya sewaktu sekolah. Dahulunya kami semua berjiran dan teman ke pejabat menaiki tren. Sekarang semua telah membuat hala tuju sendiri dan birthday girl telah pun berumahtangga.


Pada jam 7, semua pengunjung diberi minuman percuma - Air Sirap. Dan juga Kurma sebagai pembuka.

Sementara menunggu waktu, kami bercerita tentang kisah hidup masing2 dan of course lah tidak lupa juga ber posing untuk kenangan!


Saya memesan Choclate Banana untuk minuman, dan Mee Sup Daging (bukan nama sebenar) sebagai makanan. Kedua-dua nya percubaan pertama. Walaupun gambar kurang menarik, tetapi berbeza sekali dengan rasa nya. Daging sangat lembut, fishball pun ok, kuah nya sedap sekali. Disertakan sekali sambal cili hijau yg pedasnya tidak keterlaluan mahupun kekurangan. Namun begitu, minuman saya telah menjadi seperti air basi. Sangat yucky. Nasib baik ada sirap free.

Di atas ialah gambar Dahlia bersama makanan nya. Dia telah memesan Japanese Soba dan Jus Tembikai sebagai juadah berbuka puasa. Kedua-dua nya pun sedap, walaupun soba tu makan sayur jek takde daging. Hehe.

Sebagai penutup majlis, Et telah memesan sepotong kek Butterscotch sebagai "birthday cake", yg mana hanya di jamah sedikit sahaja oleh birthday girl. Selebihnya telah dikerjakan oleh kami bertiga. Sedap!

Harga makanan saya : RM27

Berbuka di Wong Solo, Ampang

Untuk pertama kali nya, semalam saya berbuka puasa dia restoran Ayam Bakar Wong Solo di Ampang, berdekatan dengan rumah.

Kasihan kan? Walaupun dekat namun saya tidak pernah ke sana. Bukan apa, takut tak cukup duit. Hehe. Semalam berbuka dengan Dahlia & rakan sepejabatnya, Sharifah.

Mereka order Ayam Penyet dan saya order Sapi Bakar a.k.a Daging.

Pengalaman kali pertama mengunyah daging di dalam mulut, terasa sungguh nikmat! Dagingnya lembut, masih panas dan ada rasa rempah yg enak sekali attach to it. Memang boleh buat orang mengidam! Which I think I already am, now.

Ayam penyet nampak lazat, bersama sambal cili yg sangat pedas dan menggiurkan. I didn't rasa the ayam, tapi now dah terliur teringatkan Ayam Penyet yg sedap giler babas kat Restoran Kampung Daun @ Bandung. =P~

Saya dan Dahlia adalah manusia yg tamak. Kami order 2 jenis minuman each - Jus Alpokat & Jus Mangga. Kalau jus2 tersebut tidak dibuat terlalu awal, pasti rasanya lebih sedap. Tapi kasihan juga kepada yg membuat air. Pelanggan ramai yg perlu di layan. Begitu juga dengan tukang masak. Ayam penyet telah sejuk, tapi mujur daging masih panas.

Addiction

Scabbers : Erm, hi. M-my name is S-scabbers.

Everybody : Hi, Scabbers.

Scabbers : I... I am a.. Ermm. A Facebook Addict.

Everybody : * clap *

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After 6 years of eating pudding from Adik Itu tiap kali ke Pasar Ramadhan @ home, this year he's not there. Bapa nya yg jual ayam percik pun tak ada. Awal2 ni, sambutan baik. Wait till the last few days, I'll be the only one berjalan melihat jualan di 6 gerai yg tinggal.

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Ijinkan aku kecup keningmu
Ijinkan aku peluk dirimu
Ijinkan aku hadir di dalam mimpimu

ASTRO Aruna, 10.00pm - 3 Pengantin Untuk Ayahku

Letter of Recommendation

Scabbers
Plaza Mont Kiara,
Kuala Lumpur.

Pegawai Sumber Manusia,
Jabatan Kerajaan,
Kuala Lumpur 24 Ogos 2009

PENGGUNAAN BORANG JAWATAN ATAS TALIAN

Kehadapan Tuan/Puan yg bertanggungjawab,

1. Boleh tak kalau kite pakai online form submission jek? Tanpa perlu kite pegi post application yg dah di send sekali dengan salinan sijil yg disahkan tu?

2. Bukan ape.. kite nih malu la nak masuk Post Office tu. Brader tu bully kite nanti. Kite ni memang pemalu sikit orangnye. Plus, nak dapatkan pengesahan tu satu hal la. Kite ni apply bukan sikit2 je jawatan kerajaan. Mana yg kene, semua kite apply. Jadik salinan yg dah disahkan tu dah habis la kat rumah. Nak suruh kazen kite sahkan pun amik masa sbb dia kat kampung, saye kat KL. Jumpa dia skali skala jek. By the time dia kasi cop, due date dah kene pulak. Hampa lah saye cenggini.

3. Kalau kite guna online sahaja, senang sikit. Tak perlu kite hantar lagi pakai pos. Tapi untuk orang yg takde internet, boleh la dia nak hantar pakai pos. Kan? Macam Perbadanan Putrajaya & SPA lah. Kite cuma apply online je. Sijil2 semua diaorg amik masa interview nanti. Baru la senang sikit. Memudahkan kerja dan tak melambak2 kan kertas di pejabat tuan/puan. Kite kan kena Save The Earth! Kertas tu datang dari pokok tu. Oleh itu, marilah kite mengurangkan penggunaan kertas ek? Jadikan ofis kite eco-friendly la. Baru la menjadi contoh kepada pejabat lain kan?

Kalau tuan/puan merialisasikan komen kite ni, kite ucapkan Terima Kasih yg tak terhingga! Saaaaaaaaaayang korang!

Yang Benar,
Scabbers
Civillian,
Kuala Lumpur

Resdung

Mbak yg tolong flush out lendir from the nose last Saturday kata, at least for 3 days sejak treatment haritu kena jaga makan. Berpantang. No telor, no ayam, seafood, iced drinks, ice cream, belacan and such lah. And aku telah melakukan sebaik mungkin. Walaupun maybe ada gak la telor sbb dalam lauk da mmg masukkan kan? Dan ice tu kalo pi fast food mmg aku terpaksa. =P

And now it's been a week and I feel better. Oh, I drink a whole lot of air masak juga ok. Muka dan hidung dah kurang gatal. Terasa ringan sikit la in the head.

Setelah banyak membaca, aku dapati petua masukkan-air-dalam-hidung-dan-hembus everytime sampai ke satu2 destinasi, is the best. Dan, aku juga masih mengamalkan pantang. Terasa macam orang tua sbb minum teh-o panas. Ngga keren dong!

Aku bercita-cita untuk meneruskan kawalan makanan ni. Cuma takut Makton or Yati or sapa2 yg masak kat Muar tu kecik hati sbb aku tak makan masakan diaorg. Hmmmm... Sikit2 buat jamah ok la kot. Susah beb nak control. Udang and seafood I don't mind. Telor, ayam dgn ice cream tu! Gilaaa.....

Maka sekarang ni aku ada obsesi kat masakan Hokkien / Chinese style. Nasi putih & fish. Sometimes sweet sour, sometimes lemon, garlic-whatever... dan macam2 lagi lah. Steamed fish pun buat aku terliur skang nih.

Oh lapar! Dan wish me luck for my pantang.

Mengantuk

Musalmah tidak mampu untuk menahan perasaan gembira di hatinya. Dia tersenyum sendiri mengenangkan pertemuannya dengan Mahmud seketika yg lalu. Sesungguhnya dia tidak menyangka lelaki yg satu ketika dahulu pernah dibencinya kini telah mula mendapat tempat di hatinya.

"Asslamualaikum, Salmah", kata Mahmud dengan lembut.

"Waalaikumussalam", jawab Musalmah yg terkejut dengan kedatangan Mahmud tu.

"Wah, Salmah nampak cantik sekali harini", kata Mahmud sambil tersenyum manis.

Babak tadi asyik berulang dalam fikiran Musalmah. Senyuman Mahmud yg manis itu lah yg selama ini dirindukan Musalmah. 5 tahun Mahmud menyambungkan pelajarannya untuk mendapatkan Sarjana dalam bidang Kejuruteraan di United Kingdom, kini dia kembali ke Malaysia.

Berdebar hati Musalmah sewaktu mendapat pesanan di telefon bimbitnya kelmarin.


Sejak hari itu, Musalmah terasa sangat bahagia kerana perasaan rindu nya kepada Mahmud terbalas jua. Perjumpaanya tadi di Dome, KLCC telah menguraikan segalanya. Mahmud nampak ceria dan tutur katanya amat sopan, tidak seperti dahulu sewaktu mereka pertama kali berjumpa.

"Hey, perempuan! Apa langgar-langgar? Buta ke?!", jerit Mahmud kepada Musalmah yg terkial2 mengemas kertas yg berterabur jatuh.

Sejak itu, Musalmah amat membenci Mahmud yg merupakan pekerja di Unit Penyelidikan yg terletak bersebelahan dengan pejabat Musalmah di MIMOS, Taman Teknologi Malaysia. Namun atas rasa hormat kepada rakan sepejabat, Musalmah terus kan juga berkawan dengan Mahmud. Sehinggakan Mahmud hilang dari pandangan matanya, barulah dia sedar dan terasa akan kehilangan itu.

Tapi kini semuanya telah berubah. Mahmud telah kembali dan memberi nya ayat-ayat cinta yg sangat romantis, Musalmah jatuh di tangan Mahmud. Dia terasa bagaikan di puncak dunia!

Mereka meneruskan perhubungan mereka selama dua minggu, sehingga satu hari Mahmud mengajaknya keluar untuk membincangkan perkara penting. Musalmah sekali lagi berdebar, kerana dia yakin Mahmud akan melamarnya. Dia tahu Mahmud telah bersedia untuk berumahtangga melalui perbualan mereka.

Musalmah mengenakan pakaian yg cantik ; seluar khaki dan kemeja bewarna merah bercorak bunga dipadankan dengan tudung merah jambu kegemarannya. Dia menuju ke Tony Roma's di Cineleisure Damansara, tempat yg ditetapkan untuk bertemu.

"Salmah, ada sesuatu yg perlu saya katakan pada awak", kata Mahmud memulakan bicara.

"Ya, silakan", balas Musalmah yg cuba melindungi getaran dalam suaranya.

"Sejak saya pulang dari UK, awak lah teman yg paling rapat dengan saya. Saya rasa persahabatan yg awak berikan tu ikhlas, dan saya amat hargainya.".

"Terus terang saya katakan, saya amat senang dengan awak, Salmah", sambung Mahmud.

Salmah tersenyum dan merasakan muka nya merah padam.

"Dengan itu, saya harap awak akan dapat datang ke majlis perkahwinan saya minggu depan. Saya akan berkahwin dengan teman wanita saya yg sama-sama belajar di UK dahulu".

"Apa?!", jerit Musalmah terkejut. "Benarkah apa yg aku dengarkan ini?", kata Musalmah dalam hati.

"Jadi selama ni awak ada teman wanita dan awak mempermainkan saya sahaja?", marah Musalmah. Air mata nya mula mengalir kerana tidak dapat menahan sakit di hati.

"Ermmm... Maafkan saya, Musalmah. Sesungguhnya saya tidak berniat begitu. Saya hanya ingin berbaik-baik dengan awak. Dan setelah saya mengenali diri awak yg sebenar, saya amat gembira kerana dapat bertemu kawan yg sejati. Maaf jika awak telah menyimpan perasaan terhadap saya", jelas Mahmud.

"Kata-kata awak selami ni semua tipu belaka...", Musalmah sambil termenung mengingatkan kembali janji-janji manis yg dicurahkan kepadanya.

"Maaf, Salmah. Saya ingat awak tahu saya ni macam mana. Kan saya suka bermain-main saja. Sungguh saya tidak maksudkan apa-apa. Maafkan saya, Salmah, jika tersalah maksud", kata Mahmud, cemas melihat keadaan Musalmah yg menjadi semakin berserabut.

Salmah tidak dapat berkata apa-apa lagi. Hatinya terlalu sakit. Dia berlari keluar dari kedai menuju ke kereta nya.

"Salmah! Tunggu!", kedengaran jeritan Mahmud dari belakang.

Tapi Salmah tidak berhenti mahupun kakinya lemah, tidak berdaya untuk berlari. Salmah terus mendapatkan keretanya dan beredar dari situ.

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Ya, kanak-kanak. Itulah dia tadi cerita ntah-apa2 yg direka khas buat Pizli yg sedang mengantuk.

Moral of the story, kepada kaum wanita: Jangan percaya cakap lelaki. NEVER EVER.

Untuk kaum lelaki, deny all you want. Even if kau cakap "tak semua lelaki macam tu", and I'd say, "yea, ok, tak semua lelaki macam tu".. aku still tak percaya. I say that untuk meng-shut up kan anda sahaja.

Oh ya, cerita ini tiada kaitan dengan yg hidup ataupun yg mati. Mahupun Akil Hayy & Waheeda sekalipun. Tiada. Ana janji ia hanya untuk hiburan semata-mata.

=P

The Sweetest !

I'm Not Crying - FOTC

So, you're leaving, aren't you'
I knew it when you said just then when you told me you were leaving
That's when I definitely knew
But if you're trying to break my heart
Your plan is flawed from the start
You can't break my heart, it's liquid
It melted when I met you
And as you turn around to leave
Don't' turn back to me
Don't turn around and see if I'm crying
I'm not crying

I'm not crying
It's just been raining
On my face
And if you think you see some tear tracks down my cheeks
Please. Pleasee, don't tell my mates
I'm not crying
No, I'm not crying

And if I am crying
It's not because of you
It's because I'm thinking about a friend of mine who you don't know who is dying
That's right, dying
These aren't tears of sadness because you're leaving me
I've just been cutting onions
I'm making a lasagna
For one
Oh, I'm not crying
No

There's just a little bit of dust in my eye
That's from the path that you made when you said your goodbye
I'm not weeping because you won't be here to hold my hand
For your information there's an inflammation in my tear gland
I'm not upset because you left me this way
My eyes are just a little sweaty today
They've been looking around
They're like searching for you
They've been looking for you
Even though I told them not to
These aren't tears of sadness
They're tears of joy
I'm just laughing
Ha ha ha-ha ha
I'm sitting at this table called love
Staring down at the irony of life
How come we've reached this fork in the road
And yet it cuts like a knife'
I'm not crying
I'm not crying
I'm not cry-y-y-y-y-y-y-y-ing

** OMG these guys are so funny! LOL!
Pasni kalau aku nangis and somebody ask, I could just say, "I'm not crying, My eyes are just a little sweaty today"

"I'm making a lasagna..For one" hahaha.. classic!!

Sickening !

Wang bantuan untuk isteri bisu disalah guna lelaki warga emas 78 tahun

Yea, yea.. I know it's a mess out there. This is just one of the many cases lah kan.. but wahlau! U so old also wanna go fak2 women ke? Prostitute some more. Suda mau mati lu tak ingat ka? U got wife also wan somebody else.

Men! Sampai tua also so stupid and tamak. So disgusting!

And the woman.. aiyoh! Got so many good jobs out there lah. Can get much higher pay also if u work hard. Not work with something hard (So old dy can get hard meh?). Work as a clerk also good what... get to sit in office. Got aircond, use computer.. some more u don't get AIDS while working maa.

I tell u hor.. these people nowadays (old people like this also the same lah).. they know one thing only ler.. they don't care about others one. Makan duit orang bisu! And some more its his wife! Aiyoh! Got no hati perut one. Only know wanna have fun je.

Bodo punya orang.

Ayuh Cuti-Cuti Malaysia!

Ok, Penang 31st January - 2nd February 2010 confirmed; cousins trip. Jakarta 9th - 13th April 2010 pun confirmed; family trip. If only I can get some friends for Kota Kinabalu some time in July... Hmmmmm....

Anybody? IMU reunion probably? RM98 return per person. Ok what.. very cheap one! Hehehe.. Jomla jomla jomla!!!!

Langkawi tu sekelip mata jek dah kehabisan tiket yg murah2 pada time yg best. Semuanya dah mahal. KK banyak lagi beb.. dan flight time pun best2!

Bersabarlah Sayang

Satu ketika dahulu dalam mimpi-mimpiku, aku bayangkan harini adalah hari yg paling bahagia dalam hidup aku. Apakan daya, turns out that harini adalah hari yg paling sedih sepanjang tahun ni. Namun terpaksa aku harungi jua...

Walau jiwa raga seperti dihiris dan dicincang lumat seakan-akan Ramly's Minced Meat. Walau air mata dah jatuh macam air terjun kat Ulu Yam. Walau hati dah remuk macam kereta tak pakai yg tersadai kat kedai potong.

Aku sangat down saat ni. Tapi aku tahu, cahaya di hujung terowong tu dah mula menampakkan dirinya, walaupun samar2 saja. Lebih kurang 0.5% opacity nye.

Semua yg terjadi ada hikmahnya. Aku bersyukur dengan keputusan yg diterima. Aku mesti lebih banyak bersabar dalam menghadapi hari-hari yg mendatang.

I HAVE to say this out loud, perlu bagi diri aku semangat. Kalau tak, you'll see me berjalan pun mengheret, senyum tak ikhlas, blur dan tak boleh berfikir. Seperti kosong, cuma ada badan dan lemak berlebihan je.

Be strong, Scabbers. You'll get through this. Semua yg berlaku pasti ada the end of it.

Monsters Do PD

Port Dickson, 1st August 2009 - Teluk Kemang beach was under attack by 7 monsters on Saturday morning.


They bought food and drinks and stayed around for a few hours for a picnic and some gruesome action in the beach. They were nowhere to be seen in the area when the rain pours down again around noon.

After an hour of peace, they were being seen again in PD area. Reported by some witnesses, they then roamed over the firehouse at Tanjung Tuan for some uphill view of the sea.


While they were lost in the woods, people in the area can feel the grounds shaking. A witness said that they were taking pictures.

"Yes, I saw them with my own eyes! They were trying to take jumping pictures. It was ugly.", said Ali, the cleaner at the area.

Around 5pm, they were seen heading back towards Sepang, but stopped by PD Town to attack a mamak stall at the roadside.

"They ate all my cendol, ABC, rojak, cincau drinks and goreng pisang!", claimed Mutu, the stall owner. "But thanks to them, my business was really good that day. I get to close early and spend time at home with my children", he added with a grateful smile.

Port Dickson is now in peace as the monsters are gone. The people of PD can sleep soundly from now on.

Taylor Swift - Crazier

I never gone with the wind
Just let it flow...
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door
There's so much more...
I've never seen it before
I was tryin to fly but I couldn't find wings,
But you came along, and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground,
You spin me around,
You make me crazier,crazier
Feels like I'm fallin,
And I'm, lost in your eyes,
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier...

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own...
Every sky was your own kind of blue...
And I wanted to know
How that would feel,
And you made so real...
You showed me something that I couldn't see...
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground,
You spin me around,
You make me crazier,crazier
Feels like I'm fallin,
And I'm, lost in your eyes,
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier...

Baby you showed me what living is for,
I don't want to hide anymore...

Melarikan Diri

Dimanakah lokasi yg strategik untuk saya men-shut-down kan diri sendiri untuk sehari? Lokasi mestilah dipercayai keselamatannya, kerana nak pegi sorang2. Harga tak mahal sangat, berpatutan. Tidak jauh dari KL, sebab if jauh bajet lagi banyak kena kuar. Hehehe..

Takmau tempat yg ada "fun activities" ar any of that crap.

Nak off hp. Nak termenung dan tidur. Nak sorang2.

I miss being alone.

Birthday

Berhenti Berharap

Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati

Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat

Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan

Aku pulang
Tanpa dendam
Kusalut kan kemenanganmu

Aku pulang
Tanpa dendam
Kuterima kekahalanku

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukkan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita

Rebahkan kalbumu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti
Semua..

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat..

The Taking Of Pelham 123 (2009)

I was expecting the movie to be REAL good, tapi I was disappointed.

Memang John Travolta & Denzel Washington are two great actors, especially Travolta kalau dia jadi jahat. Memang macam evil gila laa...

Tapi yg buat slack nye movie ni, dia macam kurang action. Kurang "kick" la beb. Starting movie pun a bit dragging, even tho dia nak tunjuk precisely how the incident took place kan.. The part of Geo, the computer boy, was like so unnecessary. He could be more important dan boleh add drama lagi to his character and situation, but no. Tak jadi apa2 pun. Anti-climax la kata orang.

The other two bad guys was WAY too easy to spot and kill. Ceh. Macam buang masa je jadi orang jahat yg muke sangat digeruni rakyat jelata tuh. Even Travolta pun senang nak bunuh.

Tak boleh lawan Death Race and Die Hard 4.0 la beb. Those two movies are the best action movie dalam masa terdekat ni and the movie yg I can watch it again and again. And between the two.. I love Death Race more. The killings are gruesome, man! Dan, masih takleh lawan Face/Off. THE John Travolta action movie of all time, for me at least.

Download je citer ni pun takpa. I don't think I wanna give it 4 stars pun. Maybe just 3 1/2.

Kingdom Of Dreams

I'm a drama queen. I exaggerate. I might as well be an author. Create a world of dreams and fantasies that brings happiness to the soul.

* Gheez, dude! Lame-o much?!

Letting Go

Some people tak boleh nak let go. Nak jugak tau cerita lama. U're bugging me, u know that?! Aduh... dah banyak kali cakap to drop it, still nak dok tanya2 lagi?!

Ya Allah, please hold back my anger and the urge to stab a knife in his chest.

Happy Birthday Dude!

A big shoutout to Arin yg menyambut hari jadinya today. Umur dirahsiakan disini. Ahaks...


Atau bak kata Imran Ajmain dalam bahasa Melayu, Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang. Hahahaha.. Yucks, ok!

Apapun, saya tujukan video ini kepada anda..

Of Dating And Such

Would you date a guy who wears jersey with a pair of slacks, instead of jeans, when watching MU game at the stadium?

Would you date a guy who uploads super loads of his picture and has an album named "Everybody Loves Me"?

I would. Those are like, the tiniest matter. If he's a decent person with a good, secure job that pays well... why not?

But the moment he shows up with a pair of white pants, he's out for life. Not khakis, but WHITE. Even if I'm dating Brad Pitt, Anuar Zain or Samuel Rizal yg pakai Armani or Burberry sekalipun. No exceptions. It's just too sickening and ugly. Haha.

Sesuka hati nak mengata orang kan? Macam la aku perfect kan? Haha.. of course I know I'm not perfect! I'm way too far from being perfect.

Anyway, the dating story? That's not mine. It's somebody else's. Somebody yg termasuk dalam konteks "everybody-around-me-are-starting-to-have-bfs-and-going-on-dates". I don't have that kind of story ok?! I'm just way too ugly and way too emotional and way too stupid to even have one!

Oh shucks!!! Rasa macam nak menjerit!

My life sucks. And if I can't find a date for Cousin Lin's wedding, I'm cursed for life. Like I said to Pizli, "ayah aku sendiri pun tinggalkan aku. apatah lagi lelaki lain".

Knock You Down

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race but I already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down

Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down

Kalau Takda Duit, Jangan Ke Bandung

Factory Outlet SANGAT banyak. Jalan Dago, Jalan Riau, Jalan Setiabudi... dan pelbagai jalan lagi! Bandung memang champion dalam bab barangan branded yg tiruan, mahupun yg original tapi dah reject dan masih elok.

My favourite is Merdeka FO, opposite Bandung Indah Mall. Pakaian wanita bersaiz besar, original imported brands, sangat lah banyak dengan harga yg sangat membuatkan jantung aku berhenti. Murah!! Maka aku telah menyambar 2 pants & 2 shirts dengan harga lebih kurang RM68.


Jalan Dago memang champion lah. Berderet2 sampai tak larat nak masuk. Jalan Riau ada The Summit yg pada aku best jugak. Jalan Setiabudi ada Rumah Mode yg sangat glamour dan mahal tu. Since kami datang waktu cuti sekolah, maka manusia sangat ramai di sekitar kota Bandung.

Pasar Baru adalah satu2 nya tempat di mana kami semua mendapat hasil tangkapan paling banyak. Kain batik & telekung. Rambang mata! Murah, tapi since duit limited dan digunakan lebih kepada makan... makanya terpaksa aku menggunakan khidmat kad kredit. Terima Kasih, CIMB! =)


Kami semua orang Malaysia yg ngga banyak uang, trus hang out di mall aja. First day malam ke Cihampelas Mall, lepak dan mentakedarah kat JCo Donut. The next day, petang, lepak di Paris Van Java. Di sini terdapat 2 perkara menarik yg perlu di highlightkan:

1. Nampak Samuel Rizal!!! Actor yg belakon dalam movie Eiffel, I'm In Love. OMG he is one VERY HOT human being! Gambar curi2 dari jauh telah diambil dari camera canggih Encik Khairul.

1. Tengok wayang di Blitz Megaplex. Memang tak salah la dinamakan the largest cinema in Indonesia. Besar gila dan spacious, obviously! Kami menonton movie Indonesia bertajuk Punk In Love. SANGAT lucu, sampai gelak tak cukup nafas dan keluar air mata. Takda manusia yg control gelak dalam cinema tu. Semua terbahak2. Oh, kecuali Encik Khairul yg membayar Rp27.000 hanya untuk tidur. Jet lagged balik US tak habis2. Hehehe... Btw, movie tu sangat recommended ya. If korang terjumpa kat black market Msia or download online, sila lah tengok. Thumbs up!

Dari segi makanan, Indonesia memang tak kalah. Kami memilih untuk makan makanan Sunda lebih banyak. 1st day ke Karamba. Kami makan Nasi Timbel, Nasi Liwet dan Gurame kicap? Gurame tu sejenis ikan. Ape-ntah-please-dont-ask-me-nama-ikan. Two thumbs up for gurame.



The 2nd day, for lunch kami ke Kampung Daun. Terletak di kaki bukit, tempat makan adalah di dalam hut dan duduk bersila di atas bantal. Disertakan air terjun dan angin dingin... memang sangat best tempat tu. Kami order Ayam Penyet, Nasi Goreng Kampung Daun, Nasi Pepes Daun Kemangi Sambal Pete & Nasi Kukus Kampung Daun. For dessert, we ordered Surabi pelbagai jenis - pisang, pisang keju, keju & kinca. Surabi ni macam lempeng.


Malam tu kami makan di De Cost Seafood. Makanan 5 bintang, harga kaki 5. Memang betul kata2 tu. Kami berempat makan cumi (sotong) mentega, cumi sambal padang, udang goreng, gurame goreng, ikan patin stim & ketam black pepper. Pak Ade, our driver makan nasi goreng dan tahu goreng. Masing2 beserta air jus dan Aqua sorang sebotol. Nasi unlimited, selesai sepinggan kami tambah lagi. Total hanya Rp203.000, bersamaan dengan RM58 lebih kurang.


3rd day kami lunch di Restoran Simpang Raya. Makan nasi padang pulak. Sambal ijo, dendeng, alpokat... peh! Kelas giler. Murah pun ya. Malam tu kami takde duit dah. Jadi kami lepak di Bandung Indah Mall dan makan Pizza Hut sebab dia leh terima credit card. Kesian kan? Tapi bila bil sampai, tak perlu credit card. Murah je, sorang RM8 lebih kurang. Dapat sorang 4 keping pizza, garlic bread yg banyak dan secawan air berlapis, tak ingat nama. Last layer kaler pink rasa stroberi, middle layer air coke and top layer susu. Syok gak.


Penginapan pula, memang macam kat rumah. Kami tinggal di Evi Guesthouse. Ramai sangat orang Malaysia yg dok kat situ, sebab dalam forum Cari, semua promo tempat tu dan Kak Aina, orang yg bertanggungjawab book kan kami bilik dan transportation. Nyaman udara kat situ, ada kolam ikan koi dan tempat berehat. Bilik ok, selesa dan murah. Makanan breakfast pun sedap. Ibu Evi friendly orangnya, rajin bersembang2 dengan semua tetamunya. Anak Ibu Evi, Irvan, hensem ada iras Yem. Kami duduk bilik berlainan jenis. My room besar, ada 2 katil, cermin dan almari besar dan air-cond. 3 malam di sana harganya Rp600.000 iaitu tak sampai RM200. Bila dah dibahagi 2, lagi ler murah! Recommended jugak guesthouse ni sebab dekat dengan bandar.

Tapi apa je yg tak dekat dengan bandar? Bandung tu compact gila. Dekat2 je semuanya.


Tempat wisata, kami ke Tangkuban Perahu. Ramai sangat penjual barang souvenir di sana. Tapi pemandangan tak secantik Danau Toba dan Bromo. Sejuk pun tak se-sejuk. Tapi ok la. Ambik2 gambar kawah gunung berapi dan lepak2 bersembang dengan penjual souvenir merangkap cameraman.

Kesimpulannya, if tak banyak duit atau nak cari tempat yg banyak culture atau pemandangan cantik2, takyah la gi Bandung. Airport pun kecik dan sempit giler babas. Tapi untuk sapa yg iman tak kuat dan suka bershopping, atau tujuan bisnes... iya, silakan ke Bandung. Memang syok!

Hati aku, seperti biasa lah. Memang tertinggal lagi di Indonesia.

* Catatan Encik Kerol disini