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Wednesday, December 31, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

Ok, masa untuk declare resolutions for 2009. But before that, mau check dulu last year punye. Adakah tercapai? Ahaks..

1. Pegi exercise kalau boleh setiap pagi pada hujung minggu yg free.
[Errr... ade gak la pegi, like, 3 - 5 times througout the year]

2. Beli segala jenis kaler & merialisasikan kepuasan diri dalam bidang coloring. (Read : Saye suke mewarne).
[Done]

3. Go travel! Kurang2 kena sampai rumah Dahlia kat Perak.
[Done]

4. Have a social life.
[Met a bunch of Dee's friends and a small reunion of school friends at a wedding. Kire ok lah.]

5. At least pretend to enjoy meeting new people.
[Done]

6. Find myself a boyfriend.
[Not done, obviously]

Conclusion: It was ok, kebanyakannye done. Hehehe..

Baiklah, untuk tahun 2009 ni, aku bercita2 untuk menyambung apa yang not done last year. Dan add a few more new ones.

1. Pegi exercise kalau boleh setiap pagi pada hujung minggu yg free.
2. Not to have a social life.
3. Not to find myself a boyfriend.
4. Read and stay home more. Talk and go out less. Ignore what others are saying.
5. Bersihkan sebaik mungkin the pimples and scars on my face.
6. Eat & live healthy.
7. At least have RM3k terkumpul by end of the year. (Sikit, I know, tapi kalau letak tinggi nnt tak tercapai pulak. Berpada2 lah kalau nak set target pun kan?)

I think that's about it. I am dead serious about no. 2 & 3 though. Ini serious punye azam, bukan Azamuddin yg-dah-ada-brapa-org-anak-dah-agaknye.

Ok la. Selamat Tahun 2009.

Monday, December 29, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Kinokuniya punya offer skang ni memang best. I bought 3 books for slightly under RM80! Plan nak beli HP and the Half-Blooded Prince, tapi tak nampak bayang pun. Manakala buku Twilight menimbun! So ape lagik. Gua kebas la satu beb.

Dan aku baca balik posting Hafezh haritu. Separuh dari aku setuju dengan wife Hafezh, Nisa, yg kata buku tu tak brapa best. Tapi masalahnye aku baca dengan pantas, and now I can't wait to get to Kino again to buy the 2nd book. Yes, part of me jugak kata buku tu agak addictive.

Tapi kan, aku tak faham apesal Bella macam susah sangat nak lepaskan Edward dari pandangan mata dia. Masa kat sepital after Bella kena attack dengan James tu pun, dia cam panic giler biler Edward cam ckp soh dia gi dok Jacksonville so dia takleh nak harm Bella. Aku sungguh tak paham. Is it mmg semua org becinta akan feel that way? Or is it kalau u becinta dengan vampire je akan jadi macam tu? Macam mengada2 pun ye.

But still, membaca selepas menengok movie mmg lah tak syok.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

I think Khaled Hosseini is a great writer. The Kite Runner is my absolute favorite. Menangis tersedu-sedan masa membaca nye. Tengok movie toksah citer la. Terpaksa stop sbb tak mampu nak mengeluarkan air mata banyak sgt. Both of his novels memberi kesan kepada aku yg emo ini.

Aku suke membaca, tapi aku baca buku yg simple2 jek. Tak macam Hafezh, ofkos. Dia baca stok James Clavell yg tulis Shogun and Tai-Pan.. buku2 tebal umpama dictionary with thesaurus. Or J.R.R Tolkein's Lord Of The Rings yg aku baru baca 2 pages dah pening dengan bahasa nye. Susah btui.

I think the first novel (utk org dewasa, bukan teenage novels) yg aku baca was John Grisham's The Client. I love his novels and continue reading my cousins' novels sebab masa tu skolah lagi, belum ada duit nak beli sendiri. And now that I can afford it, I think his writing has somehow dropped a notch. Yang lama2 best giler, yg baru skang.. siap aku stop halfway. Tapi I will still buy, coz aku dah macam ada a half-collection of his books. In reality, I find lawyers and courtrooms wayyy boring, tapi aku boleh terima pulak citer2 John Grisham ni.

Sekarang ni aku tengah in the process of collecting Jodi Picoult's novels. Citer dia lebih kepada family, love... gituh2 la. Which reminds me of Danielle Steel. I don't read her novels as much. Just synopsys from my auntie jek. Hehehehe.. but I do have 1 of her books, though. Capix bagi. Ape ntah tajuknye.

Cecelia Ahern pun aku suke. At the moment aku tertinggal 2 buku dia - 1 blom sempat nak gi beli, 1 lagi baru kuar hardcover. Tunggu paperback kuar baru bleh beli. Hehehehe... Dia tulis love stories, tapi 2 -3 buku kebelangan ni dia tulis pasal imaginry things. But still ok to me. I still like her. My age, anak Ireland nye President kot?

Other authors aku baca - Sidney Sheldon. The Best Laid Plan is the best! Hehehe.. Sejak buku tu, I read more of his. Sayang dia da mati. Judith McNaught, tulis citer dalam zaman dulu2. Love stories yg sangat indah. Tapi yg baru2 aku da tak baca. Dahlia yg still baca. Her favorite author katanya. Tak lupa jugak Robert Langdon's adventures to solve mysteries in Vatican City. Ahaks. Of course, Dan Brown. I love the two books - Da Vinci Code and Angles and Demons. Yang lain2 tak baca. Digital Fortress baru baca few chapters mcm tak se-best the famous 2.

Sophie Kinsella and Meg Cabot pun dibaca juga. Tapi tak collect, cuma beli 2 -3 jek. Most of 'em dipinjam dari kawan-kawan - Arin dan Jaja. Can You Keep A Secret by Sophie Kinsella telah dibeli dan tidak menyesal langsung. Totally funny. Terpaksa laugh out loud reading it. If I'm in the mood for a chick-lit, I'd definately choose them. Ada a few other authors jugak yg dibeli, but not as good. Tak ingat dah their names. Hehehe..

She's Come Undone pun best. By Wally Lamb. Ingat nak sambung baca his other novels, but biler nampak je the thickness of I Know This Much Is True, aku tarik balik niat aku tu. Seram! Terbalik pulak dengan Mark Haddon. The author of The Curious Incident Of Ohe Dog In The Night-time. Maybe sebab dia banyak tulis Children's books kot? Anyway, I love his website. Bright colors!

Finally, of course, my all-time favorite and books that I read the most number of times, J.K Rowling's famous Harry Potter. I just can't describe how much I love 'em! The books I read once are Half-Blooded Prince and Deathly Hallows. Because takde masa. I have to read others too, right? Banyak kali baca pun, tetap buku pinjam. I only have Sorcerer's Stone, itupun my auntie bagi coz she works in a library kat England sana. Siap ada cop library lagi. Hehehehe.. Slowly lah, aku akan beli satu2. Dan baca balik semua. Yeay!

Recently ada Twilight punye series pulak, by Stephanie Meyer. Tapi aku tak baca lagik. Biler dah kuar movie and I haven't read the novel, buat aku malas untuk membaca nye. So yesterday I googled it, and read all 4 books punye Wiki. Ada section Plot kat situ, which menerangkan from beginning to the end of the books. So I generally have the idea of what's gonna come next. Most probably I won't read them. I still have HP, Cecelia Ahern and Jodi Picoult to buy, tapi tatau la kalau sampai kat Kinokuniya nanti berubah angin plak.

:)

Monday, December 22, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Facebook tanya, "What are you doing right now?"

I am..

Listening to Twilight soundtrack while playing the movie over and over again in my head.
Wishing the movie plot will come true, and Bella is.. well.. Me.
Falling in love with Edward Cullen (not Rob Pattinson) and Shia LaBeouf.
Wanting to catch a movie, but can't think of any other except for Twilight.
Thinking of making pasta.
Listing down activities for the Christmas and Awal Muharram weekend.
Gathering up targets for next year.
Again, falling in love with Edward Cullen.

Eyes on Fire
Blue Foundation

I’ll seek you out,
Flay you alive
One more word and you won’t survive
And I’m not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

I’m taking it slow
Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze

And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace

Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace
Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace

Thursday, December 18, 2008 by scabbers 8 Comments A⁺ a^-

Edward Cullen : Aren't you afraid?
Isabella Swan : I'm only afraid of losing you.

And in the final scene when they're dancing and he kissed her neck, I almost cried.

Awwww~

It's not really THAT good, but ok la. And the stupid cinema had to cut some of the scenes and sometimes what they're saying. Dumbo betul.

Mamat tu takde la hensem sgt dlm movie tu, I like him better as Cedric Diggory. Sebab bedak dia tebal sangat lah! Pale, white skin and red lips? Urgh! Sissy! But masa kat prom tu nampak hensem sket la. Tapi pompuan tu mmg cun. I agree dengan Hafezh. Menarik!

Definately akan download bcoz of the cut scenes, and if ada sequel, probably will download aje jugak. Nasib baik smalam wayang murah. Hehehehe..

Wednesday, December 17, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

No Other Love
John Legend feat Estelle

No other love
No other touch
Gimme gimme oh so much
Turn me on, turn me on

Won’t you please get outta my head
Get back into my bad, now come kiss me, come with me
Cause I can hardly sleep without you, can’t stop thinkin’ bout you girl
I want you, I need you

And I’m ready for love, ready for us to lose control
You know and I know

No other love
No other touch
Gimme gimme oh so much
Turn me on, turn me on

No other kiss
No one like this
Feelin’ like I can’t resist
Turn me on, turn me on

I had my share of lovers
But there is no other girl, your special, now let’s go

Cause love I want you more than ever, want to do whatever now
To keep you , I need you

And I’m ready for love, ready for us to lose control
You know and I know

No other love
No other touch
Gimme gimme oh so much
Turn me on, turn me on

No other kiss
No one like this
Feelin’ like I can’t resist
Turn me on, turn me on

I said you’re turnin’ me on, now
said you’re turnin’ me on
said you’re turnin me on

from your smile to your lips to the words of the song
i know i used to say i was too young
now im grown up
but i got you when you need that strong
real goody, good lovin

Stevie Wonder said it’s been so long
and i’ma give it if you need it
are you ready to receive it?
Boy i wanna give you some love,
wanna give you some love and affection
you got my attention

Monday, December 15, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

Balik from Zul's wedding in Melaka, greeted by my nephews...

Hazeem : Lamanye pegi, ingatkan kawen skali

Syahmi : Anak Nyaii Mah mana boleh kawen. Dia kena tinggi lagi cenggini (sambil menunjukkan the proper height)

Me : * LOL *

Ye, ye. Aku tau aku pendek. This will be my reason if, in case, org tanya why I'm not married.

Thursday, December 11, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Apart from Taufik/Taufiq and Hidayah, I kinda like the name Maryam/Mariam. Ibu Nabi Isa, kan? Yang melahirkan Nabi Isa tanpa bapa, kan?

Ok. So aku dah ada 3 nama anak. Walaupun aku rasa mcm aku takkan kawen, tp at least aku ada nama anak. Hahahahaha.. giler la weiiiii. Ah lantakla. Janji aku suke nama-nama tu. Mana lah tau kan...

Kalo zaman skang ni, orang mesti kata nama Maryam tu cam zaman dulu. Tapi takpe, janji makna nye bagus dan hopefully orangnye pun berkualiti (eh bleh ke?). "Nama itu doa... berilah yg terbaik".

Sebenarnye nama Omar/Umar pun aku suke jugak. Tapi tahap suke aku tak setanding dengan 3 nama yg sebelum ni. So, tak masuk list aaa... lagipun nanti ade satu sperm tu perasan over plak. Anak Pizli takpe lagi. Sejuk hati Pizli ngan Liza harapnye.

Anyway, enuff about names. I'm on diet. Starting today. Not just a regular reduce-weight diet, but caffeine diet. So I'm cutting down my coffee/nescafe/tea intake, and also chocolates. I had "soya suam kurang manis" for lunch just now, ok. How it sucks! Kurangkan ais pun ye. Terasa macam sinus menjadi2. Dah 8 hari aku dok selsema. Habuk di sekeliling aku nih menjadikan hidung aku gatal2. Smalam macam ada terbaca pasal ice ni, sbb tu aku start kurangkan.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008 by scabbers 8 Comments A⁺ a^-

Aku ada some sickness yg affects between 1 and 2% of the population sahaja. WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY embarrassing. No, it's not my allergy to habuk yg membuatkan muke aku penuh jerawat. Although, that is embarrassing jugak, to continue living dengan huge zits on the face yg membuatkan manusia nak muntah biler tengok aku.

Anyway, I found this community website yg membantu orang-orang seperti aku kat Malaysia. There is a permanent way of ending the sickness, but at a cost of RM9000. And its a surgery. So terpaksala aku hanya prektis tips2 lain yg diberikan. Unless ada org nak belanja aku sampai 9k, dan aku tak takot mati, aku akan buat surgery tu.

So I actually understand kenapa aku tak suke bersosial dan aku bujang sampai skang. Aku memang tak cantik.

Kalo Pizli baca ni, confirm dia akan cakap dia benci aku cakap cenggini. Ha benci la Pizli. Takpe. Orang tak cantik mcm aku nih mmg dibenci oleh masyarakat.

:P

Wednesday, December 03, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Awek depan aku ni baik jugak orangnye. Masa first day kiteorg kat sini, dia bagitau aku plug tu da rosak, takleh guna. Pastu dia explen kat aku cemana nak gi surau. Dia pun vendor jugak. Handle system ape pun aku taktau.

Orangnye cantik. Kurus, kecik2, putih gebu, kulit bersih takde jerawat... mmg cun la kirenye. Tapi dia tak tinggi. My height je la. Tengok gaya pun ok jek. Pakai jam swatch skin yg aku dok usha satu ketika dulu. Baju2 pun takde la nampak exclusive giler, tp ok la.. normal utk orang melayu. Nampak mcm sebaya aku je. Dari cara dia cakap, jalan.. mcm baik2 je budaknye. Sopan aaa. Pakai tudung.

Biasanya dia dtg awal dari aku. Tapi pagi tadi aku tgh jalan dari parking nak ke ofis, dia drive masuk. Owh.. pakai Swift kaler merah ok! Comel giler. So aku terus rasa minah ni mcm perfect la. Aku bet gaji dia dah kurang2 3k da kot. At least. Untung betul boifren dia.

Mana aku tau dia ada bf? Huhuhuhu... Sebab kadang2 ada org call (ringtone Alicia Keys - No One) dan dia akan duduk senyap kat seat dia. Sebenarnye dia bercakap, tp berbisik.. sgt perlahan sampai aku tak dengo. Biasa la kot utk org bercinte. Hahahaha...

Aku dah la terasa sungguh kecil selama nih. Now I feel even smaller.

Monday, December 01, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Pizli punya weekend memuaskan, begitu jugak dengan aku. Starting betul2 pukul 12tengah malam hari Jumaat (Sabtu pagi zero-hour).

Pegi melepak kat Old Town dengan Zul. Pastu makan Mekdi sampai kol 3 pagi. The next day, tengah hari pegi Tasik Perdana (yeke? yg kat Cheras tu). Sampai2 je disambut oleh seekor itik yg sedang makan rumput dengan releks nye.

Plan nye nak tengok sukan kanak2 kurang upaya kat stadium bola tu, tapi Cousin Yati (person in-charge of Johor nye kontijen) kata sampai noon je. Diaorg sumer da balik hotel. So I stayed kat park, berbual2 dengan itik. Nasib baik bawak buku cerita. So duduk bawah pokok yg rendang, matahari pun sepoi2 bahasa, sambil menikmati keindahan alam. An hour later, aku gi hotel to pickup Cousin Yati and her family. Nak ikut budak2 OKU Johor pegi Zoo!!

Hooray! Cita2 aku untuk gi ke Zoo skali lagi telah tercapai. Takde la sedih sgt sbb kena pegi sorang. Instead, pegi dengan budak2 special nih best pulak tengok gelagat diaorg. Kegembiraan tergambar pada wajah mereka. Cewah! Budak tak budak jugak la diaorg. Yang paling tua 28 tahun, ok. Bulu mata tebal. Bleh tahan gak la budak dia. Nama dia Osman. Tapi paling good-looking dia nye athlete harapan, Bakar. Senyum je dalam apa keadaan, walaupun bila diajukan soalan seperti: Bakar sukan tadi main ape?

Ye, dia akan tetap akan senyum tanpa berkata2. Cousin Midi kata dia tu slow budaknya. Slow2 pun, lari tetap laju! Ucup paling comel, sebab dia banyak senyum dan dia pakai bedak tebal. Budaknye pun ramah. Biler ditegur, akan menjawab dengan penuh kelembutan. Dia ada down-syndrome. Ada 2 Chinese girls yg mana dua2 menang tempat pertama dan kedua dalam acara lumba lari.

Di celah2 tu ada jugak kawan2 Cousin Yati yg lelaki, muda dan hensem. Ahaks. Tapi sorang dah kawen, sorang dah ada serious gf and the other one aku tersalah anggap ingat dia OKU jugak. Sorry, brader!!! :)

It was fun, dapat tengok monyet, zirafah, gajah, dan yg paling best... Gloria!!! a.k.a badak sumbu. Besar giler!!!!! Dapat tengok diaorg mandi, makan, menguap, minum dan tak lupa aktiviti yg paling diminati oleh Dahlia - berak. Ekekekeke...

Sunday morning aku heret Mummy & Makton pegi tengok Special Olympics budak2 tu. A few years back negeri Johor ada buat sukan kat Muar, Cousin Nur duduk tepi padang sambil menangis tengok budak2 tu main. Ekekeke... Aku ni bukan takde hati perut, tp takde la aku nak menangis. Sebab diaorg happy. Acara lumba lari ada 8 orang masuk, 8-8 la digelar "pemenang" dan semua akan dapat medal. Fair & square.

Best jugak skali skala habiskan weekend kat tempat selain shopping center. Tapi pegi gak CM beli beg & Kotaraya beli t-shirt. Ahaks! Sunday late evening pegi lagi park sbb nak tengok itik.

From now on, aku akan make sure aku pegi visit itik on weekends yg mana aku free dan tak balik Muar. I miss you, itik.

:)

Thursday, November 27, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

I don't have to LIKE my life, I just have to GO ON with it.

Sunday, November 23, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just saw my old crush from Muar. Kat Campbell. Dia dengan pompuan yg tak cun pon! Dia still cute, walaupun dah ada jambang (Dia bagitau Mummy dia sambung blaja kat Mesir).

Aku sangat tekejut nampak dia. Aku tenung lama nak make sure betul ke dia nih. Dia nampak Mummy kot (I dont think dia kenal aku sbb aku pakai tudung & specks) sampai dia ter slip nak terjatuh. Tapi dia tak tegur sbb Mummy tak prasan masa mula2. Aku rasa dia saja mengelak kot. Sebab dia and Mummy baik gak. Pernah la bersembang, tak mcm dengan aku. Pandang pun tidak.

:(

Oh sedihnya hidup ini!!!!

Tapi whatever la. Janji aku nampak dia. Last aku nampak dia masa Form 5 ok!!!! Bayangkan. Sbb tu aku tenung dia lama tadi.

OMG! OMG! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, November 17, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Aisar telah men-tag aku. Post ini untuk tatapan kau, Aisar. Dengan pesanan... "Biler mau jumpa weh? Macam la ko dok kat Penang..."

1. Berapa Kali Anda Benar Benar Jatuh Cinta? Dan Siapa Paling Meninggalkan Kesan Dalam Hati Anda?

Tak pernah jatuh cinta. Seriously, never. Ever.

2. Siapa Dan Berapa Lama?

No answer.

3. Kenangan Paling Manis/Romantik Anda Dengan Mereka? Kenapa?

No answer.

4. Kenangan Duka Anda Dengan Mereka? Kenapa?

No answer.

5. Perkara Terbaik Yang Anda Pernah Lakukan Pada Mereka?

No answer.

6. Perkara Tak Elok Anda Pernah Lakukan Pada Mereka?

No answer.

7. Jika Di Beri Pilihan Dari Kisah Cinta Anda, Siapa Yang Anda Inginkan?

No answer.

8. Anda Berjaya Mendapatkan Beliau?

No answer.

9. Jika Dia Berada Di Hadapan Mata Anda Sekarang, Apakah Yang Anda Ingin Katakan?

No answer.

10. Bilakah Kali Terakhir Anda Menangis Kerana Cinta?

No answer.

Wahai Aisar, bukan aku takmau balas tag kau. Sibuk pun bukan lah alasan nya. Tapi itu adalah jawapan yg betul. Tiada tipu, tiada sembunyi. I've never been in love. Nope. Dah nak masuk 27 tahun dah. Sekali pun tak pernah.

* Tiba2 rasa sedih utk diri sendiri sbb takde experience.

Monday, November 17, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

It's been 2 weeks since I last parked at RM3 per day. And that's how long I have been dealing with a bit sombong nye adik-jaga-parking. I haven't seen Dee and drink Nescafe-o ais yg kaw @ Bestari. And the flea market!

I miss Mont Kiara.

:(

...but yg bestnya I get to reach office in 20 minutes and minyak RM50 tahan sampai 2 minggu.

:)

Thursday, November 13, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

9:15:00 pm

"Home sweet home.. hooray! u bought me dinner!"

9:45:00 pm

"Can I go online?"

9:50:00 pm

...downloading final part of Lipstick Jungle S02E06 at about 30kb/s

11:15:00 pm

"What? baru 60%? Takpa, I'll finish up work while waiting"

12:08:03 am

...98% completed. 13seconds remaining

12:08:04 am

Streamyx service went down.
@!#$@$%$^%&*$%$#@!(&*%^#@!!$#$%#$

12:10:05 am

"It's ok, I'll just download it again"

12:42:16 am

...sudah tidak berdaya untuk marah atau memaki hamun. tired la.

Sunday, November 09, 2008 by scabbers 3 Comments A⁺ a^-

Why do u choose the weekend to renovate your toilet, which is really REALLY just next to mine????!!!I've seen you on weekdays, on normal working hours, at home. So why not do it then???

WHY DO U HAVE TO CHOOSE THE WEEKEND, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want some peace and quiet, but you go and make damn loud noises and shake my house up? If you tear my part of the house, I swear I will poke your damn eyes with my bare hands!

THERE IT GOES AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuckin idiot.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008 by scabbers 7 Comments A⁺ a^-

I love KLCC but I don't think I wanna work there. Nearby, but I tell ya... DO NOT take Putra lrt to work. YOU'LL DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But if you were to drive, parking costs RM10 per day. The cheapest. Since I'll be there for only 2 weeks disebabkan kerja, I'll just drive dan wave my 10ringgit to the parking boy like one of those mak datins. Konon murah dan mampu la. Padahal end of the month bleh claim. Ekekekeke... Makes me appreciate Mont Kiara dan Hartamas. Much cheaper. Makan maybe a lil bit cheaper in KLCC laaa... but then, terlalu ramai manusia yg kerja kat area situ dan kedai makan terlalu sempit.

Ye, aku memang banyak komplen.

Sebenarnye nak cakap satu mende jek. I REALLY suck at my job. I suck real bad, I'm like the worst in the world. Seriously.

Kalau la aku berani tak ikup cakap Mummy & balik Muar kerja kerani. Life would be much much and so much more easier, safer and peaceful-ler.

:P

Saturday, November 01, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Time is almost up.

Goodbye peace. Hello friend.

:(

Shoutout kepada Cousin Mung yg telah berjaya menamatkan PhD nye. And now she's Dr. Mung. Wow. Best gile.

Congratulations!

Contoh perbualan 1:

Mummy : Doctor ada kat rumah ni..

Jihan : Huh? Doctor Chua?

Mummy : Hahaha.. Doctor Mung la!

Contoh perbualan 2:

Manjib : Tadi singgah jumpa doctor dulu.

Jihan : Oh, jumpa Doctor Chua?

Manjib : Hahaha... Bukan.. Doctor Mung la!

Contoh perbualan 3:

Syami : Anutie Mung bila nak pegi hospital?

* Ahaks! * ;))

Tuesday, October 28, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Pada suatu hari yang tenang, aku bercita2 untuk membeli telefon bimbit. Kerana sudah tidak tahan kasihan melihat ibuku yang hanya memakai 3310 yg aku beli di waktu kolej kire2 8 tahun lalu. Maka, akhirnya cita2 ku tercapai juga. Akan tetapi aku tidak dapat membeli hp idaman kerana ia berharga rm1500++. Aku hanya membeli telefon keluaran tahun lepas dan berwarna merah. Namun aku berpuas hati kerana pada suatu ketika dahulu aku pernah jatuh hati kat telefon ni. Ahaks. Bukan itu saje, aku jugak dapat membeli seluar corduroy yg sejak dulu nak beli tak sempat2. Padahal bukan mahal pun. Kat Pertama Kompleks aje la katakan... Tapi, seluar tu besar kat bawahnye so later nak kena pi alter lagik. Kesian org gemok pendek mcm aku nih, susah bebenor nak carik seluar murah yg I can fit right in.

Pada suatu malam yang sibuk, aku telah membawa keluarga pergi beraya ke rumah Auntie Zaleha di Ukay Perdana. Dia nak pi Bandung la pulak next month. Nak ikot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Next year dia nak pi China. Dia soh aku kumpul duit jadi bleh ikut dia. Kalo nak ke China, tiket jek lebih kuang 2k. Hotel, travel, shopping lagik.. kire2 aku perlukan 5k untuk betul2 puas hati. Kalo cenggitu brapa aku kena simpan sebulan? 500? Giler! Ingat aku nih cop duit ke hape? Dapat simpan 50hengget sebulan pun dah cukup betuah! Pastu dia citer plan dia dan kakaknye untuk ke New Zealand. Dia soh aku ikut jugak. "Tak mahal, 6 ribu aje untuk tiket. U kumpul la duit, pastu bleh ikut Auntie.." Oh Auntie, saye nih 26 tahun, baru nak mula hidup... takpelah, maybe when I'm your age, I'll go. Provided aku kaya raya macam dia, dan tak kawen.

Pada suatu pagi yg suram, tekak aku sakit. Seakan2 ada lump. Juga agak kegatalan dan membuat aku terbatuk2 kecil sepanjang pagi. Oh tidak, aku harap aku tidak akan demam lepasni. Dah banyak sangat MC aku amik this year. Sungguh memalukan.

Friday, October 24, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

I am now 3 times bigger than what I used to be in high school. No, I kid you not.

THREE TIMES BIGGER!

In other words, I am now damn fat! My acne problem pun masih macam tu jugak. Of course bertambah teruk dari zaman sekolah dulu. I am now 26 and nobody wants me. I like to play with children tapi bila semua kawan2 citer pasal anak masing2 and what they do, lagi aku rasa mcm aku taknak anak. And of course, taknak kawen.

Life is getting more and more dpressing. And I eat when I'm depress.

No wonder aku gemok giler babs skang ni.

Can I just say that I hate myself?

Wednesday, October 22, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

1. Kesian la tengok Thaksin. I don't follow the news. At all. Dalam negara, apetah lagi luar negara. Jadi aku tatau la citer dia sebelum2 ni. Tapi aku kesian tengok muke dia kat sok kabo harini...

Agaknye kalo Thaksin tengok muke sedih aku kat sok kabo... dia sedih tak eh?

2. What I miss the most is reading Harry Potter books. If only citer dia tak abih lagi.. mesti sekarang ni tengah berdebar2 nak menunggu the next book comes out, untuk tau more secrets to be revealed. Dan dia nye adventure and magic!

Dulu aku berharap Harry Potter will never end. But it did. And it sucks.

3. Dexter, from the TV series Dexter, proposed to his gf! OMG! Sungguh tak sabar untuk menunggu siri minggu hadapan.

Inilah hobi saya sekarang. Men download TV series dan menengoknye. Dexter Season 3, Lipstick Jungle Season 2, Entourage Season 5, Chuck Season 2 and Heroes Season 3.

Life's good ;)

4. Apesal aku dok type "saya" as "sayang"? Dah brapa kali dah ni... Rasa pun mcm nak pegi dating. Tapi tula, yg tak bestnye... satu manusia yg eligible pun tak muncul.

Balik rumah basuh baju aje la jawabnye :(

Monday, October 20, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

What to do when you are alone at home?

1. Invite friends over for a party.
2. Make a whole lot of mess.
3. Bring your bf home for a sleepover.
4. Take a bath with the bathroom door wide open.
5. Do the silly dance move in the hall.
6. Talk to yourself loudly.
7. Walk around naked.
8. Watch x-rated movies on the big screen tv.
9. Leave your journal on the table.
10.Read, relax and enjoy the moment..

Wednesday, October 15, 2008 by scabbers 3 Comments A⁺ a^-

pizli: aku baru nak tulis nnt kalau aku dah jadi rappers kau takdela minat aku ye?

Nur: eh. skang aku minat kau ke? hahahaha

pizli: babi punya statement hahahah

Monday, October 13, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Tak suke! Tak suke! TAK SUKE...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, October 09, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Waking Life
Schuyler Fisk

Lagu kegemaran saya buat masa sekarang. Sebenarnye nak letak lagu dia yg lain, tp tak jumpa mp3. Dok dengar kat website dia jek.. Kalau ada sape2 yg dapat download mp3 of her songs, tlg fwd kat aku ok? Thanks! :D

Tuesday, October 07, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

Ingat nak buat post raya harini tapi mood kena cancel dengan cerita Zul. Aku memang emo, nak wat cemana. Memang off terus lah mood aku harini. Dia ajak jumpa pun takmau.

Skang aku da terpaksa cool off dengan mendengar lagu2 dari movie Penelope.

Kalau aku bleh campak dia dlm sungai Muar, memang aku buat skang.

Saturday, September 27, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

When I look at him, my heart skips a beat. When his eyes burn into mine, I stop breathing. And when he speaks, beautiful words come out of his mouth and I get confused. Should I melt to the ground or should I fly off to the clouds?

Yes, yes. I'm in love.

"I'm not lost, just looking for the prince
I’m taking it, one step at a time and I’m getting by
By the way, It’s you on my mind,
It’s you on my mind"

- Schuyler Fisk (Waking Life)

Friday, September 26, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Maaf Zahir Batin.

* berhati2 di jalan raya
* jangan main mercun
* jemputlah datang rumah
* kenang daku dalam doa mu

Tuesday, September 23, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Thursday, September 18, 2008 by scabbers 6 Comments A⁺ a^-

Aku tak makan limpa, hati, perut dan segala organ dalaman... kecuali daging. Aku tak makan kerang, lala, kupang dan yg sewaktu dengannya. Seafood cuma makan ikan, sotong dan ketam aje. Laksa yg boleh dihadam hanya laksa johor dan singapore. Laksa utara, laksam dan yg lain2 aku takleh nak bau pun. Same goes to tomyam. Maaf, tp kalau bau kuat mmg aku muntah. Kekacang pun kureng. Serunding kelapa, sambal belacan dan daun2 ulam tu sumer tak cuit. Udang kalau ada kulit pun, sangat malas untuk memakannya.

Kalau lelaki tu tak pandai, takpe. Tapi jangan tak beriman. Kalau tak puasa dan hisap rokok sesuka hati, buang sampah atau meludah merata.... jangan lah ade hati untuk mengurat. Kalau lawak nye lawak bodo, no way. Kalau kerja biasa jawatan tak tinggi pun takpa. Jangan kerja tak seberapa, tp malas asyik curi tulang dan suke mengutuk orang lain. Kalau ada motor takpe, for the time being. Keluar dating dia naik moto, aku naik keta. Kalau pakai seluar putih, cancel. Kalau rambut cacak2, pakai baju belang2 dan pakai spek itam dalam supermarket sama bedak tebal dan bau perfume sebatu jauhnye, cancel. Kalau sangat menjaga kecantikan lebih dari pompuan, cancel. Kalau tak hensem, takpe. Jangan tak hensem tapi suke mengutuk keadaan fizikal orang lain. Kalau hensem, taknak. Aku sedar aku tak cun. Tak sesuai la.

Kalau kawan... baik... takleh. Kalau kawan biasa... probably. Kalau classmate, takmau. Kalau anak kepada kawan keluarga, taknak. Yang into music or movies or books or cars, boleh. Yang into politics... no way.

* Eh takdelah. Mana de aku memilih?!

Friday, September 12, 2008 by scabbers 3 Comments A⁺ a^-

While I was driving to work this morning, a cargo train passed by. It reminded me of the time when our train arrived in KL early Monday morning, on that same track, a few years ago. (Although we were in a decent KTM, and not cargo). I miss Langkawi with IMU friends. Good times, babe.

I think we should organize a holiday, back to Langkawi. All of us. You guys bring your husbands and wives and children, and I'll bring my cats and kittens.

Whatever.

But think of it. It must be fun, yea?

While I plan out in my head the activities we can have on our "holiday" (inverted commas means imaginary as I know my friends and how difficult they are to even come for a minum-minum session), I'd like to dedicate a shoutout to the man who-bumped-gently-on-my-car-yesterday-and-didn't-say-sorry.

Dear Sir,

May you rot in hell with your dumbass ego.

Regards,
- insert name here -

Thursday, September 04, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Saye nak berjalan dalam hujan tanpa sebarang gangguan.

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Sebenarnya hati ini cinta kepada Mu
Sebenarnya diri ini rindu kepada Mu
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa cinta masih tak hadir
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa rindu belum berbunga

Sesungguhnya walau ku kutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau ku siram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langit Mu
Namun cinta tak kan hadir
Namun rindu takkan ber bunga

Ku cuba menghulurkan
Sebuah hadiah kepada Mu
Tapi mungkin kerana isinya
Tidak sempurna tiada seri

Ku cuba menyiramnya
Agar tumbuh dan berbunga
Tapi mungkin kerana airnya
Tidak sesegar telaga kauthar

Sesungguhnya walau ku kutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau ku siram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langit Mu
Namun cinta tak kan hadir
Namun rindu tak akan berbunga
Jika tidak mengharap rahmat Mu
Jika tidak menagih simpati
Pada Mu ya Allah

Tuhan hadiahkanlah kasih Mu kepadaku
Tuhan kurniakanlah rinduku kepada Mu
Moga ku tahu
Syukur ku hanyalah milik Mu

Wednesday, September 03, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

"Mana ada gua amik mahal. Lu tak kesian gua ke? Gua sudah tua tau. Umur sudah 70", kata Ah Keng, my tailor.

"Whoa... yeke? Banyak kuat la. Nampak muda", kata Mummy.

"Oh shoot! What if she dies? Mana aku nak carik tukang jahit baru? Aisehmen...", kata aku dalam hati.

Either aku kena kurangkan penempahan buat baju kurung, or start hantar kat orang2 baru for the search of the ultimate tailor.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Alhamdulillah...

At last! Dapat gak degree. Walaupun tak seberapa terrer mcm kawan2 lain yg masuk U terkemuka serata dunia. Dulu kat BMI convo cam biasa2 jek... smalam kat PWTC, dahtu ada gaknye seribu orang yg terima ijazah. 1st time beb. Merasa jugak...

Pics

Wednesday, August 20, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Uncle yg rajin bawak jenjalan dan amik berat pasal aku punye progress in life dah meninggal. Makton sakit kaki & takleh datang ke convocation aku. Oh well...

Convocation is no big deal kan? Kalau tak pegi pun takpe kan? Bukannye macam special day sangat pun kan? Kalau pegi convo sorang2 takde sape nak join skali pun kire takde hal la kan? Lagipun bukannye mcm gambar convo aku nak diletak kat rumah. Baik letak gambar Mawi dgn gambar Cousin Sophie nye graduation.

Ok. Takde masalah. Aku pun slalu lupa aku kena gi convo. Takpe.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Ape org pompuan citer dalam surau?

- Perihal anak2 dan keluarga
- Kerja

Itu dua topic yg slalu aku dengar kat surau sini. Kalau aku dgn Dee masuk, akan timbul lah topic kat-mana-nak-makan-mlm-ni, shopping, gossip pasal gf-bf ala The Hills.

Kalau aku pegi dengan kakak ofis sebelah ni, kami akan bercerita tentang traveling. Sebab kalau dia citer pasal husband dgn anak dia je aku tatau nak jawab ape. Tapi haritu kakak ni citer hantu kat ofis plak. Cis!

Monday, August 18, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Dapat 2 free tickets to Pesta Malam Indonesia 2 in Bukit Kiara. Ada 6 bands semuanya dan best2 plak tu. Tapi since takut dan malas nak dok sana lama2, me & Mummy pegi kol 7 sampai kol 10 je. We saw Ungu and Peterpan.

YES!!!!

And I'm in love...with Ungu nye frontman, Pacha. Comelnye mak aihhhh... There's this one time dia nyanyi without the music, lagu melayu kot.. sedap gile! Tapi aku lagi suke Ariel from PeterPan punye nyanyian. Lagi serious dan sedap. Bab music, Ungu lagi best.

The last song I heard from PeterPan sebelum aku balik was Tak Ada Yang Abadi. From their latest album, baru few weeks release? Anyway, lagu tu sedih jugak. Dengar live, dibawah sinaran bulan kat tengah2 padang masa tu... wow...

Blom jumpa source utk download mp3 nye lagi. So now tgh addicted to that song, ada kat youtube. Lagu yg mendodoi kan aku tido.... hehehe..

Tak kan selamanya
Tanganku mendekapmu
Tak kan selamanya
Raga ini menjagamu

Seperti alunan detak jantung ku
Tetap bertahan melawan waktu
Dan semua keindahan
Yang memudar
Atau cinta yang telah hilang

Tak ada yang abadi
Tak ada yang abadi
Tak ada yang abadi
Tak ada yang abadi

Oh biarkan aku bernafas
Segera sebelum hilang
Tak kan selamanya
Tanganku kan mendekapmu
Tak kan selamanya
Raga ini menjagamu
Jiwa yang lama segera pergi
Bersiaplah para pengganti

Tak ada yang abadi
Tak ada yang abadi
Tak ada yang abadi
Tak ada yang abadi

Sunday, August 17, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Kat mana aku leh dapat lelaki untuk end-of-year fling?

Bosan giler!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Company Team Building in Cherating turned out to be quite a blast. The games were fun, and so were the trainers. Aku rasa baru ni aku betul2 baik dan berbual dengan semua orang ofis. Especially the bosses.

Hotel tak best. Makanan kat hotel tak best. Tolong jangan pegi ke Sanctuary Resort Hotel, ok. Dan jangan amik bilik no. 01 in whichever floor pun, sbb bilik2 tu tak di maintain dgn baik dan maybe ada penunggu nya.

Apart from that, semua nya bagus. Walaupun aku tak masuk pool, but I'm happy with the sea water. Monday morning takde orang, matahari pun segan nak keluar. So it wasn't hot when I took my long walk at the beach. Berenang beramai2 (dgn the French guy too, ok!) pun tak sun-burnt sangat.

And now, otot aku sumer sengal2 sebab dah lama tak exercise tetiba kena lari2 kat sana. Gambar, click sini.

Friday, August 08, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

I like Japanese. I like the way they walk, the way they bow, the way they talk, and especially the way they speak English. Very cute accent.

But they don't appear no. 1 on my list. Indonesians win. The women are beautiful, the men are macho and good looking too. I like their language, and the way they speak English dengan accent Jawa yg kuat. And best of all, they have the best food and kain batik.

I am simply obsessed with everything Indonesia. Harap2 jodoh aku dengan orang sana.

Nasi padang rules!!!!

Tuesday, August 05, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Had a long phone conversation with Zul, who is finally back in Malaysia for good. Baru sedar, rindu giler! It was almost like those times back then. Rasa macam nak pecut ke Shah Alam pegi melepak dgn dia.

I wish KL is a small town like Muar. From my house to his cuma amik masa 2-3 minit je.

Thursday, July 31, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Masa Bapak meninggal dulu, aku dah rasa mcm nak balik Muar. Tapi aku tak balik. Masa Manji meninggal haritu, perasaan nak call dan pegi visit tu ada, tp tak strong sgt. Tapi asyik bz je, pending sana sini.. sampai tak dapat call terus dah skang.

So pasni, kalau aku ada rasa nak balik.. aku akan balik. Rasa nak visit family aku, aku akan pegi. Aku tak kire ada duit ke tak. Kalau nak call, aku akan call. Tak kire aku ada credit ke tak.

Kalau kawan2 tiba2 dapat call/msg dari aku.. reply la. Aku tgh rindu kat korang la tu. Aku cepat rindu kat orang la... Kalau dah sampai masuk mimpi lagi critical.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

27th July 2008. My Kelisa's 4th birthday. My Uncle Manji passed away.

Dekat kol 3pm ptg Ahad, I received a call from Mummy, cakap semua nak gi Temerloh sbb Manji masuk hosiptal. Sesak nafas. Tapi nak singgah KL dulu tukar keta ngan aku. So I waited for more instructions. Around 4pm, I called home again. Yati picked up the phone. Aku tanya diaorg da betolak ke belum... then Yati broke the news to me.

Manji dah takda. Dah meninggal.

Berkali2 aku tanya Yati. Tak percaya. Tak boleh terima. Last2 aku menangis jugak depan Zaila yg tgh wat keje kat rumah aku haritu. Dina dah panic tgk aku nangis. I told her, of course. Memang unexpected. Manji takde sakit ape, cuma condition kaki dia je. And of course, dia berbadan besar... so bila dia jalan jauh sket tercungap2 lah... tu aje. So memang tak sangka.

Jenazah dibawa balik ke Muar kol 5.30 dari Temerloh. Around 10pm sampai. Sampai aku nampak jenazah Manji, aku tak pasti aku dah boleh terima ke belum. Tapi sayu nye hati time tu takleh nak cakap. Bila bukak nak tengok muka, lagi tak boleh tahan. Masa jenazah nak di pindahkan dari atas stretcher ke atas tilam, Manpik (youngest brother yg sangat rapat dgn Arwah) nak tolong, tapi takboleh tahan sedih... terduduk terus dia kat tepi tu.

Aku tak sempat nak cium Manji for the last time. Air mata aku takleh stop. Or maybe aku takut. Bikmuna, wife Manji pun kol 4 pagi baru aku jumpa dia, salam. Aku takut. Takut ape? Aku tatau.

The next morning sambil baca Tahlil, aku tengok jenazah yg terbaring depan aku tu. I kept thinking and wishing Manji akan bangun dan gelak2. Saying ni semua joke semata2. Manji kan kelakar orangnye. Tapi sampai habis takda apa berlaku. Baru aku sedar yg memang Manji dah pergi selamanya.

Kebumi kat kawasan kubur Batu 6 kat Bakri. Sama kawasan dgn Arwah Bapak. Cuma seksyen lain. Aku tak siram air mawar. Adik bradik, kawan-kawan & cucu-cucu saje yg buat. Walaupun cucu tu ada yg masih blom faham betul lagi konsep mati. Bila dah sudah, Bikmuna & Manpik duduk kat tepi kubur, ucap selamat tinggal for the last time. Memang sangat sebak tengok. Lepas kebumi, kami ziarah ke kubur Arwah Bapak & Arwah Tapa (abg Mummy yg aku tak kenal).

Pasni Manpik dah takde geng. Takde lagi gelak besorrrrr Manji waktu tgh buat joke lepas habis makan. Takde lagi uncle yg confuse, marah aku kalau keluar dgn lelaki and at the same time marah aku sbb tak carik boifren. Takde lagi sms2 jokes kat hp aku.

Agak menyesal gak sbb dah lama sgt tak jumpa or even call tanya kabar. The last time I spoke to him was the day after Lin tunang. Aku call sbb nak bagi instruction utk dia install Photoshop. Niat nak call, nak pegi visit mmg ada... tp asyik pending aje. Lately asyik bz dgn kerja, apetah lagi bila weekend.

Oh well. Ape yg dah jadi, kite takleh nak ubah. Yang kita boleh buat hanya sedekah kan doa dan bacaan untuk roh nya....

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Aku tau yg meninggal ni uncle. Dan pada org, kebiasaannye mmg takde perasaan lah. Sebab dah jauh pertaliannya. Dan some people mmg tak rapat pun dengan their extended family.

So nobody gets it lah. Not unless you're me or part of my family. Unless you know how close I am with my family. Or unless you've lost somebody yg kau sayang.

Saturday, July 26, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Tiap kali pelakon Entourage keluar kat tv, jantung aku berdebar. Adrian Grenier toksah citer la. Memang sejak azali lagik. Skang nih Jeremy Piven plak. Dia sangat best dan kelako dalam Entourage. Walaupun dia asyik curse aje, tp aku suke gak character dia. Hehehe...

Sangat tak sabar tunggu season 5 kuar this September! More Ari Gold. Yeay!!

Monday, July 21, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

I miss Medan.

Although the city SANGAT tak teratur. I miss the beautiful Danau Toba, the cool breeze of Brastagi and the to-die-for food at Garuda Restaurant.

Or maybe i miss the friendliness of Rahmat, our taxi driver cum tourist guide, Afandy, the security guard at Sun City Plaza, the not-yet-married salesguy @ the batik shop.

"Beli satu untuk mak mertua nya"

"Tak ada mak mertua. Saya belum berkahwin"

"Oh, boleh dikasi kain sama ibu saya... Saya pun belum berkahwin"

LOL!

If I'm rich, I'd probably go there every month just to have a rest in Brastagi. Sejuknye sedap betul! Jagung bakar bersalut sambal yang enak, beserta pemandangan yg cantik... I could live there.

Nasi Padang kat Garuda sangat sedap! Nasi Ayam Pop from Padang Raya pun syok gak. Nasi Soto pun bleh tahan. Bika Ambon, Lapis Legit & Bolu Gulung dari syarikat Zulaikha tu malas lah nak cakap lagi. Asal berkaitan makan je, takda yg tak sedap.

Hopefully pasni ada peluang lagi untuk ke Indonesia. Nak bawak Mummy & Makton ke Pulau Jawa pulak, tanah kelahiran Arwah Bapak. Hehehe....

For more pictures, tgk kat Arin nye Flickr. Click sini.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Tgh drive balik, ternampak kawasan UM. Teringat masa blaja OUM. Rindu rasa nak balik ke UIA pagi2 pegi kelas jumpa kawan2. Rindu nak masuk UM sebab nak sit for exam. Seriously.

On the way lagi, azan Maghrib berkumandang. Teringat suasana di Tanah Suci. Rindu rasa nak ke sana lagi. Bila la agaknya.... Harap2 ada la peluang, insyaAllah.

Midnight, tgh stuck dgn kerja dan teringat nak makan ubat sebelum tido. Tiba2 teringat Mummy. Rindu rasa nak tido ngan Mummy. Padahal Mummy ada ni kat KL tgh tido dalam bilik.

Apsal cam mellow semacam jek ni? Apsal rasa cam nak nangis jek? Atau cuma sbb aku belum sihat betul2? Atau nak period kah? Masa aku dah nak habis ke?

Nampak accident kat highway haritu. Baru jek berlaku, 2 org polis baru habis letak kon atas jalanraya. Satu mayat berdarah2 belum tutup lagi. Satu lagi, alive but unconscious dengan kepala berdarah, sedang diheret ke tepi jalan. Mat motor terpele'ot kat tengah jalan belum ada siapa yg selamatkan.

Tak insaf lagi ke, cik kak?

* gulp!

Tuesday, July 08, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

This is the WORST song ever! Urghhh.... serious sakit telinga nak dengar. Dah la music, video semua berterabur... suara tak kena langsung dgn Vanessa Hudgens.

Simply ugly.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Sejak kebelakangan ni banyak sgt kerja dan keputusan perlu dibuat. Tapi yg bestnya, rambut aku bukan makin gugur...tp makin lebat. Hahahahaha...

Oh Medan, tak sabar rasanya menanti hari tersebut tiba.

Harap aku hidup lagi by then.... :D

* Mentang2 aku kat Panasonic, apa2 website yg aku bukak, by default akan tukar jadi bahasa Jepun. Chaittt!!!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Jaja called. Atuk Sue meninggal kat hospital ptg tadi.

Terkedu aku kejap. Takleh cakap. Terus aku sedih gile, teringat balik cerita masa raya haritu. Aku call Mummy & Makton, mintak pegi ziarah tp diaorg cam taknak la pulak. Fine, balik Muar weekend ni aku pegi la rumah Sue sorang2.

Baru aku tau aku tak sempat salam dia masa nak balik haritu. Macam mana aku tak sempat nak balik jumpa Arwah Bapak for the last time. Aku asyik terbayang muke dia masa tunjuk aku kotak berisi kain pelikat tu.

Masa Arwah Bapak meninggal dulu, aku menangis sampai rasa otak nak pecah. Skang otak aku sipi lagi nak jadi mcm tu. Nak wat keje pun takleh concentrate. Kepada semua yg aku kata aku selsema, tak sihat dan sebagainye... mintak maaf. Aku tak penah menangis depan orang.

Al-Fatihah untuk arwah atuk Sue.

Sunday, June 22, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Splurge day!!

Kasut sukan, kasut tinggi, J Co donut, birthday presents for the kids, Secret Recipe for lunch... Duit sudah terbang! Parking sampai 7hengget kat Time Square. Lantakla. Janji aku da sampai Pavillion akhirnye.

Syok jalan sorang2 kat Bukit Bintang. Pagi2 hari ahad yg tak ramai orang. Tapi biasa la...guard dok pandang aku sbb pakai baju tido ngan selipar jepun. Buruk giler, jalan sorang2.

Ingat nak sambung kat KLCC, tapi rasanya dlm kol 2 gitu parking da susah nak dapat. So pegi Tesco Ampang je. Downgrade eh? Hahahahaha....

Best2!!

Tapi yg paling bestnye, masa kat Pavillion tu.. igt nak balik, skali ternampak foodcourt kat bawah. Ok la, saje nak cekidaut...so turun la. Turun jek nampak Will Quah!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dulu aku pernah imagine kalau aku jumpa dia, aku nak cakap "I Love You" kat dia. Tapi masa tu dia dgn sorang kawan lelaki & perempuan, & he's on the phone.

Tak ke jodoh tu namanye? Mcm ade mende yg menarik aku turun bawah time tu. Rupanya nak jumpa Will Quah. Bukan tu jek, J Co donut takde org dalam line. Takde orang ok. Jarang sgt ia berlaku. Sangat rugi kalau tak cepat2 membeli. Huhuhuhuh...

Best giler harini ok!

Saturday, June 21, 2008 by scabbers 3 Comments A⁺ a^-

Sebagaimana aku bagitau Pizli, ada 5 org lelaki je dlm dunia ni yg aku betul2 suke tak kire waktu:

1. Brad Pitt
2. Keanu Reeves
3. Jared Leto
4. Adrian Grenier
5. Colin Farrell

Itu sudah mengikut turutan. Dan sekarang aku tgh addicted to Entourage, aku rasa my heart is gonna explode anytime sbb banyak sgt tgk Adrian Grenier yg sgt sexy dan hensem.

Help!

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Kalau ada kawan lelaki, mula2 dia ada gf pastu dia tunang pastu dia kawen. And then you can't hang out with him anymore bcoz then wife dia akan marah & semua org lain akan kata that he's cheating on his wife.

Kalau ada kawan perempuan, mula2 dia ada bf pastu dia tunang pastu dia kawen. And then you can't hang out with her anymore bcoz dia akan sibuk buat kerja rumah, layan laki & jaga anak.

And for those yg life nye static gitu je, takde berkembang mcm org lain... berbaik2 lah dengan ahli keluarga. Bcoz at the end of the day, your own family je yg ada disisi.

I love my family very much!

Sorry friends, I don't love you. Not at the moment.

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Ok, ada sorang kawan kat internet nih... a guy, 1 year younger... kerja ok, rupa paras ok walaupun penampilannye agak poy... ade la jugak potensi utk kami kuar makan ke dating ke kan....

Skali tu, dia tulis "penat kejew". Fine, aku abaikan. Then dia tulis lagi "oh yekew". This is not the 1st time, and I'm starting to get a bit annoyed.

So I guess he's out. Bye bye bro. Just because he adds a "w" at the end of those words. Pizli, ko tentu faham perasaan aku kan?! Since aku ni mmg memilih, why not make the most of it. Hehehehe..

Thursday, June 19, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Asyik datang lambat. Asyik look forward to daily chit-chat with Brader Parking. Lama - lama makin gemok, dan makin takde duit.

Sebab ape? Sebab park keta dekat dan berbayar.

Scabbers : Wake up and smell the coffee, dude.

Wormtail : I don't want to.

Monday, June 16, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Teardrops on My Guitar
Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see...

Thursday, June 12, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Saya memerlukan tips. To let Mummy to say "Yes" to my request for settling down in Muar, working as a normal gadis kilang or kerani or pegawai bank or security guard. Whatever jobs yg ada kat sana.

Untuk ke-sekian kali nye, I'm starting to hate this life and wishing for a better one at home. Even better if the world would end now, it'll all go away. (Eh, tapi belum bersedia lagi untuk merasa diri ini dibakar dan diseksa)

* Harga petrol adalah salah satu daripada faktor yg mendorong saya untuk berperasaan begini.

** Eh, aku takleh ada affair dgn laki org eh? Sikitttttt je pun takleh ke?

OI! Baru je cakap pasal burning in hell. Mau tambah dosa ka? (Sambil menggelengkan kepala penuh kecewa)

Monday, June 09, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Ada menjadi tanda tanya sebenarnye sape yg tunang?

Untuk keterangan lanjut, siler layari laman flickr saye. Ahaks!

Friday, June 06, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Mummy just called. Suruh masuk ikut gate depan bile aku sampai malam karang. When I asked why... she said kat blakang dah buat kemah.

Kemah?!

Dude! This is huge! Rupanya siap buat baca2 Yasin oleh kumpulan mengaji Makton & makan2 lagik. Whoalau! Cousin Lin punye majlis tunang besar2an nampaknye. Silap2 haribulan nikah terus. Ekekekeke....

I am so psyched!!! Last aku balik Muar masa cuti 1st May. Tambah2 lagi, dah berkurun takde org nak kawen dalam family.

Yeayy!!! Bestnye!!!

I have to go calm myself down with some coffee.

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Eh, aku baru terfikir. Ke..... mmg semua majlis tunang mcm ni? Muahahahaha... aku sungguh kesian. Tatau hapah pun.

Masa cuti 1st May tu aku ada 4 wedding invitations. 3 kat Muar, 1 kat KL. Tapi satu pun tak pegi. 6/7/08 ni ada 3 invitaions. Satu kat KL, satu kat Senawang, satu kat Muar. Aku rasa yg kat Senawang tu aku pegi kot. Budak ofis aku.

Aku tau kalo kite dah dapat Walimatul Urus, kite mesti pegi. Kan? Kalo cenggitu, sape2 yg mintak address aku pasni aku takmau bagi. Sombong tak? Hahahahaha... Jgn risau, aku nye wedding nnt aku takkan jemput orang. Keluarga terdekat sahaja. Sekian terima kasih.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008 by scabbers 3 Comments A⁺ a^-

Selasa

"Hi. Terima kasih", kata si dia beserta senyuman manis lemak berkrim.

Khamis

"Lama tak nampak, kak? Smalam letak kat atas sana? Padan la nampak mcm kenal je kereta tu. Mahal tak? Macam mana dia kire ye? ", si dia memberikan soalan bertubi-tubi sambil tersengih.

Jumaat

"Wah...lambat balik, kak. Ni mesti buat OT ni", katanya sambil tersengih2 mengira duit.

Selasa (harini)

"Lama tak nampak, kak? Ape kabar? Sihat?", skali lagi diserta kan dengan sengih yg tak sudah itu.

Layankan aje dengan baik, jgn lebih2. Strictly for flirting purposes only. Thank-you-very-much. I might have to suggest The Company to increase my salary kalau nak jumpa dia hari2. If not, bankrupt la aku.

Monday, June 02, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Sunday, June 01, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

M.A.T.I

Friday, May 30, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

"Eh, ikan dalam kolam ni makin banyak la..?", kata saya kepada Mr. H dengan penuh tanda tanya.

"Yela, ikan kan membiak...", kata Mr. H sambil memberi senyuman sinis kepada saya.

Ye tak ye eh. Lupa pulak ikan boleh membiak.

DUH!!!!

Monday, May 26, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Sempurna
Andra And The Backbone

Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan selalu memujamu

Di setiap langkahku
Ku kan selalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Tak kan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidup ku lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku kau begitu
Sempurna...
Sempurna...

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata yang hapus semua sesalku

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidup ku lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku kau begitu
Sempurna...
Sempurna...

Friday, May 23, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Google this: Joe Jonas

And drool over him. Like I did. And still am.

=P~

Sunday, May 18, 2008 by scabbers 7 Comments A⁺ a^-

Terima kasih, Omar. Kerana memberi peluang kepada aku bekerja dengan seorang mamat kaya yang comel dan mesra alam (maybe he's nice coz I'm doing his work, but Who Cares!!!!).

Cousin Lynn nak tunang early next month.

YEAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suke. Suke. Suke. Ade kenduri kat rumah. Yeay yeayyyyy!!!

:D

Friday, May 16, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Can a person, like, go thru one day without flirting?

I think not.

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Aku wish aku tinggal kat kampung pedalaman yang stress-free. Handphone, Credit Card dan Internet tidak bermakna langsung buat aku. Dan aku ada husband at least, by now.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Sedang aku membunuh masa, aku google "Ghazal" and clicked its Wiki. Scroll punye scroll, terjumpa this:

Many Indian and Pakistani film singers are also famous for singing ghazals. These include:

Noor Jehan

Yup, seakan-akan walaupun ejaannya berlainan. Bayangkan kalau aku menyanyi Ghazal sambil rambut diikat dua seperti dia. Sungguh kurang sopan.

Aku pikir, kalo aku nye majlis nanti.. aku nak jemput band Ghazal dan Keroncong main. Dan tak lupa juga Alicia Keys untuk genre RnB.

Saturday, May 10, 2008 by scabbers 4 Comments A⁺ a^-

Pada suatu hari yg tenang, pukul 6.30 pagi aku telah siap sedia turun breakfast dengan Farah dan Rahmat. Kemudian aku dan Farah meneruskan perjalanan kami ke Sekolah Wangsa Melawati untuk menduduki peperiksaan MUET. Dengan penuh confident, kami berasa nervous untuk module Speaking. Sedang kami berbual-bual, kami baru tersedar untuk menyemak kembali slip peperiksaan. Alangkah terkejutnya kami apabila mendapati bahawa peperiksaan yang akan mula dalam masa 20 minit lagi itu bukanlah Speaking module, tetapi Reading Comprehension, Writing dan Listening.

Terus-terus aku berasa panic dan mencari di dalam beg jika aku membawa peralatan yang lengkap. Harapan aku hampa dan aku mula bertambah panic! Nasib baik Farah ada membawa pensel 2B sebanyak 2 batang dan meminjamkannya kepada aku sebatang. Begitu juga dengan pen. Pen-pen yang aku bawa semuanya tak boleh pakai. (Baik tak payah bawak!) Dan kenangan yang paling manis, perlu aku highlight kan disini adelah bila Farah memotong pemadam nye dengan menggunakan pembaris. Oh sungguh lucu ketika itu!

MUET exam berjalan dengan lancar, penuh efisyen pihak yang menguruskannya. Tetapi tidak pada diri aku yang menjawab soalan. Bak kata budak-budak sekarang, "sungguh hampeh". Pada pendapat aku, Fatin yang Darjah 2 tu boleh mengarang jauh lebih baik dari aku. Malu. Aku malu. Tetapi, aku teruskan juga walaupun aku sudah tidak mampu untuk memikul kemaluannya.

Akhirnya pada pukul 1 ptg, exam selesai. Aku bersyukur. Tetapi perasaan nervous aku belum ada kesudahannya kerana Speaking module akan muncul pada hari Isnin pula. Sementara menunggu hari itu tiba, sempat lagi saya pergi ke majlis persandingan kawan saya, Ijam. Oh Ijam sudah kawen. Satu demi satu kawan aku pergi meninggalkan alam bujang mereka. Aku seorang sahaja yang masih setia disini. Kedudukan aku sebagai presindent The Singles Club sewaktu di kolej memang utuh walaupun sudah 6 tahun meninggalkannya. Waduh. Sadis sekali. Ahahahaha...

Dan pada petang Sabtu yang indah ini, aku tidak mahu berfikir perkara lain. Kerja, projects mahupun peperiksaan. Aku mahu menonton movies yang sudah di download. Aku mahu tidur. Selamat tinggal blog. Untuk kali ini.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Seronok ke bertunang? Ade ape jek?

Tuesday, April 29, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Pada hari ini, ramai orang on YM.

Terima kasih.

Monday, April 28, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Was hot yesterday, so I cut my hair off. Tinggal half je. Ugly like hell, but hey... who cares?!!!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Met a new friend on Monday, had sushi. Received a free movie ticket on Tuesday morning, went to watch the movie in the evening, lepak2 and makan until near midnight.

Hey, I can't remember the last time I had this much fun!

Sunday, April 20, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

It's ok if I don't know how to hack a system.

It's ok if I don't have friends.

It's ok if I just stay in throughout the weekend.

As long as there are endless supply of movies, a DVD player, TV, computer & internet..... I'm a happy person.

Yeay Me!

* Justin Long is so cute!! *

Thursday, April 17, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Scabbers : Sakit mata! Sakit mata!

Wormtail : Nampak mamat hensem ke?

Scabbers : No. Nampak hot chick.

Wormtail : Dude!!!

Scabbers : * Grins *

Wormtail : What now?

Scabbers : Mamat hensem. 12 o'clock.

Wormtail : And?

Scabbers : Nothing. Just imagining things.

Wormtail : You're sick.

Scabbers : I know! :D

Wednesday, April 16, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

$ apxs -i -a -c mod_foo.c
     gcc -fpic -DSHARED_MODULE -I/path/to/apache/include -c mod_foo.c
     ld -Bshareable -o mod_foo.so mod_foo.o
     cp mod_foo.so /path/to/apache/libexec/mod_foo.so
     chmod 755 /path/to/apache/libexec/mod_foo.so
     [activating module `foo' in /path/to/apache/etc/httpd.conf]
     $ apachectl restart
     /path/to/apache/sbin/apachectl restart: httpd not running, trying to start
     [Tue Mar 31 11:27:55 1998] [debug] mod_so.c(303): loaded module foo_module
     /path/to/apache/sbin/apachectl restart: httpd started
     $ _

* WTF??!!!

Friday, April 11, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Selamat Hari Jadi kepada saya.

Wednesday, April 09, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Kawan2 aku skang sumer da tak best. Serious **** nye tak best. Semua bz bukan main lagi.

* Oh dude, lu mmg dah ditakdirkan merempuh hidup sorang2 gamaknye. Tahan aje la. Tak lama lagi tamat lah riwayat kita semua. *

Or maybe aku perlu carik satu set kawan baru.

Sunday, April 06, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

Yup, Yup. I'm counting the days. I don't forget. I'm still young. Seriously.

:P

My wish list:

A kitten/cat berbulu lebat tapi muke tak penyek
Lingerie
Motorola RAZR2 V9
RM45000 (jumlah hutang yg ada sekarang)
A ticket to see NKOTB reunion concert

Thursday, April 03, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Deskripsi gambar 1: Kucing belaan yg bernama Goliath (or is it Glion?). Sudah tua, sedikit compang-camping, tetapi masih disayangi oleh masyarakat. Di suatu pagi Sabtu yg nyaman, dia sedang bermalas-malasan di halaman rumah.

Deskripsi gambar 2: Seekor anjing stray yg sedang berteduh di depan pagar rumah makcik saye. Kami beri nama anjing nih - Shorty. Sebab dia pendek. Nampak??

I love this video. Macam diwaktu malam dan bersantai nya seorang bapak ngan baby nye. Mari bergelak tawa.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Some girls have all the luck.

Pandai. A high position at work. Gaji besar tanpa apa2 tanggungan. Keluarga yg berkemampuan dan tidak biasa dengan kesusahan hidup. Pretty. Sexy. Have boyfriends. Ramai kawan. Pandai bergaul dengan orang ramai. Able to cook delicious meals....

I don't have all that. Tapi aku bersyukur dengan apa yg ada. Hopefully aku lebih rajin utk menambah ape yg kurang.

* Sebenarnye stress sbb fikir duit, hutang2 dan masa hadapan.... tp termasuk pulak skali mende2 lain yg sewaktu dengannye *

Monday, March 31, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Please oh please please please let me fall sick tomorrow or any time between today and Friday.

PLEASE!!!!!!!!

Thursday, March 27, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

I pushed the Reset button a few days (or weeks) back. On most of the things, not all of'em. Moving slowly towards putting my life together.

Embracing life? Too cliché.

Yea, rite! I don't even know what cliché means. Please excuse my stupidity.

Anyway, I'm enjoying life at the moment. And by life, I mean my cyber-life where I exist most of the time. Real life? Nahhhhhh.... Still non-existent!

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Name me one person who does not like Here Without You by 3 Doors Down.

I bet you can't. It's the best song. Ever.

Saturday, March 22, 2008 by scabbers 5 Comments A⁺ a^-

Pandai, kaya, berpengaruh, good-looking, tapi sayang.... minum arak.

Tak pandai, tak kaya, tak berpengaruh, not good-looking, tapi sayang.... terlalu mencuba.

Sederhana pandai, tak kaya/tak miskin, tak berpengaruh sangat tetapi disayangi oleh kawan2 dan ahli keluarga, sederhana rupa paras nya, tapi sayang.... asyik memandang orang lain hingga terlupa diri sendiri.

B.O.R.I.N.G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.E.N.S.E.N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kill me NOW! Before it's too late.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Nota 1:

I define pink to a whole new level.

That is, if you see me in this tshirt I'm wearing now. Don't think I'll get any boyfriends today, though. Semua sudah buta dengan terangnya warna baju aku ini. Tapi kalo dia pakai spek itam, ok lah.

Nota 2:

Telah lama kupendam perasaan itu
Menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku

Dipetik dari lagu Ungu - Cinta Dalam Hati.

Boleh di-aplikasi-kan dalam hidup aku, kalau tak silap. Tetapi mungkin lebih sesuai jika digunakan deskripsi seperti yg tertera dibawah:

"Aku tgh tunggu bas no. 96 nih. Tolong jangan kacau"

Nota 3:

Tak suke! Tak suke! Tak suke!

Aku pandai (bukan nak belagak, tp nak bagi sedap hati walaupun diri sendiri tahu dimana tahap kecerdikan sebenar), tapi sayang, aku bodoh. Berusalah dengan lebih gigih untuk mengekalkan tahap sabar yg maksima dalam diri ini. Breathe in, breathe out.

"You can do it", kata myOtak kepada myHati.

Sunday, March 16, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Aku benci manusia.

Lelaki mahupun perempuan. Sama. Aku dah cukup ramai kawan, aku taknak kawan lagi. Aku takde laki, dan aku tak rasa aku nak pun. Ever.

Dan aku benci diri aku bila tidak berterima kasih. Kepada-NYA mahupun kepada manusia lain.

Manusia memang menjengkelkan.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 by scabbers 5 Comments A⁺ a^-

Pada suatu hari, ada seorang manusia datang meminta maaf kepadaku, lalu berkata, "I know I'm wrong, I'm really sorry. You have all the reason in the world to be mad at me. I take the blame".

Belum sempat aku berkata apa2, dia menyambung lagi, "I'm very sorry, ok. I'm a jerk... and I'm ashamed of myself. I'm really very, very sorry", sambil menundukkan kepalanya.

Dengan senyuman yg manis, aku berkata, "Yea, ok", lalu aku mengangkat mukanya supaya mata kami bertentangan. Ku lihat senyuman mula terukir di bibirnya.

Sepantas kilat aku menumbuk mukanya yg membuat aku sakit hati selama ini.

* Dush! *

"Aduh! Apa ni?", sambil mengesat darah yg keluar dari bibirnya.

"Itu darah", kataku selamba.

"Apa erti semuanya ni?"

Tanpa memberikan jawapan, aku menumbuk perutnya sekuat hati sehingga dia terduduk menahan sakit. Terus aku menendang-nendang manusia tersebut dengan sepenuh hati aku.

"Aduh! Stop!"

Aku tidak peduli dengan rintihannya. Aku teruskan juga tendangan aku.

* Dush! Dush! Dush!!!! *

Aku luahkan segala rasa kemarahan aku selama ini yg tersimpan. Tidak dapat aku kawal emosi aku. Tendangan demi tendangan. Ku pijak kakinya, tangannya, badannya, dan dia hanya mampu menjerit kesakitan.

Sehinggalah perasaan marah aku hilang, dirinya pula berlumuran darah dan tangisan telah kedengaran, barulah aku berhenti.

Barulah aku puas hati.

Maka aku beredar tanpa sepatah kata...

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Kalau jadi baik, kena pijak kepala.
Kalau jadi jahat, semua orang benci.
Adekah salah aku menjadi who I am, or salah orang lain, yg asyik nak point to others but themselves?

Sabar, dude.... sabar.

Sabar............

Sabar......................

Sabar......................................

Thursday, March 06, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Wahai blog, dulu aku sakit hati aku cerita pada seorang manusia nih. Dan lepas tu manusia tu pulak buat aku sakit hati. Dengan cara yg sama (or worse) yg buat aku sakit hati in the 1st place.

Buang masa aku. Buang tenaga aku.
(Notice aku menulis tanpa menggunakan capslock, demi bertahan sabar)

Aku tak suka keadaan diri aku biler marah. Atau sedih. Atau sakit hati. Oleh itu lebih baik aku pendam sendiri dan buat diam. Cuma kadang2 aku rasa penat men-saiko-kan diri sendiri lalu I turn to you, blog dearie.

Aku harap tahap kesabaran aku bertahan. Jika ditakdirkan satu hari I have to face that person, biarlah aku tetap bersabar. Walau sakit hati macam mana pun, walau aku nak perli tahap melampau pun.... jangan sampai aku tertampar ke, termaki hamun ke, terbuat dia sakit hati balik. Sesungguhnya membalas dendam itu tidak baik.

The truth will shine....

Thursday, March 06, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Waktu2 genting nak sampai 8th March nih seronok pulak rasa tengok keadaan sekeliling. Banner, bendera yg berselerak disekitar jalan raya, pokok, tiang lampu dan jugak kereta. Tidak lupa jugak meng-cekidaut kat newspaper, be it NST, Utusan or Harakah. Dan sebagai seorang yg sentiasa berada di dunia virtual, tak lupa membaca forwarded emails dan menziarahi blog2 untuk membaca komen2 dan pendapat dari lebih ramai penduduk Malaysia.

Time2 cenggini la semua orang kire "all out" dengan kutukan masing2. Yang kawan bleh jadi lawan, yg dah kawen pun bleh bercerai. Bukan main lagik! Sampai tergelak2 sbb rasa macam sangat childish. Last2 rasa macam baca majalah Mangga yg memberi gossip bertajuk "Acik dan Nana pernah kena denda 20sen disekolah".

More or less.

Waktu macam nih jugak kita akan rasa selesa sebab jalan raya berlubang semuanya dah dibetulkan. Paip pecah atau ape2 kerosakan lain semuanya settle. Mintak aje ape kite nak, semuanya dapat. Huhuhuhuhu....

Dan yg paling hangat nih pasal harga barang lah kot? Ade orang kata BN = Barang Naik. Tapi, boleh ke harga barang tu tiba2 turun jika ada kerajaan baru? Harga petrol turun dan free education sampai university level? Hmmmm... dengar jek mmg la best. Tapi kalau fikir secara logik, boleh ke berlaku? Mampu ke? Tanpa meng-efek-kan ekonomi negara dalam masa2 akan datang?

Oh well... who am I to say, anyway. I don't have a clue about all these! I'm just bored and stuck with my work and started to read about the election. Suddenly rasa excited pulak. Heheheh...

Anyway, selamat mengundi! Kalau dah register tu pegi lah mengundi dengan betul. Pangkah, bukan tick. Kalau nak buat undi rosak, baik takyah balik mengundi. Kalau taknak balik mengundi, baik takyah register. Buang masa dan tenaga semua pihak je. Especially diri sendiri.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

You know it's not your day when:

1. Early morning, it takes you 1/2 an hour just to get out of your housing area to get to the main street.
2. Once in the office, you realize you left your laptop charger at home. And, you just walked 20 minutes from the car park.
3. You just remembered you promised your Mum to bank-in the money for your car, like, 4 days ago.
4. You have no idea how to solve your work problem. In other words, you're stupid as hell coz you don't know how to do your work.
5. You're quietly cursing over your work and suddenly your chair broke. You didn't fall down, but the whole office went quiet.

* Urggghhhhhh!!! *

Monday, March 03, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

Things to do when you're alone in the office:

1. Pick your nose and wipe it under somebody else's desk.
2. Check out your friends' Browser History and then turn off their PCs.
3. Print personal documents. A whole lot of'em.
4. Talk very loudly to yourself. Better if you sing songs from Slipknot.
5. Run around until you sweat excessively.

Whatever you do, do NOT do explicit stuff. Or even think of surfing it. If you get caught, it'll cost you a fortune to do a plastic surgery and move out of the country.

Out of humiliation, I mean.

Saturday, March 01, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Hey ya blog! I'm waiting for Abg Tebu, his wife and his friend to come and have dinner. Saja je nak drop by sini, menconteng2. I'll update later once the get-together is over. As for now, lemme let loose with OneRepublic dulu. Sebab ada tanda2 sakit di hati aku nih.

* Don't go there, dude... do NOT go there!!!

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Just got back. Few minutes before 2am. Man! I haven't been lepak-ing malam2 for wayyy too long, I kinda miss it. Abg Tebu nampak berisi sikit, his wife looks a bit different (but then again, aku jarang jumpa dia..so aku tak igt sgt rupa dia. hahahah) and his friend.... banyak nye cakap!!! Tapi friendly la, so I had no problem la dengan dia. Selamba je orangnye. And..... I met Burn. He came down to join us. Dude! It was awkward. Errkkk...

Anyway, it was a good to lepak again.

Thursday, February 28, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Dia : Hi awak. Dah makan?
Saya : Dah.
Dia : Makan ape?
Saya : Makan nasik lauk ayam.
Dia : Awak kerja harini macam mana? Bz ke?
Saya : Tak, biasa2 je.
Dia : Awak sorang2 ke tu? Kazen awak tak balik lagi?
Saya : Belum, dia biasa balik lewat.
Dia : Yeke... kesian awak kena duduk sorang. Awak tak takut ke wak??
Saya : (Urgh. Biler mamat ni nak blah?) Takla. Biasa je.
Dia : Habistu tadi awak makan sorang2 la? Kesian la kat awak....
Saya : (Urghhh!!!) Tak kisah.
Dia : Awak bz ke? Ok la wakkk... awak buat la kerja awak tu dulu. Saya taknak kacau.
Saya : (YES!!!!) Ok.
Dia : Kesian awak banyak keje... Saya tak kacau awak eh. Buatlah kerja awak tu.
Saya : (What makes u think u tak kacau? DUH!!) Ok.
Dia : Nanti kita chat lagi ye...
Saya : (Enuf is enuf dude) Bye.

Aku memang rasa nak penampor je mamat nih. Seriously. Kalau satu hari aku decide nak jumpa dia, and he talks the same way he chats, memang nak kena tampar. Aku rimas giler dgn budak nih. Ape jadah tanya aku soklan banyak2? Mak aku pun tak tanya cenggitu. Ingat aku rasa dia tuh caring la? Yucks!!!! Cara nye sungguh tak sesuai dgn aku. Eeeiiii... now I remember why I log out everytime he logs in. Hahahahah...

Ini contoh perbualan kami sahaja. Tiada kena mengena dengan yg hidup, yg mati mahupun tahap mental aku yg sedang goyah sekarang nih.

Just because I feel like typing.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Dear Blog,

You know sometimes in movies/dramas they always have this moment in life where you're "finding yourself" supposedly?

Well, I may have found some facts about myself. I think I've been in denial all these while, until recently lah kan..

1. I'm VERY emotional.
2. I'm not bright, but I'm WAY stupid-er than u can ever imagine.
3. Aku memilih. Selama nih org cakap kat aku, tapi aku cakap "tak". Lama aku merenung dan mempertikaikan diri aku dari setiap aspek masa nak conclude mende nih. And yes, I AM choosy.
4. I still freak out with the thought of having a steady relationship. Which leads to the fact that I'm far away from being ready to get married anytime soon. (Read = in another 5 years or so)
5. I don't give myself enuff credit to the extent that I hate myself and wish for this world to end very, very soon.

Ye Blog, I have problems with myself. But I'm trying my very best untuk kembali ke jalan yg benar. Untuk menghilangkan segala rasa duka lara confuse dan ape2 lagi yg tak baik.

InsyaAllah.........

Monday, February 25, 2008 by scabbers 1 Comments A⁺ a^-

I'm still mad. But I won't curse or wish the death of anybody this time. I'm pissed... but maybe at my own self.

If only it will end earlier! Once it's done, I don't even wanna get close to it. I'll just keep to myself, my family and my truly trusted friends only.

I don't wanna think about it as for now. Nope.

Anyway, there's nothing I can think of to write. Cuma aku sedang suka One Republic skang nih. Dunno why. Maybe sbb lagu Apologize tu kot. Now downloading the full album.

Here's his song on top of my playlist now.

Stop and Stare

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...

Friday, February 22, 2008 by scabbers 3 Comments A⁺ a^-

Diaorg tuh sumer sama jek. Bodoh.

Bodoh nak mampos!!!

Pegi mati lagi bagus. Lagi senang idup aku.

$%$@#%*@(&()*^%!^$#

Thursday, February 21, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Sedang aku berjalan ke pejabat, sempat lagi aku melayan angan-angan.

"How long have you been driving?"

"Since I was... 18?"

"And how old are you now?"

"26"

SNAP!!

..... and I'm back to reality. Dude! Twenty-six.

T-W-E-N-T-Y-S-I-X

* Urgghhh *

Whatever.

As long as I can listen to Chris Brown's With You, I'm happy.

"with every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love"

I totally love that particular part of the song... but let's snap back to reality, shall we?

Nope, not even close!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

Allahumma inni a’uudzubika minal hammi wal hazan, wa a’uudzubika minal ‘ajiz wal kasali, wa a’uudzubika minal jubni wal bukhli wa a’uudzubika min ghalabatid dayni wa qahrir rajali

"Ya Allah, aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari rasa susah dan duka, dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari sifat lemah dan malas, dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari sifat pengecut dan kikir, serta aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari hutang yang tak terbayar dan dari belenggu orang lain. "

-- H.R. Abu Umamah dan Abu Sa’id

Monday, February 18, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Pernahkah anda cuba mencederakan diri sendiri bila terasa sedih/marah/bengang/tensen or just plain miserable on the inside?

Tidak? Try lah.

Ia terasa sedap. Melegakan. And probably addictive jika jiwa mudah terpengaruh.

Speaking, again, seperti orang yg kurang ajaran agama. Astarghfirullah al'azim!

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Mari berkongsi:

"Ata'muruna nasa bilbirri watansauna anfusakum wa antum tatlunal kitab, afala ta'qilun " (Al-Quran, 1:43)

Maknanye: Patutkah kamu suruh orang lain mengerjakan kebaikan, sedang kamu melupakan dirimu sendiri, padahal kamu membaca Al Kitab, maka apakah kamu tidak berfikir?

Friday, February 15, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Friday is finally here.

Hooray!!

I'll be more productive next week, I promise! I'll sleep less, chat less, eat less, daydream less... I'll work like The Company ( amacam, ada gaya Heroes tak? :P ) depends solely on me. Tapi before that... let us enjoy the coming weekend. Oh I am so looking forward to spend the weekend here. See what's in store for me.

Mari kita bergembira
lalalalaaa~
Usah fikir duka lara
lalalalaaa~

Memang bila hujung minggu tiba, aku terasa seperti ingin menari. Apetah lagi bila mendengar Mary J Blige - Just Fine. Dance baby, dance! Dance like there's no tomorrow.

Hahahaha. Giler rupanya aku nih.

Eh tapi serious la. Aku rasa macam aku dah terkena Introduction to Insanity. Ah, biarla. Kalau aku gila pun ape salahnye? At least aku boleh melakukan ape2 tanpa perasaan.

Amende aku nih?! Cakap macam takde ajaran agama. Hish! Memalukan.

Excuse me.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008 by scabbers 2 Comments A⁺ a^-

En. PMW : Kau tak update ye hari ni? Blog?

Scabbers : Blom lagik. Aku tatau la ape nak tulis. Kang aku tulis menda2 yg depressing kang.................. ko menyampah plak.

En. PMW : Tulis je la. Aku nak membaca je.

In addition to the conversation above, aku membuka blogger dan menconteng arang di kanvas content ini. Walaupun hakikatnya tiada apa dalam kepala otak aku untuk dinukilkan disini.

Cerita Pangkor? Hmmmm... biar lah memori manis itu dalam kepala aku sahaja. Akan tetapi, sape2 nak tengok gambar boleh lawati Myspace saya.

Selanjutnya tiada apa yg hendak diperkatakan. Aku takda Umar atau Amni... aku cuma ada Omar saja sebagai kawan chat. So memang life aku tak menarik. Hahaha..

* Jgn marah ek, bang!

Akan tetapi aku suke life aku sekarang. Aku lebih banyak spend masa dirumah, sbb intenet aku betul2 depan Astro. Dan couch aku kalau duduk, confirm akan terbaring dengan bantal2 empuk dan kusyen-yg-dah-mencecah-lantai-akibat-tak-dapat-menampung-berat-aku. Jadi sambil aku menonton Heroes Season 2 hasil dari download aku, mata aku menjeling Tom & Jerry di kaca TV, jari jemariku sibuk chatting dan Torrent aku setia dengan queue movie dalam list.

Takde la aku depress tengok hp aku yg tak pernah nak berbunyik. Tak perlu la aku sibuk2 msg member2 sana sini sbb jadual aku dah penuh. Biar lah aku lupa daratan. Biarlah aku dengan diri aku. Biarlah....

:P

Tuesday, February 12, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Stesyen Terakhir
Andy

Landasan itu masih di situ
Menuju arah yang lurus
Gerabak berangkai masih setia
Arah selatan dan utara

Selisih gerakku duduk termanggu di bangku
Mengenang nasib diri tak siapa yang tahu

*
Situ ku masih setia menanti
Selagi hayat di sisi
Walau kau takkan kembali

Menunggu
Bila akan tiba waktu
Pasti akan aku jemu
Bersatu di alam baru
Dan menjadi satu
Kita berdua
Engkau dan aku
Dan selamanya semoga

Penumpang turun naik tanpa menghiraukan
Hasrat di hatiku
Tapi aku tak perlu merubah
Situ masih yang ku mahu

Memori yang kan kekal selama-lamanya
Sehingga terbuka nafas sudah terhenti
Tak perlu lagi.........

*

Sunday, February 10, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

The longer I live, the less I want to be a part of it. So don't say anything to make me feel better. You're not me, you don't get what I have experienced and you certainly do not understand how I feel.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008 by scabbers 0 Comments A⁺ a^-

Yes, another one got married. Az. My Convent friend. Congratulations to the bride and groom! Az berseri2 pada hari tu, of course! Nampak lain sangat.. memandangkan aku kenal dia dari sejak sekolah rendah lagi kan.

And yes, I wore the same outfit to Hanum's. I think I'm gonna wear that for every other weddings in the future. Like what I did with my baju kurung hitam a few years ago. Kehkehkeh..

Anyway, Lubnah's expecting her 3rd child already!!! Her first, Sofya, is 6 and her second, Faris, is 3.

Pelik tak budak kecik Faris ni nak kat aku? Siap peluk2, dia pulak yg tepuk2 aku kat belakang mcm org tua. Lama jugak aku dukung dia. Tapi the next day, tangan aku lenguh. Hahahaha.. Nampaknye blom ready lagik! Hahahaha..

Anyway, it was good to see everybody again. :)

* It's the Year of the Rat in the Chinese calendar. Yeay for Scabbers!!

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